Lonely Writers Blog Group Forum Acting

Is it just me, or does anyone else have days when they feel like they're acting?

Like you're in a play or a movie and even though you know something isn't right or real, you have to play along anyways?

For example, ever known someone was lying to you, but you really wanted them to admit it-give them a chance to be honest before calling them out? So, you smile and pretend you aren't thinking in your mind:"LIAR!" everytime they talk to you?

Or another example is in the "story" you know, although it hasn't been spoken, that your mom is dying but you have to play along and laugh and smile like everything is normal when inside you are mass chaos and  full of horror?

Acting is exhausting.

I know how you feel.  There are days when inside I just want to cry and scream, or throw something, but you laugh and joke and pretned like the whole world is a bed of roses when it really isn't.

As for the LIAR part, oh yes, every time I speak to the in-laws I get that feeling and those thoughts, esceppially HIS Mother.  Mine too for that matter.

I don't understand the last part hun.  Are you saying that your Mother is dying?  Or that you feel she is?  Or that there are those who are hiding the fact?  I'm a bit confused with that, sorry.  XX

Well, my parents are not telling me the whole story, I discover more and more in moments of my dads panicked moments whenever my mom has an "episode" as he calls them. That usually means a mini-stroke or trouble breathing, and ends up in the ER or going by ambulance. I know she has COPD and the carotid (Dont know if I spelled it right) that she had major surgery on to clear is getting clogged again.....she also has a blockage in the back of her neck that they cant operate on for whatever reason--or so that's what she tells me.

With the holidays coming up....I just find myself wanting to cry because I miss the days when she was healthy...we'd play Christmas music and dance, decorate, cook....all of my best memories. Now she can't walk half a block without being unable to breathe.

Anyone reading this who smokes, please please quit! It is going to kill you, or make life very painful for you and those you love at some point. Thats a guarantee.

My only sibling--my brother smokes and I'm after him to quit. Im so afraid my mom, dad and brother are going to die before me....I have no idea what I'd do without them.

Ok, sorry....enough of this topic!

First, you did spell it right.

Second, I'm sorry that your mother is in such distress. I'm sorrier still that her physical deterioration is a secret. How sad that she must bear her suffering alone without the support and heep from her greatest achievements, her children.

May I suggest that you (gently) press your parents for the right to fully participate in their most profound transistion since their births? You deserve to be there, to give and receive love, to share in the joy and pain of their mortality, and to grieve within the circle of family.

I've probably said too much. I apologise for intruding.

S&O

S&O you didn't intrude. I appreciate the advice, and you're right. thank you!  ;)