Poetic Infusion Society Forum ABC poem

another about my experiences:
A lot of things have come to my mind since then Because all the things are about that night Can’t you see I’m scared because of it? Doesn’t it bother you that your “baby girl hurts inside Even though we never really speak of it Forgetting it doesn’t make the pain go away Genuinely you don’t understand why I hide Hiding is what I do when im scared I’m scared to be with you because it could happen again Just because you play innocent, doesn’t mean you are Killing me with every text you send Laughing on the inside because you have no emotions My life is mine and I’m tired of being afraid Never in a million years would I think I could feel this way Oh but I can and it’s all because I’m weak People who love me tell me I’m not but I’m blinded Quitting is what I feel like I’m good at Right down to the very second that I leave you Shut up I tell myself Try and stay calm, I love him, is what I feed my emotions Understanding that I really do Very much with my whole heart Without an explanation, I know you are my life X-ray my heart and you will see it’s broke and tampered with You are who I want to be with, yet I’m clueless on why. Zealous for  just a minute of your time, I love you.