The fallen Forum Bad Thoughts

So I have this terribly bad habit of thinking of everything that I've ever done wrong and thinking about everything that's ever hurt me at the most random of moments, and it really bums me out. As you know from my profile those of you who have read it my grandmother died fairly recently, and for some reason, I just can't get over it. My parents aren't helping by yelling at me almost every day and occasionally threatening me, and I don't want to bug people over every tiny problem I have, but it quickly builds up. I've changed so much in just a month from girly and peppy but very secluded to slightly secluded and gothish. Instead of cutting my wrists, I bite my right arm. I don't know what to do. Also, I have very random mood swings from these thoughts. And I bite hard. I nearly broke the skin on the back of my hand last night! Please help! 

okay hunny it's not a problem to ask for help don't be scared ask your friends please and you need to know that we're here for you so please don't bite! i know it's hard to loss a loved one but remember their in a better place now the still love 

I understand... Definitely write about your feelings when you want to hurt yourself and definitely tell a close friend you trust, it helps. :)

Your problems no matter how small are still problems and are just as serious as everyone elses and deserves to be talked about. It's clearly hurting you. The death of your grandmother is clearly bothering you and that's probably not helping  all the bad thoughts you've already been having. Try keeping a journal and if you can't find a friend to talk to and you parents won't listen then the school counciler is there. He/she gets paid to listen. Even if it fixes nothing just saying it and getting those emotions out there can really help. I know you can get through this and if there is no one else I am open all the time for talking. Feel free to contact me :)