The fallen Forum Nothing

the feeling been around so long its triggered by the smallest things. the reasons dont even matter anymore. some days i feel like there could never be anything wrong it the world. im with my friends, laughing and smiling like i mean it. because i mean it. then at the drop of a hat im sitting in the dark, feeling helpless. ive desided to stay and the sting has been taken out of this, the intensity and faint wish for it to go away is gone and will never be back again. but i still dislike being sad. crying over nothing. feeling useless. helpless. and now that i have no will to make it stop, no reckless carelessness for me to believe ill acidentally get myself killed one day. now that im diffinantly staying. ill have to put up with feeling this weak forever.  not too long a time but still. i still hate it even tho the anger has been knocked out of me.

at least the anger was something to hang onto and the fear was there to stop anything happening. being angery dosnt feel as bad as being sad. it seems things were better before i was better :/

i just dont want to cry anymore.

I hear ya man. Preaching to the choir. Just know you're not alone. ^_^ 

-_- it seems every time I come to wright something on here I fined something of yours baby you know you can always talk to me about anything I'm here for you if something is wrong come talk to me I'm always here for you ok