The fallen Forum Friends? Oh no..

Hi my fallen friends..
I don't know if it has ever happened to you but I've been really disappointed in my friends' behaviour.
Some of you know that I've been through a lot lately. Losing a friend is really painful, especially if this friend is dead.
With my health problems and this loss, I've been very sad and sick..really broken and listen to my "so called friends" telling me "I'm sorry" but then living me alone, it made think.
But what shocked me the most was this: "Remember that you're not the only one that is having a bad time."
WHAT?????
I mean, he didn't know my dead friend and her family. He's just one of my friends from abroad.
Can't I say that I'm angry at him? How dare him say that to me?
I know what it feels like to suffer..I mean..literally suffering, phisically and inside my heart and soul...spending my time hidden while praying God to help me..to make it stop..
His words hurt me so deeply and it was like a knife stabbing my broken heart into tiny pieces..
How can someone think that you can help a person/friend living her/him alone with his/her pain?
I'm a strong person and sometimes I prefer to deal alone with my pain but now I'm noticing that they don't even care.
What kind of friends are these?
After one of my friends told me that she stays away because I make her sad, I'm really seeing them how they really are.
Empty people.
They think that sending a single message to my phone is helping me? I think that inside their heads, they did their part of comforting me with that single message..
"I did my part" I think that's their common thought and the puff! they disappear and keep living their lives..
wow...
Poor them..
These people are the typical ones that don't know what it feels like to suffer..I mean..really suffering..
Thank you for listening to me.
But I'm so disappointed in them..
I don't need this kind of people close to me..
Especially because when they're going to need me, I'm not going to be there for them.
I need to protect myself because nobody is here with me to help me.
K.

what?! if my friend was upset theyd be begging me to leave them alone and stop huggeling them!  wha-?????? D: im so sowwwy *huggels huggels huggels* gosh people can be confusing

It is really quite upsetting to hear that your friends are not there for you when you need them most.. and what makes it especially upsetting is that I know how that feels like.. there was a time when I made friends with people who didn't even care about me - who didn't even try to make me feel wanted and included... 

Thank you, hun..
I know, I'll survive and move on but right now, I think I'm hurting because I thought they were better than that..
So are we friends just in the happy moments? Oh no, my friends..
Your real friend is somebody who holds your hand when you want to let go..it's the one that hold you when you can't stand..it's the one that takes care of you while you can't move..
That's a friend!
Maybe, I should say:"Hi, I'm K. and my life is not rosy as you think..you have 5 minutes to decide if you want to be there for me."
I think it might work!
Sorry..but it's the reality and this totally sucks!
But, I'll be fine, my friends..
Thank you for your love..
I'm here if you need a shoulder to cry on..
Hugs, K.