http://slow.writerscafe.org/roxyanna77 The original writings of author Jeanette en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776007781 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 On the verge of cryingAs you slowly rip out my heartYou care Not how much you hurt meAnd you haven't from the start Supposedly devoted to meWhile your eyes are on herBands with bounds vanishAnd infidelity occurs I tell you the line has been crossedYou deny with the notion of "friends"I'm n.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/1056497/ Once upon a timeIn a land dry and hotThere was a girlWho couldn't be taught  "Be careful!" they'd say"Watch out!" they'd shoutBut on she wentShe knew without doubt  They were wrongSo safe and so boringAnd she wanted to LIVEUntil she was soaring  And then came the dayTha.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/1029554/ I've always been that girl in the backBehind you, less than youBeneath the bar of popularity I've always been that girl on the sideNot leading, not playingObserver, never participant I've always been the girl left outForgotten, dismissedDidn't even get a chance I've always been the gi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/1028943/ Fire burnsBut do know thisCharred ashesThe wind they kiss  When all is lostThere's nothing leftYou feel helplessThe hell of theft  When you think it's overWhat's done is doneA weight on your shouldersThat weighs a ton  Is lifted as simplyAs a pillow of airFloating abroa.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/1028935/      We met just before highschool registration 16 years ago. I was to be a freshman, and he a junior.       I showed up on that Friday, the last weekday before school started on Monday. I'd let communications slip with my few friends over the summer,.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/1023198/ You turn my senses on highTickling and lingering on every nerveCaressing the sweetness of every curve It's more than a feeling You sing to my heartLoving and lazy you stretch my soulBitterly fragrant you fill me up whole It's more than a feeling You protect and guard meMy body as.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/1004850/ I've waited all dayAnd now it's timeNo time for youOr another rhyme On my way to my book..... I'm almost thereThen someone callsI have to answerAnd allow the stall On my way to my book..... Discussion overThen nature phonesBathroom breakI begin to groan On my way to my book... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/999872/ Roses are red,Too much has been said.  Violets are blue,We are now through.  I thought our vowsWere sacred and true,  But I know nowThey were nothing to you.  You think I don't know,And that you can hide,  But now I'm just sorryI was ever your bride. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/997605/ How do you save someone you can't touch? How do you reach out and show you care, when you are forbidden to do so? How can I help her? Every part of me wants to hold her and tell her everything will be okay. I want her to be happy and take all her pain away. But I can't, I ca.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/997575/ In 30 yearsI've been bornAnd raised aloneIn an emotional storm In 30 yearsI've lost a parentBecame shyAnd very observant In 30 yearsI've gotten good gradesAttended schoolIn curls and braids In 30 yearsI met a boySuch a mistakeI was just his toy In 30 yearsI've had to workBreaking.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/995915/ My mom went through radiation treatment a few months ago. Towards the end, she wanted to give the medical team a gift, but couldn't think of what. I wrote this for her to give them. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/993916/ If and thenIf and whenCause and effectYou can't come in  If you give me moneyI'll provide you a serviceIf you tell your secretI'll let you beneath the surface  Give and takeSteal or borrowIs not enoughTo touch the sorrow   Payment of loveGifts for gloryWon't give you ac.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/993911/ Fighting to lose.Losing to die.Dying to live.Living to lie.Lying to gain.Gaining to get.Getting through pain.But not there yet. Crying to feel.Feeling the need.Needing to win.A hunger to feed.Feeding the cause.Causing the war.Warring the battle.What's the fight for? http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/993872/ Long rows of bushesGreen and neatly trimmedPink and purple flowersFollowing round the bend  Three story buildingsClock mounted on topCars running in circlesYet they never stop  Cobblestones and bricksLay sturdy under my feetPerfect in their patternThey don't miss a beat &nbs.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/993210/ I love to readTo experience someone else's story in my mind.  I love to feelThe things I don't in my own life.  I love to writeTo express what spoken words nevercould.  I love to ponderAbout life and deeper meanings.  I love to cryFor the losses that are not m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/992797/ The blood I see, it is not mineIts yours, its hisIts all combined.  The razors edgeThe shiney bladeThe dizzy feeling in my head.  Confusion and panicI can't controlRunning rampantThe urge to yell.  But yell I can'tI have no voiceI would if I couldBut I have no choice.&n.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/992727/ My anger amplifiesAs does yoursYou think you're rightAnd you have for years  But what you don't seeIs everyone elses viewsSo closed and protectedLoosened are your screws  Your temper is your downfallThe contempt dripping with maliceIsn't there any compassionWhy must you be so cal.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/992485/ EverydayA memory madeEverydayA memory fades  Everything we go throughGood, bad, happy or sadRests calmly on our death bedsJust memories we had  Dances and weddingsBirths and breakupsFlow seamlessly in unisonDevoid of disrupts  Worries once ponderedAnd scares upon ones h.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/992479/ One moment in timeSo quick does it passA flicker of a flameCame and gone so fast  Struggle to hold onTo the memory leftGrasping at nothingMind lost in a mess  Abysses and avenuesLonging to exploreTo the ends of eternitySearching evermore   In slumber or in wakeIs a myst.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/992471/ Encrypted and curiousConveyed confessionsWonderings of wiseIn tangled perceptions  Strange anomaliesOf times past and priorCurious confusionsEpiphany spun wire  Knowings and dealingsIn a place long agoEmotions and feelingsWhisper in voices so low  Rivers ran flowingIn a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/992176/ One finger, two fingers..... I grasp them like scissors,take a deep breath.Slowly in and out."I can do this," I whisper. One finger, two fingers..... I gently play with the soft mound of skin,coaxing it to respond.Nerves alert and aroused."I can do this," I mutter. One finger, tw.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/991973/ I see your downSo let me be your clownIll cheer you upI wont let you down  This is your partyAnything goesLet me line up your shotsIn nice little rows   Your beautiful to meWorthy and sweetWhen your not lookingI'll tickle your feet  To make you smileIs my dutiful jobI'l.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/991734/ I want to be empty.I want to be free.I need some compassion,a reason to Be.   I have a heart,I have a mind.But nothing to sharewith someone kind.   Emotions racing at the speed of light, but no expression or way out in sight.  A reason to carehas eluded me,for the peopl.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/991705/ The kids, they laughThey tease and taunt "You look dirty,did you brush your hair?"- Say what you want,- I don't care. I will not be defined The kids, they laughThey snicker and point "Look at her clothes.and all of those tears."- Say what you want,- I don't care. I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/991686/ Its hard to say whyMy words just wont stayClips and glimpsesFlying away  Focus!Focus!  You fool can't you see?Your thoughts your thoughtsWill never go or flee  They may runAnd they may hideBut like a shadowRemain at your side  Within your mindAre realms undefi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/991256/ I see you walkingDown the streetPretend I dont existYoure such a creep  All the timeWe spent togetherErased by greedIs it lost forever?  Your new lifeYou think is so greatI cant wait till it hits the fanUntwist it, get it straight  You are doomed by the lawsThat only Ka.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/991251/ Why do I only cryWhen I have makeup onLike when I feel prettyI'm not as strong  Music filled with sorrowLovers little sighsOn any other dayBrings nothing to my eyes  But the times when I feel beauitfulLike nothing could ever hurt meAre the times I'm left wide openVision blurry I .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/991217/ So you think you have a bad dad?  Try having an alcoholic father.  One who cares more about his beer than he does you. A father who stays out all night and rarely comes home.  And when he does, he beats you.  Imagine consoling your mother when she is cryi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/991126/ I speak to the skyAlone on a hilltopCrying in vainJust me and my teardrops  The wind wisps my faceAnd as I close my eyesI can hear it speakAvoidance would be unwise  "Listen here girlYou are NOT aloneJust look around youSee and it will be shown"  I open my eyesAnd squin.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/991097/ Lost...Where is it?-Where is what?The thing I'm looking for  Lost...I know I just had it!-Had what?That thing I'm looking for  Lost...It was here, and now it's gone-Where did you have it?I can't remember  Lost...Maybe someone stole it-Stole what?That thing I'm looking f.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/990923/ The beating of your heartLets me know you are aliveSo simple and steady,My love is no surprise  The endless rhythm,So soft and sweetThe thrumming of drumsSo in tune to the beat  Your life is beautifulBeloved, and blessed.Because I know you,I have known the best.  The da.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/990884/ Giving up on trying to elevateI'm sick and tiredOf my depressed mental state Happy with nothingnessAngry at everythingNo sanity on which to cling Lost and devoid on this rotating ballWhat's the pointTo trying at all This trip ain't to my likingIts no fun anymoreI've realized its worthlessHo hum, wha.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/990789/ Lying here restlessAwaiting sweet slumberRemnants of long daysAbout tomorrow I wonder If the weather is gentleAnd the mood is calmWill I stand againist demonsA pillar so strong Or instead will I quiverSuccombed by my fearThat others may judge meUnaware of my tears What has been hidden.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/990777/ Fyre you are beautiful.Fyre you are deadly. You warm meBurn meExcite me. As your flame leapt higherI could feel your powerThe infinite dimensionsThe impeding desire. Like water visually smoothClimbing and rippingThrough the air you move. The joy in your lightThe spectrums of your.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/990754/ A storm that ragesOf innermost turmoilBrewing and boilingA beast that's nocturnal The hidden halfRarely ever seenMy secret from youBorderline obsene Darkness cuts through meMisery my bondageSorrow is tattooedLike I'm branded a hostage Blades of blacknessPuncture my brainSaturated clou.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/990743/ True Story http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/990705/ Maybe I am the fortunate oneAlthough I've always felt alone Maybe my sorrows have been misplacedNo conrete on which to base Maybe there are othersWho have experienced real lossAnd I've been blindTo their dues and costs Maybe my circumstances made me hardThe strength I thought I posses.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/990703/ I need to get out of my head!I know what I said.No, it's not that easy...Do I need a reason?.Get over it?I wish!Well, what do you want?Just everything I've missed....You're dreaming!!I know, I know...Wake up you idiot!Why? Because YOU said so??.I don't have to do what you say!But you know you should.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/roxyanna77/990683/