http://slow.writerscafe.org/MissxMayhem The original writings of author Speak in Silence en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776173063 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 If I could, I would go back and change everything into something I thought was real. But sometimes the stars align just to show you have nothing left. So here are ten things I probably should've known by now but instead, I was too busy being distracted by cold receivers and empty rooms.1. Never fall.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1230878/ http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1207354/ Dear Future Love,Greetings from afar. You do not know me and I do not know you. I have never met you before but one day we will be close, inseparable. Our love will be a fire that ignites our souls and burns. Our love will not go easy. Our love will go out in a fiery and unforgettable passion. We wi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1200357/ http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1200310/ http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1200307/ http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1200303/ Dear everyone,I'm tired of this sensual bullshit. I'm tired of trying to find pretty ways to tell you all I want to die. I put it right in front of your face! I'll write "and hope your lights lead me home" and you'll think it's some stupid love thing. No. I want to die and no one listens. No one I p.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1193534/ http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1193260/ http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1192746/ Dear father,Father's day is coming up this Sunday and I'm just sitting here wondering, am I good enough for you to come home yet? It's okay, I know I'm not. Sincerely,Your daughter still without a father http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1191850/ Dear Trish,I don't understand you..at all. Things seem to affect you so much differently than they do me. Just because a girl (or your so called "friend") told you to kill yourself just because she's going to just doesn't make any sense. You sat there, for hours, researching "If I commit suicide, wi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1189598/ Dear Olivia,I read your story today..about Kelsey's suicide. Your words were sloppy and lacked of rhythm but somehow so much emotion within you was expressed. You never express that side of you. We're always joking about Satan and how people are such hypocrites these days, but I read it your story, .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1189463/ Dear (Scars,) F**K you. (I) hate you. Every single one of you. You're the reason I am who I am, and I hate who I am. You're all ugly but I'm the one that put you there. I HATE YOU. GO AWAY......but please stay. I (love) you. (You)'re the reason I can't wear a swimsuit anymore! I hated.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1189060/ Dear Brice,I'm feeling shockingly inspired tonight. Mostly because of the heartbreak that I've caused myself, the late nights spent together, and sad songs that have deeper meaning than the surface of the repetitive chorus. I would love to write songs but my voice shakes and my fingers tend to fumbl.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1189043/ http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1189035/ I saw the car crashThat killed those kids Teenage boyTeenage girlTraveling at speeds of light and soundBoth heading different directions,But both lye dying at oneThe night was darkAnd the sky was cryingThey hit head onThe collision splinted the silenceDefied logicAnd murdered two guilty livesBr.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1184940/ as I sleepthe embers of yourflaming and desiring heartbrand my skinslowly seeping into the bitternessand loneliness of the blacknessof my own heartif I could only find your love tonight,the embers may lay to rest,burnt out in the nothingness withinalone and heartlessI lye, dead to the worldand .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1181748/ Nighttimes were always the worst for her, which was okay for everyone else because they didn't see the horrors she faced. Her parents slept calmly without wake while she faced her darkest demons. Her friends chatting on Facebook and laughing at stupid inside jokes while she covered her ears and grit.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1177398/ Deep ocean blueCarry me up from your depthsDeep ocean blueCarry me away from the untrueUnspoken goodbyesHeartfelt tears I've only cried No more late nightsJust be honest and say they were liesSo I'll spend my last night dreaming of youAnd I'll cry my last tears over youI'll write my last words to yo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1172759/ Carry me home or just carry me awayAway from the horrors my own have seenCarry me so far away my demons loose my trackThe sea mends the shore's broken sandJust as you healed the wounds I caused with my handsBut now the memories seem like fog in the distanceVague in my memory and my existence Bu.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1170089/ Beautiful boyWith eyes so sadHear my voiceListen to my words:"Alone and emptyLooking at the starsFinding who you believe you are. Oh, this world deceives you.See, These scars do anything but define you.Sorrow fills you inner walls.When I look into your eyes,I see glimpses of her.Her jaded .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1169982/ March nightsOh, used to shine so brightNow filled with crimson-red dreamsTaking heights to new extremes Holding tight to every memory Phone calls, notes passedAll seem vague in color within my black and white reality Recognition attacks like a contagion Taking hold to the remembr.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1159042/ Teenagers Society's bitchUnderweighted fameJust to get rich "Society's perfect!""Society's fucked."All different opinionsMost out of luckCuts, bruises, burns"It was the cat""It was an accident" All because you called her fat..Blood, tearsThe war wages onAll secrets hidden awayBefore t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1157434/ "Please! Please stay!I can't do this on my own!Baby...you're My everything...I remembered your birthday,26th of May!"Slamming drawers Packing your clothesHeartbrokenNew skin exposed"No! I won't stay and watch you destroy yourselfDay in and day out!What about me?Do you even careThat ev.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1151416/ Daddy?Daddy can you hear me?You face is fading awayThis was when I was threeFather Dear fatherWhere're you been?Nine years, no callsHeartbroken Left to dieWhat am I suppose to do?Besides wonder whyMy legs scarred My body starved Tell me daddy?Am I finally good enough for you to c.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1150132/ This is why I left: http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1139064/ I remember the way he used to run his hands through his hairwhen he was nervous. When we were on long car rides together, the sun wouldilluminate his features. The small wrinkles on the corners of his eyes and theshine in his crystal blue eyes made me realize how much I loved him. I alsoreme.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1127631/ My mind is filled with thoughts I cannot sayMy thoughts are filled with actions I cannot displayI've always let you down with my filthy habitsI'm caught in a lie...Call me AliceCall me anything...anything but myselfConscience a killer"Find yourself, help yourself...bring yourself home"My soul can do.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1126140/ I'm breathing hard as your leavingI never thought it would be this wayYou take my hand and tell me "it's okay"But we both know its notA tear rolls down my faceI can't take itI can't take thisJust say you love meAs your leavinTake my heart andKeep it safeTell me you'll miss meTell me I'm yours C.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1069310/ The memories will always be here, shoved in the back of my mind, suppressed.My heart is somewhere elseThe recognition is killing meMemories of you and IWill never go freeI can't shake the thought of your hand fitting perfectly in mine. With our fingers entwined, nothing could break us. It was us aga.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1051924/ The detentions of fate shatterBreak into small, unrepairable piecesLook into the mirror, see nothingEveryday the insanity increases Severed shreds of crushed hearts floods back into memory leaving behind scarsThe heart fades into nothingnessA place that used to not have bars Ha.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1048388/ Tonight the city sleepsThe night-line is obscureThe streets are vacantNo one knows the pain the city enduresOn evenings like theseWhen the horizon meets the seaWhile the cars are parallel with the universeTonight, no one will be the escapeeTonight the streetlights have grown vagueEveryone will close.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1045837/ Life is good, which usually doesn't happen to me.I'm in love...again. But this time, its real. Of course I said that about the other two...but I probably know Brice better than he knows himself. You know you know someone well when you start finishing their sentences.I'm still a little insecure.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1042936/ I knew you when we were youngWhen we had no clueWhen no one cared what we looked likeWhen know one really knewEveryone knew, but no one noticedYou kept your head held highNothing would keep you downYou wouldn't let life just go byBut no one could ignore it anymoreIt was getting worse They couldn't s.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1041732/ I can't ignore the fact That you are nothing to meAnd you will never be anythingYou are just a drop in the black seaFate is my everlasting nightmareYou kiss me, bite my lipThe pain feels so goodJust as the blood starts to dripYou are just a flingAnd the worst thing, Is I know that, but I still tryJu.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1041706/ Water fills blackened lungsConstrained by my past demonsScars fill my armsSlight sounds of whispers in the windFrom past loves and broken heartsMy heart's trying to tell me somethingOr is it just the pastWhich lurks in the blackThe vague sense of nothingThe faint smell of pillsThe obscure sight of b.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1041511/ September 21For once in my f*****g life, things are going the way they should. For the first time in a very long time, I'm not suicidal. Everything's all good. The smiles that are on my face, aren't fake. The laughs are real. The love is true. Somehow it feels like a dream. Everything's in s.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1041134/ September 20thYesterday I was unsure. I was unsure what would happen. What would come out of the next day. If we would ever be together again, or were we just a fling? Was I lost in love or lust?  I wanted it to be love, but I would never know?Today I was given a choice: go down yesterday's roa.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1040775/ September 19thToday, I was numb. Tomorrow I will be better. I am slowly picking the pieces back up. My life is currently a fallen building.First it started to tip due to a little earthquake.Workers would eventually replace the shattered windows. Only to have the whole building crumble. Crumble into .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1040069/ September 18thI wish I could just escape.I've tried everything I know to do.My room is the cleanest its ever been.My notebook is almost full with writing.I have done seven extra credit sheets.I have read about two whole books in the past two days.I have gotten to the point where I just get home and .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1039553/ September 17 Last night was the same. Crying myself to sleep and many pills.I tried my hardest to fake a smile, but damn. My friends just know me way too well.They can definitely see straight through me. Today my best friend, Duane told me I was the most strong, and beautiful girl he had ever meet a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1039017/ This book will not be continued. I had someone who inspired me to write this but they are no longer with me. There fore, anyone who wants to take the challenge on to finish the book, go for it. Just message me the link. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1038524/ September 16You know you've lost the one you love when you have no reassurance that they will ever come back. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1038522/ September 16thHe's gone. We're over. He said we couldn't be together if we couldn't see each other.No.I can't live without him.He's the one person who has kept me on my feetand now....He's gone.All the bullshit we have gone through to be together and now we are over.....I have never in my f*****g li.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1038508/ Years of torment Tears of griefThey have stolen your soulPeople are beyond my beliefEvery night, its always the same.Cry yourself to sleep, with many tearsMaybe in your dreams you are safeFore its the only time, the thick haze clearsBut tonight, somehow its changedThe stars outside are gone, the sky.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1038072/ Drowning in lifeSlowly my heads going underNo one to help meAll I can do is wonder,Does anyone know?Does anyone care?Of course nobody doesAll they do is standby and stareFight for life,Or at least I used toI don't even care anymoreThis is the least I can doYell at me, do it. I don't careYou are noth.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1037999/ September 14-15Last night I spent the night with my best friend. Considering shes Bi also, I was kinda afraid she would try to make a move on me but she didn't. I mean I love her to death but not like that. I just needed to get my mind off of everything else that was going on. Which that's not what .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1037992/ September 13th, 2012Today was the first day in months that I smiled and wasn't faking it. Somehow my teacher made me laugh and enjoy the day today. I laughed so hard I almost cried. Its the best day I have had in quite a long time. For years I have been wearing my father's engagement ring, mostly be.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1037010/ September 12th, 2012Last night I cried myself to sleep, first time in a year. I haven't ever been this miserable in a year. I laid in bed, covered up with the covers over my head, and cried. I don't even remember when I fell asleep. Today I went to school and everyone stared, glanced, whispered, som.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1036453/ http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/MissxMayhem/1036450/