http://slow.writerscafe.org/bear26 The original writings of author Bear Y'hoshua H. en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1775244362 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Though having promised to never abandon me (as she knew my abandonment issues), my best friend allowed her boyfriend to make her cease contact. I miss her daily, as she shares part of my soul http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/3118778/ In this introduction/Background chapter, addiction is compared to the giant, Goliath, needing to be slain. As it is the Introduction, events are summarized to be developed over the next 11 chapters. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2942824/ I chose to begin writing this as a form of closure and catharsis for myself. It is an introduction to an addict, comparing addiction to the Biblical Goliath, that needs to be slain. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2942823/ As I have struggled with my addiction, I have lost many friends and family members who have decided I was not worth staying in contact with while at my lowest of lows. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2937266/ A poem about when I was in active addiction. I currently am at a recovery center for treatment. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2937261/ Mental Wars poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2900492/ Just the way it is Mental Wars poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2899810/ For my daughter on her birthday a while back http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2899762/ Religious poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2899761/ Psych ward poetry (once I was back on my meds) http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2899678/ Psych ward poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2899675/ Psych ward poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2899673/ Psych ward poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2899671/ Psych ward poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2899670/ Psych ward poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2899667/ Religious poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2897228/ Religious poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2894328/ Religious poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2894318/ Tonight I'm stuck in my head Too many memories Why so much pain? And why do all these stories End in the same place? Broken-hearted Loyalty feels like a myth Another lie they tell you In stories of a bygone age What is true love anyway? A fictional p.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2894313/ Tomorrow they are doing an 'invasive' heart procedure on me that could potentially lead to open heart surgery; potential complications include stroke, heart attack, and death http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2894052/ Something I wrote in the Psych Ward to Myself http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2890073/ To my friend Part of my Psych Ward Poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2890068/ For a friend Part of my Psych Ward Poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2890065/ Another poem about what I went through with the Voices I heard in April 2024 Part of my Psych Ward Poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2890060/ For a friend Part of my Psych Ward Poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2890058/ For a friend Part of my Psych Ward Poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2890056/ For Squirt, I'll always be here when you need an ear. #NeverAgain Part of my Psych Ward Poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2890053/ On April 15, 2024, I began to hear three voices in my head I had never heard before. This is how I experienced that night and the following day before going to seek help. Part of my Psych Ward Poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2889901/ A bit of a remix ;) To the girl I am crushing on Part of my Psych Ward Poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2889900/ Part of my Psych Ward Poetry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2889686/ “It’s just a leap of faith,” I said; I didn’t know what else to say.I told you I was crushing on you,Enamored with you,Smitten,Completely infatuated,Twitterpated. “Last night someone used the word ‘twitterpated,’” y.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2874478/ I lie in the darkMy eyes squeezed tightBut the memories still aboundPressing against willThey struggle like salmon with the streamThe stream of things I wish to try to think about. Moments of joyIncidents of iconic blissMoments where if there were tearsThey were of happiness. But.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2818690/ The frosted moon hangs highThe poet sits admiringAloneYet smilingA strike of a matchThe smell of sulfur fills the airMomentarilyA sizzleThe candle leaps to lifeIn a burst of bittersweet flameStill the lone poet smilesFor their lover is comingThe lover behind the smileThe poet's heart pounds with pas.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/2785135/ When two young hearts become as one,it is then that time has begun.When two fine hearts find love at lastall their worries are in the pastBy leaf, by tree, by rock, by bone:My heart is now yours to own.By stars and moon, by Earth and sky:This I swear until I die. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/1056058/ The scars upon my heart run deepsome are old, and some quite fresh.At times it feel there's no roomto ever hold any more.Salmon swim against the current,but we only get to float onwardwith time pushing the rapidsforward, forward, forward.But we never get to go back,each moment a door closed behind y.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/1055997/ A single flame sheds light into the roomThe candle, lit in memory,Slowly sheds its waxy tears.The cold seeps through the roomBattling the lonely flameTo chill the poet's heart.The incense burns lowly downits smoke dawdles up Making the poet reflect upon life.His choices, good and bad,Weigh heavily u.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/1053590/ Heavily influenced by Chinese writing form, including some Chinese mythology http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/1048465/ Written with a little hint of Chinese poetry essence, the darker side of beauty http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/1048463/ Dedicated to the daughter I lost while she was yet to be born http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/1048461/ My friend, a tree, that I talk to when I need the best advice nature can give http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/1048459/ Emotions of depression, and the way it feels sometimes in my head. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/1048458/ I was outside smoking one night and saw something, this is what I wrote when I came back in. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/1047971/ As the connection of the Silver Cordpulls us closer,Our souls sing for each other,longing to be reunited."No choice," you said"I either love you, or I love you,"The beauty of that brought me atear, as I feel the same.The world will say we're crazy,wrong, not right for each .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/1045270/ After an argument I had where I felt I was wrongly accused, this came to me as I stood outside gazing at the stars. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/1041307/ I saw a clump of stubborn leaves still clinging to a tree in late winter, it with my relationship issues at the time inspired this ditty. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/1041306/ Shakespeare and Poe are obvious references, Cao is a Chinese writer, Cao Xueqin. He wrote Dream of Red Mansions http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/1041305/ The candle sheds its tears of wax, As its life slowly melts away. Moment by moment it passes Closer into nothingness.I lament its wretched fate, And relate to its condition. As it lends its fragrance and light to the world, What is it that I have accomplished? http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/1041303/ Sentiments I think any parents would understand...with a pic of my older two children when they were younger. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/1041300/ I was going through a lot of conflicting emotions when I wrote this a few years back. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/1041298/ When my ex wife and I flirst split up, calling my sons was difficult, they never stayed on the phone long. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bear26/1041294/