http://slow.writerscafe.org/Angel%20in%20Red The original writings of author Beautiful Disaster_33 en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776109941 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Why do we run back to familiar things, even when they're not good for you?!Why do we fear the unknown, such as love,happiness,forgivenessI can't seem to figure out how to right the wrongs?!I don't know what to do, without you beside me butgiven no choice.I will set these wings upon the w.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/1162960/ My heart is heavyMy thoughts are darkI reach for you, you're goneMy heart sinks furtherI remembered a time wherethings were goodRemembered you sayin'"forever, I'll be with you"A tear escapesI brush it awayI don't wanna feelwanna stay numbThat is what's safeYou allo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/1096303/ Pandora's box openedWhat shall be revealedWait an see with baited breathI've yet to understand all inside of meYou said, as other did"I'll walk beside you, don't look away,look at me, all will be okay"Another lie was toldwhen will I learnHere I sit aloneYou've gone, as did they.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/1080921/ Standing in the rainI can allow the tears to fallIt'll hide the shame, the fear, the brokeness of it allPast reluctant to let goPresent moment, afraid to let her feeling showFor if she does, what will she becomeKicking and screaming, as the beast ravishes heran takes her final brea.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/1057660/ A sweet whisper of things to comespark ingnites into flamesSpoken words of this exchangeskin to skinI do seekLips to minehands exploreFeel of you, deep withinyes, I want moreA challenge you givecan I acceptI open myselfto your requestmouth upon skintounge circling you r.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/1051785/ Sad eyes greet you tonightCold hands wrapped 'round meYou say you "I love you" yet break me with wordsWalking through this lifeegg shells cut deepMany timeswe've been down this pathTears no longer fallnumb, I feel insideNo desire to fallbury my head in hands or hide.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/1047831/  A look withinwhat desires shall I unleashI've been known this waythat way and in betweenNow it's timeforced upon me reallyFull of regretsSlipping further into the darknessspirialing out of controlLeft reeling from things of oldKnowing not what will be in store.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/1047345/ Fear ripples through meI never know, when you'll show nextAgain, today you cameWhyI said I'd leave you Why, why won't you leave me as well?!Changed is my feeling's Life is what I chooseIt was a time to forgetme and youPlease stay awayNo longer visitContacted begged, pleaded "leave me"Set to free mys.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/1044192/ Loss felt deep withinNothing left, sit and cryMy heart breaking beyond repairIt's only been 9months the bond created, nothing prior comparesSo much time spent with youSecrets told, no one else could knowYou look at me with those eyesasking nothing but love from meI'm so sorry to se.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/1042585/ Walking along my favorite pathrustling leaves beneath my feetWind a bit cooler tonightwrap my arms 'round myselfSnuggle closer within the arms of your favorite shirtSmell still lingersI miss youIt's been too longSo much left unsaid before the departure that was inevitableM.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/1041245/ Walking amongst the people, head downSadness isn't need to be seen by allWishin' that it never wasWishin' time would swallow the pain, shame remorse felt withinNever knew it would feel like thisWas searching for the lightAll that was found, darkness...Fade to black as life takes.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/1039143/ Gone back to the way you were before seeng the light of long agoGood, but  she calls terrified, seeking solacefrom meI try and relieve the anxietysaying " I was just a stepping stoneA release from the damnation you seen yourself to beYou were a way,a means to an end if you willA .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/1037995/ The  Audacity portrayed, I sit here and reel from it...I should say "fume" from it!I am no submissive, I walked from "YOU"Your demeaning and damanding ways where...How shall I say this " fucked up, fifty different ways"Peace is within, lies no longer cloud my judgmentTruth give.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/1036035/ I don't understand anymore?Why do you still come to me?!Why do you still careI clearly see, feel and hearwhat you're sayingIn the midst of it allI listen intently, wondering, questioningyour motivesAre they pure, is this reflection timeis there something I should know?!I don.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/1015642/ You came to me silent, watching, waiting  You found your moment, touched my heartwith your wordsSo much love, care, devotion to us Your touch still amazes methe depth of who we areOnce scared me,but now invites meI am open with you, scars, dark/lightI give to you.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/1014582/ Closed off, set a side feelings no longer matterWhy try?!Contact is cut off, changed things in my lifeAttempts to find me, or my info results "denied"No longer your right to step withinNo longer a need to call yourself "friend"Leave me, let me be, let me live without interferenceI am.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/1010168/ A dream within a dreamI see you seeing me, see youI reach to touch you,butpull backFeel in this moment, it isn't rightI want to observe, to knowto see the truth, things you cant hideI see you reach toward meA look of disbelief in your eyesSeeing me there, so closeI se.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/995527/ I drove out to see you todayin the car, paralyzed to moveTears streaming, unstoppableSee the unforseeable, couldn't believethis is how things are nowPast regrets,mistakesthings left unsaid...Now, will never be undoneMy heart grieves for time lostI slowly turn the handlenot k.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/994391/  I imagine a time where life was completeNever broken, battered, left to lay at anothers feet."sit, stay, fix this, move that, lay nowyou know your worth to me"Mind replays times of oldDays of playing with my puppies approaching storm on the horizonDark clouds, oblivious .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/986337/ ●♥Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ♥●•٠ This is a totally new thing for me, so PLEASE don't judge harshly... ·٠•●♥Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ♥● http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/986297/ Eyes cast down, as the tears fallEverything I've prayed/asked/wished forescapes me now Your hand in mine, fails to provide reliefI know you try, but the one thingI need, cant be given to meIt's too late, no one can helpThe mask I wear is becoming apermanent.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/986294/ I dont understand, I beg to knowhow can a life be so cold?!So indifferent?!So silent?!Echos of days past gone byin silence I sit and wonder...Left to ask the question that'll neverreceive an answerWas it all worth it? Does pain know no end?!Standing at the edge of abyss, daring to jump infacing the .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/985165/ I feel like I'm on the edge starring down into the abyss Not really caring, feel too numb to resist So much has been hidden, so much wanting to be released I push it all down, more secrets to keep I don't feel I belong, my bodies betraying me at every.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/984954/ Once a life meant for greatnessCoward in a corner refusin' to lookin your eyesFor if I do, You'll truly see the terrorthat haunts my waking moments`n my dreamsIt is I who's failed to see the lightWarning signs there, but dismissed as liesTook your hand`n bought the alib.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/984952/ I stand strong against the forceof disapproval laid at my feetNever good enoughNo smile upon my faceDressed in black to fade into thebackgroundNever truly opening upGuarding myself with all that I amFor if I opened up,It'd be the end of everything I hold as truth in my l.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/984823/ Sentenced, before I had a chance to liveIt wasn't me, no control did I haveI give up`n into the corner I crawlYou won! Desire for love is gonereplaced w/ hurt, hatred, 'n sorrowPraying at times the sunwouldn't come up on tomorrowYet, here I stand tho I know&n.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/984820/ Darkness envelopes me, like a warmblanketI remember all the wrongs, even thoI search for the rightsI look toward you, the one whoswore"I'd never do that to you"Fractured pieces of my lifelay within my sightSo many, so many peoplesay"move on, don't stay stuck"Really?!!Dont.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/984818/ Sleep eludes me again tonightMind's racin'  won't quit replayin' thingsbest left aloneHeartache`n pain seemsall that's left for meI try, I try `n be whoeveryone needs/wants me to beI've lost me...I feel so disconnectedNeither here, there, for me, themor you:'( , tears .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/984764/ A glimpse into what's rarely seen A version of truth within a dreamMy heart flutters, hands shaky, pulse racing at what's before meClose my eyes for a moment, an take in the scenerythe smell is so fresh, dampness felt under feet. Taking in the beauty but wondering, why I am&.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/984763/ there is two not so nice words, I hope you can overlook that... I haven't written in Writerscafe in sometime, tho my writing never ceases. Hope you enjoy! http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/982410/ Fighting the storm in my lifeKnowing now everything will be alrightI have found my inner strength that was lost long ago for there sakeI will walk this time with head held highKnowing what's waiting on the other sideYour love lifted me, when others dragged me downLost, but because.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/284414/ I imagine you again by my side Whispering in the dark "everything will be alright" I turn, you're no longer thereJust the memory of what no longer is How could things have happend this way Why is it, everything I touch I still destroyeven to this dayYou deserve better then wh.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/273801/ Forever broken without your loveI walked away, commiting a terrible sinLying that love didn't existPushing you awayNow dealing with my fateMy life, your life, forever changedA better life I pray you'll recieveDont'cha baby, wish you'd never met meTo much pain my life createsLove &a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/265174/   It's happening quicker this time 'roundCicada's  call is one I can no longer drown outResearch upon research I take inMarveling at the blindness we all allow inI awake between 2`n 4 looking 'round seeing nothing but feeling them insteadWondering if it was all in my headKnow.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/242303/  Candles burning sweet scent in the airWater running rose petals everywhereGlass of wine in my handone last glance as I step inToes dipped in waters so warmSliding in covering secret spotsto be foundTaking a sip I relax deeper I hear you come through the doorexhaused from a hard days workI he.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/228351/ I was inspired by Robert Lunas picture`n poem http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/227602/ Message in a bottle  Cast away to find answersWhat will it say todaywhen it returns on the wavesWill it tell me I'm safeor will it tell me to stay awayMessage in a bottleEither way I await its returnNot knowing myselfor not wanting to learnHow is it I got herestrand.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/226706/ thoughts about love`n relationships http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/226482/ This is from my brothers myspace page. It hit home to me, hopefully it will to you as well Makes you think, he's 15... Enjoy! http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/226154/  I step into the darkend caveYou're beside me saying; "it's okay"I reach out for your handI hear the raindrops as they hit the groundMy heart starts racing faster then beforeAs the fear rises within meYou put your arm around my waistBringing me closer until we're face to faceYour hands glid.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/226149/ I thought I could lean on youWanted you above all else to tell me the truthWanted you to accept me for who I amNot who you want me to be withinLooking in your eyes,seeing the love you try`n hideI know you're as scared as I amWho are we if we have to pretendSearch within your heartthat truly is the.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/225542/  To look upon you as you sleepMy heart still skips a beatWondering how a love life thiscould ever existEver so slightly I touch your skinI see you start to moveI quickly pull backnot wanting to disturb youI've never felt  a love so realMy heart breaks when I'm not w.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/225440/ Time `n again I watch you walk out that doorIt no longer matters anymoreThe tears I've sat`n criedWe've yet to get beyond this pain insideYou try`n put it off on meLook inside darling`n you'll truly seeIt's you as well as meI'm memorized by who you used to beNo longer do I find that man standing n.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/224205/      I cannot feel tonightthe knifes blade has been dulledIsn't that niceNothing more that I wantThen to feel peace within my life againI've stayed strong,I've ran, I've cried, I've done everythingYet, I've found out it was liesSuch betrayal I n.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/221720/    Chains that now bind meTo love that'll never again find meMemories will never fadeEven as he touches me todayIts your face I seeYour touch I feelNo one can ever replace a love so realThe wind caresses my face `n takes me back to the times w/ youFeeling.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/221618/    I looked in the mirror todayDidn't like what I seenI quickly look away, not wanting to face realityHow could I give so much to youbut give nothing back to meNow it's too lateYou've gone`n there's nothing left to seeThe memory of us shall forever haunt me.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/220368/     The taste of you lingering on my lipswhile I watch you walk awayMade the cut that much deeper withinA coldness runs through me tonightNo longer with you No longer wanting you by my sideYou've wasted enough of my emotionsenough of my precious timeSitting here n.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/219789/    Ashes and Wine (This song inspired me to write this poem, I loved it.)I take a sip`n remember when time turned the tables `n now I'm lost within the wind You said you loved me said You'd always be here but as I take your picture off the mantle I look arou.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/219777/   Caught in my own hell, trying so hard to be set freeThe past seems to haunt me almost on a daily basisI've tried so many times to be released from this darkness that invades my thoughtsI've tried to forget, which seems impossibeI've tried to move on, which sometimes does happen, but j.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/202714/    Such saddness and anger fill these eyesI put up a wall that's way to high for anyone to climbI look in the mirror and what do I seeI see a stranger looking back at meOne day peaceful , the next filled w/ contemptBattled and scared, left broken and bentRejected by many, lov.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Angel-in-Red/202710/