http://slow.writerscafe.org/wallflower221 The original writings of author Stella en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776028561 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Dear 16 year old self,                 Your 16 years old. Your life is getting all odd and weird. There are so many things id like to tell you so you don’t get hurt and have to deal with all the pain ive had to. I wan.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/978813/ I had spend the night at my boyfriends place (Boyfriend at the time). I had went home early that morning because I had something bugging me and I needed my Mom to come with me to go to the store. I was broke from buy vodka and even buying E to get high on. The parents thought I was spending the nigh.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/965738/ I once loved a man, That broke my heart,He broke it in pieces, And even cut them up,He put them in a blender, And in to a glass, Where he drank the whole thing. As i was laying on the floor, Waiting for him to walk away,I looked under the blender, And saw a piece,&.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/843942/ Its a song more then a poem.. but theres no botton for a song lmao. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/717473/     “Was it me you wanted to see?”    I wasn’t sure if I wanted to see who it was because the voice was so deep that it sounded as if it came from a 20 year old. But I looked anyways. There standing right behind me was this perfect face with this great.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/667094/       “I couldn’t believe I had gum on my shoe. Out of all the days in a year, I had to have gum on my shoe today.” I thought to myself as I rolled my eyes and looked up at the sky. The air felt so good on my skin as the wind would blow. Its not like I wasn.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/666966/ http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/666964/     "Theres something i need to tell you. I wasnt always like this" I said as i looked down at the table. I closed my eyes because it felt like i couldnt stand to be in this room any longer. "I was a nice person. At one point." I looked up at the woman sitting in front of me. She was .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/632412/ I wake up for the morning, with a ache in my tummy, that makes me weak to my knees, my heart is beating so hard in my chest, i can feel the blood being pumped through my veins, my teeth are as yellow as the sun on a bring sunny day, my hair is the colour of dirt, for what the ground that i awake fro.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/623898/ Not to good.. i no this.. just really wanted to write something new. :) http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/600409/    I walked in to the room and she was the last person i wanted to see. She hadnt seen me yet. There was to many people in the lunch for her to see me. I was praying on a higher power that she wouldnt look my way. I wanted to get my food and leave before she would notice. Today seemed to h.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/597010/      "Shes doing it again" I said to myself. She was picking up that white thing and putting it in her mouth and smoking it. "Most you always smoke that?" I asked with a little bit of anger in my voice.          "If you have a problem with it, y.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/594931/ okay so its not any good... but i hadnt put anything new up so.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/585126/ Im looking for a love, A love thats hard to find. The kind that last forever, And that never really dies.As i look high and low, I cant seem to find, A love that makes you have, That warm feeling inside. But if its a love that lasts forever, I pretty sure it wont mind, If it takes me sometime, To fi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/575398/ Im waiting, Waiting for the day you walk in the door, For the day, You grab my hand, Pull me up, Take me to a place,Ive never seen before, Make me feel, A feeling ive never felt, Show me, Something no one else has seen,But yet, I'm still waiting.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/572026/ You walked away,Feeling like I would be better,Better off with you gone, But little did you know, You changed the way i saw the world, And every second you were in my life, I was making it through the day, With hope and love in my heart, As I watched you walk away from me, Like so many before you, Y.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/561395/ We all no and love the Kool-aid man. But what we dont no about him might just change the way you see the world. I would like to tell you the story of a little boy around the ago of 7 named Thackary Jones.One day Thackary was walking home and talking to his best friend Elika. It was the kind of day w.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/561220/ Something i just feel you have to read http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/550656/ You have changed my lifeYou've put the sun shine down on me, When the darkness was all i had, You put a smile on my face, When I was deep in the whole, You made everything seem okay, When my world was falling apart, Yet i dont even no who you are, You've changed my life, For the better. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/545142/ "Be calm. Be calm. Be calm." Its what you want, so its what i most do.With weather, you can't stop the rain. You can't help, A snow storm from blowing.You can't, Turn the sun off when it gets to hot.So what makes you think,if im loud i can change, And when im mad its hard to stop, But I'll do what i.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/524927/ As the tear falls down my face, Im hoping its the last tear of its kind.I want the pain i feel to stop, And be washed away. I want my blood to run cold. To lose the heat from my body. My heart once was full of love, But now its no longer a heart, It beats deep down in my cheats,But it beats a blackn.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/523615/ The only pain i feel, is the pain i put on myself, i push the ones i love, to see who really cares,i never meant to be the reason, for the pain you feel deep down, just no,the pain i put on you, is to save you from the pain of myself. a master is bruing, from the anger thats deep down, hes scarming,.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/522260/ I want to hold your face is my hands, and never let go. I want to fly higher then the sky, and fly with the birds. I want your heart to be in my hands, and i want to never let it go. But as long as im walking down this path, i'll always be alone and be walking 6 feet under, till the day im in a box,.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/521371/ I miss the smell of the halls, The smell of weed being smoked, Girls talking about guys, About how fucked up we got on Friday night. The look of the green lockers,  How alone I felt walking down the empty halls, Not knowing where my life might up, But most of all, I miss how free i felt being m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/517994/ I'm dressed in black, walking behind a box. every feeling i ever felt about you,has been washed away, as been burned. Your gone, you've left this world, and you've taken me with you.Im no longer alive, i'm the walking dead. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/517323/                 Again I had to watch her walking away down that green hallway. To a door that I had no clue what was behind it. All I knew was she had to be here and I have no power over it. I wanted her t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/436362/ Just knowing  you leaving  me has breaken  my heart. Know I can’t call you up late at night when I feel like my soul is falling apart, drives me up the walls. As I sit here looking over old notes you wrote to me and left in my mailbox before you left for scho.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/423148/ i've been walking this road, for to many years, at frist it was fun, being part of the grass, wind, sand, trees, I was part of everything around me, but things started to change, the grass wasn't green anymore, there was white snow all over the place, the wind was cold and stro.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/400307/ Grass…. so green,Sky…. so blue, Cars…. so blurry, Wind…. so fast, Sun goes down, Dark takes over, Grass….dark as night, Sky….full of bright stars,Cars…. Fast asleep for the night, Wind….picks up and blows me away, In to the .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/399868/ She’s the girl that knows what to say,She’s the girl that can make everything alright, she can make you smile,No matter what mood your in. She’s the girl you wish you could be. She’s all those great things, But when it comes down to it, She hates life, She can.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/399857/ People to my right,People to my left.Happy, loving, joyfull,Everything I could never be,People talk,But I can’t hear a sound,I just keep walking down this road,Where my only friend is myself,I look at myself in the water,That is under my muddy feet,All I see isNothing,A.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/391766/  “GoooOOOOOO TEAM!”“You can do it!!”“We’re number ONE!”      Everyone was yelling and having a great time. I was off in the corner watching the game like it was just something else boring on tv. My eyes moving from one s.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/388608/  I’m living in my own Wonderland.A land where I am KING!A place where I make the rulesAnd no one can say a thing.Where the poor have no where to live,And I have the food.You most beg to stay alive everyday,Just to see the sunlight.Where most people wish to die,To alway.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/384548/ Oct 15/049:56 am “I never want to leave this bed. It’s my new home. I’ll live here till my body says “f**k you”. I said out loud. I was in my bedroom just waiting for something not sure what. But no matter what it was I didn’t re.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/328398/          Note: This story I wrote for one of my biggest fans. He nos who he is... hope you like it. And if you don't. just tell me. i'll write you a new one      It happened again. Got up in the middle of the night with my fa.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/298035/ My hair flying around like there was nothing that could stop it from flying off my head. My body so light with this new world all around me."How much longer do you want to be in the pool?" said Jude. I didn't want to left the pool. It was a new world that I wanted to see. I wanted to be .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/280376/  “I HATE YOU!! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?” I yelled pulling my hands to my face so he wouldn’t see the pain in my eyes. But I couldn’t hold back the tears anymore. He had to no he hurt me. He should no how much I care about him. I pulled back my hands no matter how w.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/276905/              “Have you ever made yourself fall asleep just because you didn’t want to be apart of the world anymore? You felt like if you fell asleep so deeply and for so long that by the time you get up the world won’t .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/276364/  As I walked up to the bus stop I saw someone else waiting for the bus. I didn’t think much of it because there are just odd people out at night. As I wanted up and I got closer I noticed it was a girl. She looked around 16. She was wearing all black. Like most teens now a days. She had.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/273468/ I don’t even no how it started. How I got here. How I got to this place in my life. As I was running I could feel all the air going passed my long red hair and it felt like the air was taking everything away from me. All my problems, all my thoughts. Every feeling I’ve ever had for him. .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/267688/ I don't cut myself because i love pain. To tell you the trust... I hate pain. I cry like a little baby when i get a paper cut. I don't cut myself because i'm so numb and the only thing i can feel is the cut on my skin. Believe me, i can feel all the saddness and happyness and numbness that comes in .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/256042/     He wants to end his life. He wants nothing to do with this world. Just thinking about living eveyday hurts. It hurtsdeep down. Down when just looking at a tv hurts. The only happyness he has is when shes around. Around to love him, to make sure everything is alright. When shes gon.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/252435/   I'm on the bus where it's taking doesn't matter. It's taking away from the world I've never wanted to be apart of. Away from a world were no one understands whats going on. As i sit on this bus happy i've left, it hits me. I've got to go back. My smile fulls from my face. from my sou.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/252427/     He was in my arms for the first time in 5 months. We were dancing and he was holding me close. I could feel all the love he had for me right there and then. Everything that had happened over the last year just left us and I felt like it would never come back and we could be the ol.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/240844/ Ring. Ring “Hello?”             “Hey Stephanie, do you feel like going for a walk?” Asked Marc one night. This started a friendship that would bring a lot of pain but at the same time it would bring life back to normal .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/227788/ It’s funny how much I can’t feel. The face that once had a smileNow it has nothing. As I walk in the halls I can’t feel the people around me, I can’t feel a thing, Life as I knew it has changed, Because I can’t get over what happened, What happened to me,.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/207503/ you were different, unlike every preson before you, you had something one no else had, you had my heart, and as i watched you leave, me all alone in this world, the only thing i could think about was, i wanted you back, more then words could say, and just when i thought you'd left .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/wallflower221/207498/