http://slow.writerscafe.org/barefoot143 The original writings of author barefoot143 en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1775525985 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 LIVING IN A VACCUME OF ASSUMPTONTWISTED BY THE TRUTHTHE WORLD SHAPED BY NEVER ENDING LIESPUT YOURSELF IN MY SHOESCOME KNOCKING AT MY DOORKEEPING TO THE MORAL CONSEQUENCEYOU SHOVE ME TO THE FLOORYOUR SCARED AND HELPLESSAFRAID OF WHO YOU AREDONT THINK IM NOT LIKE YOUI HAVE SEEN THI.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219706/ IF I LOVED YOULIKE YOU LOVED MENOTHING WOULD MATTERYOU WOULD WANT TO BE FREETHE FEELING OF NOTHINGTHE TEARS IN YOUR EYESTHE SADNESS UPON YOUYOUR HEARTS LEFT BEHINDYOUR LEFT TO BE TRAMPLEDYOUR PUSHED TO THE SIDEALONE IS THE FEELINGYOU WILL KNOW ALL TO WELL SO CAN I LOVE Y.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219705/ THE WORLD IN WHICH I AM LIVING  HAS BECOME THE DOWNFALL UNTO MY LIFE.THE BEGINNING SHOULD HAVE BEEN MY ENDINGIT WOULD HAVE BEEN AN EASY EXITNOW THE EXIT WILL BE A  LONG AND PAINFUL ONENO REASON FOR THE DISRUPTION TO THE LIVES  THAT I HAVE DESTROYEDTO THE LIVES THAT I HA.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219694/ IS IT TRUELY MY DESTINY TO LIVE IN THE DARKNESS OF MY OWN REALITY???EACH STEP I TAKE DRAWS ME CLOSER TO SOMETHING,. NOT JUST DARKNESS BUT TETTERING ON THE EDGE OF LIGHT, OF LIFE AND WHERE I HAVE NEVER DREMPT  I  CAN BE... I AM STILL POWERLESS OVER  ME , OF MY LIFE,&.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219691/ TO MUCH PAIN THAT MAKES MY HIDE IN THE CORNER.TO MUCH TIME THAT MAKES IT HARD TO ERASE.TO MUCH FEAR OF MYSELF, YOU , OF MY LIFE . TO MANY YEARS OF CRYING, SCREAMING , HURTING, CUTTING AND BLEEDING.TO MUCH HOPING,WISHING, DREAMING, AND  LOSING,WHAT MORE CAN I W.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219690/ How  do I stop hurting  and letting myself down ????So many promises and so many disappointments  Just the struggle of everyday ...So many days I wonder why does it have to be me. The one who is hurt and nothing... The one who sits in a corner and screaming to be let out... Maybe I hu.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219688/ YOU SCRATCH MEYOU SCAR MEYOU DONT GO FAR FROM MEYOU CUT MEYOU KEEP MEYOUR EDGE DEFEATS METHE COLOR OF CRIMSONTHE BLOOD RUSHING DOWNCONTROLLING MY LIFEI AM NEVER FOUND!!!!! http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219685/ SHOULD I GIVE UP TRYING WHEN I GET NOTHING IN RETURN???WHAT THE F**K IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE WHEN YOU TRY TO BE NICE THEY MAKE YOU  FEEL LIKE S**T...ITS BAD ENOUGH THAT I FEEL LIKE S**T ON MY OWN BUT THEN SOMEONE ELSE HAS TO COME IN AND MAKE ME FEEL EVEN WORSE....WHAT GIVES SOMEONE ELSE.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219684/ I SEEM TO HAVE LOST MY MIND.PLEASE HELP ME TO LOOK FOR IT.I'M LOST, CONFUSED, AND HELPLESS WITHOUT IT." THIS IS VERY ALARMING"HOW WILL I SURVIVE WITHOUT MY MIND?I NEED MY MIND DESPERSATELY!PLEASE HELP ME FIND IT!!IT'S NO USE GOING ON WITHOUT IT.I MIGHT AS WELL JUST CUT.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219683/ MY BODY IS ACHING TO FEEL THE SHARPNESS OF THE BLADE AGAINST MY SKIN...THE HARDER I RIP INTO MY ACHING FLESH THE BETTER I FEEL.THE BLOOD SLOWLY BEGINS TO FLOW AS IT LEAVES  A NEW PICTURE FOR ME TO SEE..I GET MORE ILLUSIONS OF HAPPINESS  THAT BEGIN TO RELEASE ME FROM THE PROMISES I TR.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219681/ I BELIEVE IN FREEDOM BUT, JUST NOT MY OWN..  I WISH I HAD THE FREEDOM FROM MY THOUGHTS THAT MAKE ME CUT. THE FREEDOM  FROM THE PAIN OF A LIFE THAT JUST MAKES ME HATE THE WORLD AND EVERYTHING IN IT...THE FREEDOM TO NOT BE THE VICTIM ANYMORE http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219679/ I PROMISE MYSELF I WILL TRADE IN MY BROKEN SOUL...I PROMISE MYSELF I WILL NOT BLAME MYSELF...I PROMISE I WILL FORGET.....I PROMISE MYSELF I WILL SEARCH FOR A MIRICLE...I PROMISE MYSELF I WILL NOT MAKE A MISTAKE...I PROMISE I WILL NOT BREAK....I PROMISE MYSELF I WILL NOT LOSE MY WAY...I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219675/ IF I HAD TO DREAM , I DONT KNOW WHAT I WOULD DREAM FOR... MORE DAMAGE TO MY SOUL?? MORE TEARS??? MORE SCARS?? MORE LONGING FOR LOVE?? MORE EMPTINESSS?? MORE OF THE NOTHING I HAVE??? DO I ASK TO BE SAVED?? DO I ASK FOR  TRAGEDY?? DO  I ASK FOR PLEASURE??? CAN I ASK FOR LAUGHTER?? DO  I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219674/ WHY CANT I GET YOU OFF MY MIND I THOUGHT I LEFT YOU FAR BEHIND YOUR WHAT MAKES ME SO UNKIND YOU LEAVE MY ARMS BLOODY AND OUTLINED ONE MORE THING TO REMIND MY MIND .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219670/ HUG MEKISS METOUCH MEMAKE ME STRUGGLEMAKE ME FIGHTI WILL BE WAITINGI NEED YOU TONIGHTI HAVE YOUR HEARTACHEI AM YOUR MISTAKENOTHING MATTERS I JUST WANT TO SCREAMYOU TAKE ALL MY DREAMSYOU TAKE MY SELF ESTEEM http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219669/ I DONT KNOW WHAT YOUR AFTERANOTHER ONE OF YOUR CUTTERSSOMEONE  BEAUTIFUL TO RUINYOU  CAUSE  MORE DAMAGETHAN A SOUL SHOULD SEEWHY CANT YOU LET US BE http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219668/ ARE YOU LISTENINGWE ARE UNKINDWE ARE UPSIDE DOWNWE ARE LONELYWE ARE SADWE ARE NOTHINGWE ARE NOT STRONGWE ARE CRYINGWE ARE CUTTINGWE ARE SCREAMINGCAN YOU HEAR US.... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219665/ YOU HIDE IN A CORNER TRYING TO FIND YOURSELFYOU CUT YOUR FLESH  UNTIL YOU BLEED ..YOU THINK OF WHY YOUR THE TORNADO THAT SPINS OUT OF CONROL, LEAVING NOTHING UNTOUCHED, UNHURT, AND UNBROKEN...YOU LIVE WITH  THE CONSTANT PAIN OF HOPE , FAITH, FEAR AND LOVE...YOU LIVE WITH UNREAL DRE.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219663/ DIRTY LITTLE SECRETSHIDING IN THE CLOSETSCOME OUT!!!!COME OUT!!!WHERE EVER YOU AREI HAVE A NEW  SCARTO SHOW YOU.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219662/ their are things about methat you would have never known if you love me you will never leave me alonei am what i am i am never worth a damn http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219661/ IMAGINE WE ARE ALL THE SAMEWE ARE JUST PLAYING A DIFFRENT GAMEWE ARE ALL NAMELESSWE ARE ALL FACELESSWE ARE ALL WORTHLESSWE ARE ALL VOICELESSWE ARE ALL HEARTLESSWE ARE WHO WE ARE http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219658/ I CANT FEEL ANYTHINGI WANT TO FEEL SOMETHINGMY HEART IS BLEEDINGMY HEAD IS FLOODINGTHOUGHTS OF CUTTINGIM ONLY WASTING AWAYWITH NOTHING ELSE TO SAYSHOULD I LIVE ANOTHER DAY http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219657/ Why cant I fight the urges to cut? I wake up in the morning and thats the first thing I think of.. I feel helpless and overpowered.. I crave the feeling that I get when I get to cut.. So many scares on my wounded soul.. I want to stop but with no way of getting help or helping myself. I feel lost an.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219655/ MY BLOOD IS REDMY HEART IS DEADENOUGH SAID http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219654/  I PRETEND IM FINEWHAT CAN I REGRETI WILL NEVER FORGETI AM A CUTTERI AM A DRAMERI AM LONELYI AM AFRAIDI HURT MEI HURT YOUI TRYI CRYI  WANT TO DIEI FACED THE TRUTHYOU TOOK MY YOUTHNOW ALL I HAVE TO TAKE IS ME SO THEN I CAN FINALLY BE FREE http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219653/ IM TWISTED, IM TWEEKED, IM TURNED  IN TWO..NOTHING MATTERS WHEN IM WITH YOUYOU HELP KEEP ME  FROM FEELING BLUEEVERY CUT I LEAVE IS NEWCANT I LOOK INTO YOUR EYESNO MORE WHYSIM SAYING MY GOODBYES http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219651/ THE COLOR CRIMSON..MY FAVORITE PLEASUREECHED IN MY MINDTHE CUT IS THE TREASURESIMPLE,  PAINLESS, LONELY,WHO COULD LOVE ME BETTERNO ONE HAS MADE ME FEELLIKE YOU MAKE ME FEELYOU NEVER LEAVE MEYOU ALWAYS LOVE MEYOU KEEP ME SAFEYOU KNOW I NEED YOUYOU KNOW I WANT YOUAS LONG.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219649/ I CANT HELP BUT HATE YOUFOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONEYOU STOLE MY LIFE      BEFORE IT BEGUNI WALK IN THE SHADOWS    WITH NOWHERE TO RUNMY DAY IS SO DREARY   WITHOUT ANY SUNI LIVE IN THE DARKNESS WHERE MY SHADOW CAN HIDEYOU HAVE TAKE.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219648/  EVERYTIME WE  CLOSE OUR EYESWE THINK ABOUT THE WHOS AND WHYSNO ONE SHOULD EVER FEEL THAT WAYWHY SHOULD WE HAVE TO PAY TODAY YOU START WITH OUR BODIES, MIND AND FLESHITS SOMETHING YOU WANT , ITS YOUR WISH!!!!!EVERYTHINGS OUT OF OUR CONTROLLIT DOESNT M.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219646/     IT  STARTED WITH A LITTLE TOUCH  LONG BEFORE SHE TURNED FIVE SHE  WAS JUST THE LITTLE GIRL WHO WAS  AFRAID TO CRY NOT KNOWI.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219645/ how do I let you win? never to fight you back...!! Its always the last time, the last time..... Only It never ends...I see nothing in the future and too much of the past. My head is always swimming and their is never  no way back.. once I let you happen I begin to feel safe... how do you make t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219643/ I SIT IN THE DARKNESS I HIDE WHAT I FEEL  SO IS THIS REALLY REAL.. I HOLD OUT FOR HAPPINESS NEVER TO BE FOUND I AM THE LONELY PERSON YOU LEFT  LAYING ON.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/219641/ AN OUNCE OF COCAINE~ BE HIGH FOR AN HOUR AND WANT MORE UNTIL I COULDNT GET ANY MORE...AN OUNCE OF  POT~ SMOKE MYSELF STUPID AND EAT ALL THE GOOD LEFTOVERS..AN OUNCE OF HAPPINESS~ ??? I COULDNT TELL YOU ,,, I HAVE NEVER  BEEN TRUELY HAPPY....AN OUNCE OF FORGIVENESS~ I  WOULD TREA.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/218856/ PILES HEREPILES THEREPILES EVERYWHERENOTHING TO CLING TONOTHING TO HOLDMY THOUGHTS ARE VERY VERY COLDYOU GIVE ME NO REASONYOU JUST GIVE ME DOUBTI AM SOMTHING YOU  MUST LIVE WITHOUTI LIVE IN THE MOMENTI SIT HERE AND CRYMY THOUGHTS ARE  OF NOTHINGI DONT EVEN TRYYOU .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/218855/  I HOLD IN MY HANDA SHINY NEW BLADEI THINK TO MYSELFWHAT AN END TO THIS DAY YOU HURT ME COMPLETELYYOU DONT EVEN KNOWALL THE THINGS THAT YOU TOLD MEYOU JUST COULDNT SHOW I HELD OUT FOR HAPPINESSI HELD ON TO A DREAMMY INSIDES ARE HURTINGYOU JUST MAKE ME SCREAM.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/218853/   IF YOUR  TRYING TO FIND HAPPINESS DONT COME LOOKING FOR ME..YOU CANT SEARCH IN THE DEPTHS OF SOMEONES SOUL AND FIND WHAT YOU NEEDDONT LOOK AT ME  IM NOT WHAT YOU LOSTIF YOU START WITH YOURSELF YOU  WILL SAVE ME THE COST.TWO LOVES THAT YOU NEED UNTIL YOU GOT CAU.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/218852/  if i only knew what i know now i wouldnt have answered that letter i woulnt have fallen so deeply in love i wouldnt have lost you forever http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/218849/  AN IMPASSIONED PLEA FOR JUSTICE AN IMPOSSIBILITY OF FREEDOM AN IMPLAUSIBLE IDEA OF HOW LOVE SHOULD BE AN IMPLACIBLE FRIENDSHIP I CAN NOT HOLD ON TO AN IMPERVIOUS WALL I PUT UP TO NOT LET YOU INTO MY HEART AN IMPOVRISHED SENSE  OF WHAT I HA.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/218843/       I  LOOK IN THE MIRROR         AND ALL I SEE               IS WHAT  IS LEFT           &.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/218841/ OVER THE CRIMSON RIVERLIES A POOL OF BROKEN DREAMSFALLEN FROM THE TEARS OF ANGELSALONG THIS BLOODY STREAM.ALONE WE ARE FORGOTTENTOGETHER WE ARE FOUNDHIDING IN THE PLACESWHERE WE CANT MAKE A SOUND.THE SILENCE THAT WE LIVE INHAS MADE US WHO WE ARE.THE BROKEN HEARTED ANGELS,THE ON.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/218839/ I AM FROM CLUTTERED THOUGHTS AND BROKEN DREAMSI AM FROM THE STREETS OF LIFE WHERE I CHOOSE TO BEI AM FROM DIRTY CLOTHES AND A DIRTY FACEI AM FROM MEMORIES OF THE SECRETS THAT I KEEPI AM FROM MY WRITING , MY THOUGHTS,  MY PICTURES,  AND MY JOURNALI AM FROM STRUGGLE AND SACRIF.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/218835/ COULD YOU LOOK INTO THE EYES OF SOMEONE WHO HURT YOU?COULD YOU FORGET ALL THE PAST AND FIND YOUR HAPPINESS?COULD YOU LOVE THEM COMPLETELY AND EVER SO DEEPLY?COULD YOU LEARN HOW TO SMILE?COULD YOU LEARN HOW TO LAUGH?COULD YOU MAKE ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE?COULD YOU BRIGHTEN THE PATH OF D.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/218833/ the shattered image of a life i once hadthe thoughts of alone, regret, what could have beenthe pieces cant fit back togetherwhy even try again what others see isnt whats realjust whats made up to give the appearencetheir is even more but who cares to lookcan we ever get our life back.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/218831/ An elliptical illusion A prima facie solution A multitasking pollution A divergent junction A cryptical function http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/218829/ I SACRIFICE FREEDOM NEVER KNOWING THE COSTGIVING UP EVERYTHING TO LIVE IN THIS BOXEACH DAY YOU TAKE AWAY PIECES OF MEWITHOUT EVER KNOWING WHAT I HAVE HAD TO SEEIF EVER I NEEDED SOMEONE TO BE THIERYOU PROMISED FOREVERIT JUST ISNT FAIRI THOUGHT I WANTED TO BE DIFFRENTI THOUGHT I COULD .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/218828/ HOW COULD YOU NOT SEE MEI FEEL YOU  JUST DONT CAREI SEE YOU LOOK RIGHT THROUGH MEAS IF IM JUST NOT THIER PIECES BROKE FROM NOTHINGNESSIS THEIR ANYTHING LEFT OF MEAM I JUST INVISIBLEFOR ALL THE WORLD TO SEE http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/218827/ a little pain,through the doorway of shame.a journey long forgotten,by our walks in the rainbroken dreamsbroken heartsconsumed by youI'm falling apart no promisesno regretsare the only wordsthat haven't left.regardless how briefour journey.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/218825/ YOU MADE ME    INTO EVERYTHING I AMYOU MOLDED ME      INTO  EVERYTHING YOU WANT ME TO BEYOU GIVE ME      ONLY WHAT YOU THINK I SHOULD HAVEYOU SEE ME      ONLY WHEN YOU WANT TOOYOU.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/217910/  when you use words like I and meinstead of words like us and wecan thier really be a you and me..... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/217909/   I said good bye to the old and rang in the newI gave up everything but the thoughts of youI try to find myself in the little things that you saidI have nothing left but the memories in my headSlowly but surely I will forgetThe things that you said that made me upsetT.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/barefoot143/217907/