http://slow.writerscafe.org/kiarahall411 The original writings of author I am renee en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776048343 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 -Blvck poet society Write off our pain while we tell the truthOne by one we say our names "Why are you here?"Your mind plays tricks on you count to threeWith all these "missing words"I never thought my name would be a termWe wear black to expose the truthGet away and pursuit to a b.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1575529/ Hello son, friend, father, and husband I looked up to the sky and cried And a white dove passed by Saying hello, while you said goodbye I hope to see you again in due time But for now I'll sit back and reminisce On my thoughts of you When you smiled and laugh Hey son, friend, father,.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1575527/ Now and then I had a problem with feeling accepted and I don't know if I can love. I've had problems since i was 4 when i was first molested by my teacher had to go to 2 different counselor within 3-4 years. Freshman year i thought i loved someone but even more pain occurred againHe hit me about s.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1575525/ Fly so high and reach cloud 9Be a bird in disguise when no one else is around you"never give up"As times are hard and you can't breathe for much longer"take a deep breathe"Stress doesn't just leave you instantly like people say... Do you believe in you?As the statement of self goes ".... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1515264/ As pointless as it seems There's a million words to be said in about five minutes just let me finish If I could change the part Don't you think I would?Sad to say that yet again She was only 17Teenage affairs goes to you and others you haven't spoken and didn't have a voiceI'm sorry th.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1515261/ Please forgive me If I didn't know you were depressed now my mind isn't at rest I don't sleep well... I don't eat"six pounds lost"And I'm doing this for you When the subject teenage affairs hit me I knew what you did wasn't trueWhy didn't I listen to you?Please lord forgive me because .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1515259/ My life is so complexed Take my words and put them out of contextI got so much to say in so little timeNow hit rewind Pause for the moment of silence"am I gifted?"Is my mind spoken?Is my heart open?Baby, don't be so blue Just look at you starting fights for no reasonThrowing shad.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1515256/ I'll be there for you and guide you through your pain "I won't shed tears to be honest with you"So yes I'm mad and upset at you but you know what it's whatever I'm being honest Over half maybe more of my friends will drink and smoke as they do now and won't live to see the age 50 but I hope th.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1515252/ Can we be heroes instead of foesCan you listen to my words and what I'm aboutInstead of having doubtPut them in context Instead of being so f*****g complexed You think life may be sweeter with a little weed and alcoholic drinksWith 20 to 30 years you're doneSo far gone and numbNo air.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1515251/ Scene 6: the hospital roomMama: dream catcher?Kendall: I saw her... I saw her... She was raped and I couldn't stop them.i had to watch.Mama: Kendall look at me... It's ok but...Kendall: but what?..Mama: she's gone Kendall (tears run down her face)Kendall: no I don't believe you. This can.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1515249/ Kendall: thank youRose: I'm gonna go get someKendall: rose wait a sec, do you trust them because I'm really getting creeped out about thisRose: just relax its a party... Have fun for once in your life, best friends stick together remember Kendall: ok pour me someThe girls had no idea about.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1515245/ Her clothes ripped up and laces untied "Could you tell she was raped and beat up"She bled so much that she didn't have much leftYet people are wondering how could she possibly survive that night... Scene 1: last night at homeMama: Kendall your best friend is hereKendall: I don't have a best .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1515239/ I asked myself a million times if I should stay or go?I've thought about my family the most with this question But then again what would my friends think?I asked my love to stay but he leftI asked God please help me more than onceBut I can't remember the last time I've been to church Wou.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1487466/ When you're alone, do you think about me?Do you care about my feelings?I look in your eyes and i don't see that you love me or care I see my pain, your pain, and my suicidal death I can't talk to anyone because they're not here to listen to my dying story or listen to what i have to sayIns.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1487160/ As I'm sitting in the hospital Wait... "HE DOESN'T CARE"nobody does I look at the lights on the ceiling thinking they're stars of the night skyI get messages "don't get mad if im with another girl"Doesn't he know i've been here for hours? Doesn't he know im depressed? .... he doesn't car.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1487155/ "I could I tell you my story without crying"This is no laughing matter The people that shared these stories are real "She was raped""My friends were killed""I attempted suicide" "I'm gay"It hurts to know that nobody will believe themThey've been silent for so long Hidden behind insercu.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1476683/ Where "i" see light on a daily basis, with eyes blood shot from lack of sleep.... a missing piece of me... along shadows... I.I.I struggling to reach to the light and climb out OF insanity, I see myself looking at me climb into the treehouse called "Sane" maneuvering my brain cuz my thoughts are on .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1459722/ as I.I.I. keep falling I look back at what I've done what I've won all MY fun now I'm none, nothing, zero, an irrelevant matter leaning towards disaster eating failure on a platter I. I. I. I so cold upon the matter of this disaster.... I'm cold in this zero degree weather... i. I. I searching fo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1459721/ I. I. I.... I emphasize I because I treasure me. See, there's no problem with us or we. But I is so personal it hits right at home because it never truly left, conscience cooking up thoughts and advice like a self psychologist chef. I. I. I. meaning there is only me who knows me. People my visibili.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1459720/ All I ever wanted was you to Look in my eyes and realize my painThe struggle to be sane Our relationship wasn't sugar cane It was bitter sweet (Still no eye contact)These lies you set in motion Did you ever think of me?I can't even look in your eyes I want to hurt you so much the S.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1459714/ Showers of fall rain and tears Come upon my face As the ashes of last week's fire were spread across the the green carpet-- lone wolf-- with a thousand eyes staring yet I wasn't glaring because of their point of view.. I'm singing the sad song written across my broken heart and my insane mind--.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1459709/ Our generation Surrounds us with uncharted record labels... disrespectful sons and daughters hitting their parents, shouting out words of hate.. "there's no love for criminals" , so called stoners have literally their whole set on weed, cigarettes, alcohol, and abusive relationships... (a life wit.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1428908/ She's so beautiful in the morning She asked me to lay in between Her thick thighs As she called me by my name The p***y was so good from last night".... I showered her with kisses in between Her thighs with them up in the air"Leaving hickeys all over her breasts And neckI loved seein.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1422949/ A DREAM OF…  of…,, A dream of what could be reality and what reality actually is,, UNWRITTEN  but written on a sheet that,  not holds lines,  but ink that shows feeling,,In our own utopia that we seek and speak of,, Never to be found except in out FANTASY; so we w.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1422945/ "Unwritten fantasy"I don't smile.... I show tearsI make many faces but the feeling disappears.... so I yell and screamNo one hears me... please let it be a dream of an unwritten fantasya fantasy that passes on gradually, ever so casually. No one hears me, silence. Too little injustice, .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1422943/ The heat The fast and slow motionsDifferent positions"let me lay back and watch you eat"Kisses down lowHickeys on my breasts and neckOur sex is a battle field I'm your gun now shoot bullets �"�The heat �"��'�Co.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1421934/ When people don't listen to a word you say... It's dead silence if I stay(stay here with these people)How many times have I expressed my feelings ? And how many tears have rolled down my cheeks?(over a thousand)I sit in my room And it's dark with blacked out shades"in many ways then .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1419210/ All in one word.... how I'm feeling right now But it's different from the world (People who would care a few friends maybe and my family)Have I told them about having this feeling..... I have notThe world can be cold but yet that's not even the main focus"Were supposed to be happy yet ther.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1419209/ It happened on my birthday And I walked into a place I called home filled with balloons.... No one was home so I took a nap on the couch...within an hour I hadn't realized I left the door open, I got up to close itI walked back into the living room to lay back down but I heard someone else in th.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1415595/ A naked beautyA gorgeous mindWith a wet body... sexual healing With my baby and I When our two world coexist With my boyfriend and I Our naked souls and future glows "Baby all I need is you"Two naked and beautiful souls With a mind for the future "With our babes"Letting the world k.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1412938/ A word that is justified A kiss that is full of lies....... "just kiss me on my cheek"I live in the late nights When the world is asleep I'd rather dream once more and live another day"..... My heart is a poetic verse"It's cold and simply broken with an unordinary heart beat But low on.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1412935/ Lately..... all I've done is sit here and think of youI close my eyes as my tears build up my insanity (Don't leave me again) is all I wish to say to youBecause when you leave I'll be lost and depressed more than ever ..... I'd literally run after you begging you to stay"We've had rough pasts .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1412933/ Kiss me underneath the waterAnd let our love spread like spray paint (something called graffiti) ...... locked hands and under water smilesHearing our laughter (jokes)In our eyes there's pain and fear through every tearAnd within our smiles there's deceit Swimming in pools of alcohol As .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1412929/ I was creative by a person who was mindless and a person I didn't know".... When it comes to everything I have.... I'm thinking about you"I'll lye on my death asking for and nobody would know".... I'm not the one waking up next to you"I have pains in my chest influencing my deathWho knows .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1412925/ I'm on depression medication, Anxiety pills and regularly take excedrin for migraines..... You can see my smile and not even know that I'm the same girl who was molested at the age of fiveIve been hanging on to this for yearsIt changed me from a beautiful princess to something wretched If yo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1399576/ I was bullied since I started public in the forth grade until ninth gradeI never told anyone so I kept things to myselfUntil I couldn't take it anymore and I started being rebellious towards my parents "I lied to them and I started hanging out with the wrong crowd"The summer of my ninth grade .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1394924/ I told my parents for the first time that I am bisexual "my parents said since I'm experiencing puberty that it was just a phase"Little do they know I've had two girlfriends in the past year that I've never told them about " my parents don't want me to be with a girl because they want grand kids o.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1394648/ "my imperfections make me perfect no contradictions just predictions"My confidence is powered by my insecurities keeps me moving forward only I can hold myself backInsecurities vs confidence I was insecure about my body "I felt like I was in a prison"I hated myself and my bodyAnd I was my .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1394143/ He wasn't there for me physically, mentally and emotionally"he would come visit me every now and then but I was always with my mom who couldn't stand me"So she sent me away to leave with my father because I wasn't acting reckless "I got suspended from school, I got kicked out of public places, I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1394142/ I've beaten and abused in several ways By the man of the house and my brothers My mother ignores me"she doesn't understand why I am the way I am"I've attempted suicide on more than one occasion"so I hide everything behind a smile"Because at the end of the day I know no one will care if I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1393649/ I was too young to know what was going on"I was four and I developed type one diabetes"I was too young to know the world burning at my feet to the tip of my toes" my sister was only eleven when I watched my dad rape her"I saw the fear in her eyesAnd my dad ended up going to prison "I would.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1393647/ I feel empty and emotionless "nobody gets how I think"So I put emotions on my face to feel something "to feel compassion, hate, or love for people"Sometimes I don't feel like talking to my own dad when he says I should call him once in a while "I mean the phone works both ways and I'm your son".. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1393646/ Back then we weren't that young but I still remember us"at least I thought we were an us"I thought she loved me the way I love her "I showered her with kisses, I held her constantly, I gave her gifts, and more"She only liked me for that Never loved me or at least felt the same way I did for .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1393473/ I met the man of my dreams in January "he except my disability and everything about me"We clicked instantly And within a month I was pregnant "I'll never leave you" he said But as time past he grew angry and controlling I watched him pop pills constantly "he controlled what I wore, how I did.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1393037/ My memory is kind of foggyMy eyes are blurry "Lips of mine cold as ice"If I should die before I wake, I pray to the lord my soul to takeMy skin becoming pale Eyes wide open"Im either dying or already dead"My heart giving up on me While the smile on my face is no longer there"peaceful.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1391754/ Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder Children born to put a smile on your face and dance in front of your eyes with laughter"poetic love child"Looks from the mother and father Saying the words of love with their hearts and influencing them with their bodies "as the woman lays on the bed, th.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1391216/ Dreams die out when they're broken "I've looked up to the stars hoping for something better than this society we live in"Guns shooting bullets in their mouths "head shots"Needles in veins causing a sudden overdose Cuts on their legs and arms "stabs to the back and pushed down the stairs"Soci.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1390888/ From the start my family told me "I was born a mistake"My mother and my father never wanted meAnd I was 11 months old when my parents didn't have enough money or time for meI moved in with my aunt and her husband But by the age of three they separated "It hurt me and touched my heart in a ne.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1390887/ I've come to the point where living isn't an option I can put on a brave face using this smile to create an illusion that I'm happy"happier than yesterday"My body achesAnd as I look down at these pills"these pills in my hand"The only way out is these f*****g pills in my handMy eyes tea.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1390886/ In between these legsI'm a virginTo cigarettes, cocaine and weedI'm a virgin to society "I won't give up (the p***y) that easily"But all I think about night after night is sex and drugs"imagining the person I love and want deeply inside of me"All I want is to make love"I don't believe .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kiarahall411/1390884/