http://slow.writerscafe.org/moonbaby9307 The original writings of author prettybretty en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1775990544 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Where can I put this melancholiaEndless tears I’ve cried for you, dear friendWe were friends for more than one minuteBut less than a lifetimeAll the hues of cinema dull my heart to grayAlways the one watching from afarbut with nothing to sayI prayed a lot even though I hate.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/2063855/ Repressed AustrienneA most solitary womanFor what does she waitBetween Schumann and SchubertA lover?  A sadist?A shadow’s integration?He reads her letterand curses her, a chienne.Love isn’t everything.The bane of life, misunderstanding.What a shame, her gown is all bloodied http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/2063853/ a broken girl in the showershe just wants lovebut can't feel anythingain't love an ephemeral thing?i try to cry butafter a jubilee of this,there's not much leftcan't even remember my name and a girl across the Atlanticgot herself bleached blondeand a boyfriend but that's not much,is it,whe.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/2063852/ right now, there's somebody in love, blissfully ignorantright now, there's an insomniac in gitmo right now, i'm in an s&m relationship with myselfright now, there's a nostalgia for retroright now, in the unholy , the blue hour, is when i am most alive and at the end of my life,&nb.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/2061432/ im so doneim so done mamaevery day is an echo chamberof redundant political playgroundRed vs Blue CNN vs Fake Newsi feel sicktry to drown it out with musicbut the radio promotes the currentbutterfly monarch sex kitten puppetwith the false doctrine that herPUSSY is GodUtopia doesn't exist & how c.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/2046921/ well i am dead insidecongratulations to you,congratulations to you.now i am dead inside and truly gonemy compliments to the bakeron your birthday this yeari hope you'll realize youcan't have your cake and eat it toowell just rememberMarie Antoinette ate hers tooMarie Antoinette ate hers toohope you .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/2046919/ They say there's a Fatherand he's the Most Highbut here i am HURTby things that are benignand benevolencelooks like malevolence to me'cause somebody always has to get HURTin your bubble you say"lucky it wasn't me, i won the lottery"while somebody else doesn't know how to start the dayyour god l.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/2042500/ Whenever you threaten meI just rememberwe will all be = in the END, honeyYes when you poison me& make me crawlIt's a gift'cause I will turn aroundand see you falling10 years later20 years later2 days laterIt doesn't matter To anyone but me3 lifetimes later...Your mockery...ends...Whenever y.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/2042497/ oh Dr. , Dr. M.you act so nicebut you have sinnedyou rape my psyche,tell me "just be happy"as i float in and outof your ward's revolving doors,i'm afraid.i'm afraid of you,and get bizarre dreamswhere i relinquish controland give you everything.i tell myself so hard that i don't want your f.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/2041845/ breezy, blondewaving dandelions like a wandtoo young to knowthat dreams are called dreamscuz as long as you're awakethey won't come truenot the way nightmares doand reality is not a showbut they'll never tell you sothey'll just chew you up,spit you out, swallow you whole,cook your soul.serve it up o.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/2041840/ i've seen a weird but ancient gamelet's weaponize each otherand kill in the nameprojecting on each otherto place the blameyolk-shaped egos in the motherless wombyellow as a bellysay you've got a couple problems?i've got 8 billion minus a fewtime is something difficult to passthe latest agenda starts.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/2041838/ they are the zombiespuking rainbows and kittensi want to break dishes i am jealousmy victim card my victim cardis my official IDsomething is in my veins but it's not bloodit's not normal blood...and yet my hands are smearedsomewhere an 8-year-old girlis shoving glass into her crotchbecause she .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/2041590/ if love's so very patient,why must true love wait?if love's so very kind,why does it render me rent all the damned time?if love's so very unconditional,why do we feel inclined to describe?if love is the answer,of what obsession was the questionsubscribed?and if love is the exception,why does it.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/2040976/ My sense of self is destroyedA robot doing the motionOnly errors and glitches to be foundNot enough silence and too much noiseAll the chaos in my headHaunts me relentlessly as an entityOr is it more than just my mindWhich never triumphs over matter?Even the morning sky is blue-gray And I cannot.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/2014834/ I'm angelic and the fear is imminentI can't afford the luxury of my angstMy automatic draws of breathAre the only thing that's free.& yet, it saddens me profusely--my anguish of being trapped by "God".It despairs my narcissism.  My survival.With what should I cope?  I don't.I'm sick li.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/2014766/ These feelings are so pureBut you can call me a bad personFor seeing butterflies in the blue skiesthat you don'tAnd heart-shaped cumulusand sparkly soundi hear glitterSo anyway I love himI'm living proofAnd there's not a damn thingthat you can do Cause I'll never stopAnd my heart won't stopMy f.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1963162/ look at the regret in his eyeslittle dolls and teacupsnews journals read aboutfrench riots clonazepam muffles her screamsand it's the strangest day she's ever hadshe just wants her innocence backlittle hair bows in her childhoodlittle meadows keeping quietjet setters and go-getters will never u.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1962182/ My heart hurts way more than my body parts didAnd I’m almost sorry that I’m not a virginAnd it’s taken quite a while to mournBut it doesn’t matter because I’ve always had to mournThe fact that I am here  http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1956389/ Who hurt me that bad?It's always on your mind,and your lips go dry with the thought on the palate.Who could make someone so bright just look so devoid,such heavy staring martyr eyes that lead to naught but a void..And I always want to tell them, look in the mirror.But that's not quite right , as a m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1941472/ Every summer I invariably thought of Nico. And the heat that day, a secret stifle of maliceThe green was beautiful and EuropeanNico on her bicycleTo some, her voice was as a dirge;I don't think so.Her guttural scream,Her knowing laugh.The '88 like a cold war flashnot blocking from our skinthe u.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1941470/ I won’t let youI was innocent but my halo was bentDanguol�- Rasalait�- dangles from the bridgeUnder which we live and the cool kidsHang in the station making bets harder than chocolateAnd the sins of the father lay irredeemableFalse promises at the door where the angel .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1928454/ every time you mock my culture it’s not just me losing 2 years of hypothetical lifespan,we were already genocided a million times, but it’s not enough for you expensive conservatories just to make sure our language doesn’t die as our elders do and the rest of us have been mixe.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1927525/ hard for meonly himblushing red nakedsee sad universelook overto broken window http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1924784/ cool breath candy child& a breeze do dazzlebaby boy eat my kissanddecaydark prisoner http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1924783/ in a floral dress, or work clotheslooking at architecture in your spare timeno needles under eyes to make us watch'cause we know all their secretseverything's genaugenaugenauand he knows toowell when you get back down to earthtell me something niceto make me feel betterwatch me in 3D;depersonalized,.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1915585/ I’m sure you have forgottenthe damage inflictedby your mind so rottenon a tiny victimIf I fall asleep you’ll find mea vulnerable childAnd again I’ll end up hidingLife drew the wild cardSo the joker is on meI should have run,I should have runWhen you went for the gun,straight for th.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1912309/ i went to Germany todayi went to 1996and missed you in my dream.in black and white,that lives more than colour.across the equator,i'll wait for you outside the lensof my former life camera.and when i show up on the film,i won't appear there at all,'cause i'm too busy playing on our beaches and .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1911523/ #1i don't mean iti don't mean itkill girl kill girlmeltinterstellairesi wish i caredhearts all over meheadache girltylenol girlit doesn't belong to me#2breathing milkand ocean airseeing starscosmos heaven star#3pill girlspoiled milkripped jeansmascara stainsthis is what stays the same#4i don't know .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1904988/ Mother used to put a bow in my hairFather came to birthdays but I didn't careAuntie dressed us up with a goth flairAnd Uncle took us to the Renaissance fair. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1904840/ everyone comeseveryone - i love you sois this a bad dreamlike an interimlike a thing betweennever meant no harmbut now it's done to mestrangers in the mirrorlike an aesthetic dreamevery daythe clouds in the skywill i wonder whyprecipitation rains on menothing showsnothing knows my namerunning i.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1904839/ I have a real problem when every person I meet asks where my name "comes from" But much worse is "I understand because I'm not a girly girl" But the worst is the word "feel" when the word is am/am not.I don't feel agender; as if I have a say in what I becameI am agender ,and just a person .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1903320/ It's that time of yearwhen i miss the camellias that bloomed ;the callas, too,when nature was groomed and not unjustfor its youth--the regrets it wrought on them, on them. never the elder,none the wiser. the garden of charmswas green and alert and you were the centerof it all and your smile an .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1903025/ Marquis de Sade, Leopold von Sacher-Masoch,tell me what to do with my power.i never thought in my time there would beso many Nazis.tell me how to overthrow their power.i lie at leather-clad heels, i am nothing.can you see from my dark circlesthat i once scribbled on walls,i did graffiti, i did .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1902980/ everyone leaves except movie starsi like movie starsdreams fade, life boresi like actresses to do what i can'teverything fades, feelings passonly movies can lasta glimpse of what you couldn't seecollecting them all in my headno one can take that from methe place where stars and stars collide http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1887500/ Greasy-faced prostitute Child bride 18 Plucking daisies and eyebrows You’ve been dead to me Only my hatred Lets me know that you still breathe Only a piercing ache Suffocating me like your Jungle red claws Lets me know that I still breathe You&.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1886869/ A ruby is beautifulUnless you see bloodA sapphire is beautifulUnless you see freeze An emerald is beautifulUnless you see envy, malice, & greed A cubic zirconia is beautifulBecause it holds no false pretenseA pink heart-shaped ringLike an artificial valve; It works just the sameAn.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1874238/ My hair dazzles with sparklesOn the black cascade I won't pretend to be aTommyGirl--All-American.I bask in the sunAnd it hurts (Sans UV protection and ephemeral awake)I bask in my sunIn my dewy glow In my perfectionIn my holiness Without shadows or need of logic TremblesIt f.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1874235/ i want to scrub the snow white off my skinexfoliate all my sinit hurts like God inserting Adam’s ribinto Eve; or is it me?i want to live on the edgebut afraid that the wind will break my falli want to dress the avant-gardeand stage a coup d'étatno longer satisfied with gardensof the ord.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1861765/ You painted me red, I knew I was whiteStripped me of my birthright, renamed me TristanaDid horrific things right before my eyesAnd ruined my chances of a normal lifeEverything you said went as right The blood you shed, I ought to have died right thenWhen you gave me that hostage speech.I g.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1859377/ In the end, I love youBut to the end, I prefer To turn to the headwind Of the futuristic shoresTo the icon hanging on my wallPray to him that he keeps me Safe from the trouble and painThat i know will do me in anywayDon’t say I didn’t try But remember God does no.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1858713/ Disconnected from my surroundingsAnd begging for anyone’s helpThey respond with dead eyes And monotone voice As if I did not exist .Further disconnected More hopeless than I remember I try to spark the lightOf an SOS in which I should have glittered.It is really frightening.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1858712/ I will never think of the rainy season the same way(or blue hydrangeas in full bloom)I hate standing in funeral homes and popping meds in their kitchen(how shameful, an addict)Why do you believe I sing on-key?(i have not much to give)This house is full of substances, racism, and cleaners(silently bu.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1856121/ your departure's exit woundsi see it coming like the tides of the moon& if i got somebody elsewould i still be in dinner clubssinging the bluesif he lets me out3 years after the flower bloomsi swear off womencause if God created womanthen he's not my kindwithout you i'm nothingbut me& that's.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1849838/ caress a piece of the Berlin wallwishing every 11:11 that you falli'm 'the stranger from afar'loving on the former USSRbut Dadaism really gets me offi had to take a wet minute to stopand i feel like a Guy Bourdin icon'cendres de lune''clair de lune'music box of Tchaikovskyand 1920s tunescan't tell m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1849836/ how can you get rid of something you never truly lost?how can you stop something if it's what you were told you really want?i feel it coming on.i've seen it for a long time,approaching slowly from the horizon.always effervescing quickly inside me.i didn't choose it but it became real.i can even cry... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1840947/ Could you lie down on the bedjust for me?I'll put on your oxygen maskso you can breathe.You'll close your eyes, count to three,go to sleep....I want to find your suture pointsAnd bring you back to life.Open you up to me.The intravenous needle in your arm;giving you the fluids youdesperately need.So .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1840098/ I still cry to myselfAnd I hurt myselfI always wished you the bestBut sometimes, sweetnessI wished I were deadAfter the euphoriaYou made me so unhappyWell who's sorry now?I'm giving you back your loveIt's too heavy I'm giving you back your love'Cause I wasn't readyTo lose myself!I'm letting go .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1839626/ just like a fairytalethere exists a princesshidden far awaydistant as ocean wavesyet her passions as effervescentas theysearching for a facein the crystal atmospheressometimes i see the same face in thecumulus cloudsas if i could find myguardian angel in the sky'slavender shroudsi don't know who she.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1838946/ how many hands does ittake to kill a baby?how many to turn themachines off?you'll fall from grace without wings.how much $ does it taketo get you off?what's your sensation?do you hear?I WANT MY BABYOH GODI CAN'Tdo you miss Leningrad &Stalingrad?  do you miss theBerlin wall?does your power p.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/moonbaby9307/1837886/ Give me chocolate milk and nutrientsGive me tangible musicGive me respite from neurotic nuisanceAnd paint my eyelashes with blue mascarato match the rest of my bodyin electric aftermath. 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