http://slow.writerscafe.org/thisiscrae The original writings of author Thisiscrae en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776047014 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 p.p1 {margin: 0.0px 0.0px 0.0px 0.0px; font: 11.0px Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke: #000000}p.p2 {margin: 0.0px 0.0px 0.0px 0.0px; font: 11.0px Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke: #000000; min-height: 13.0px}span.s1 {font-kerning: none}7/17/17- “I love you”…&nb.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1987567/ BUTTERFLIESAT RISE: A female in her early twenties BECCA waits in a line with other young girls on either side of  her. BECCA is playing with her hair nervously. Has a messenger bag over one of her shoulders.PRODUCTION NOTE: This is an internal monologue. Text that is italicized is directed to .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1481925/ I understand that race is an issue, but it will always be prevalent. No one is truly color bind to race. In a world of black and white I am lost. I will never be “white” enough nor will I ever be “black” enough. Being at a private prep school my whole life I have always been .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1481920/ I am always living in someones shadow. I never get my time to shine. I have these high expectations for myself that I never reach. I know there are other people who feel the same way, but I feel like a b***h saying it to someone. I feel like I have this pit in my stomach and the only way to get rid .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1270799/ Today I found out I have a heart murmur. My doctor said it shouldn’t be anything serious but I can only think of worse case scenarios. I have to go to a cardiologist and get an EKG. I need to make sure that it is nothing serious or I won’t be cleared to play volleyball. This year is supp.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1218596/ Saturday July 7th,    Friday morning I was forced to go to brunch with Phoebe and Dakota. They managed to ruin one of my favorite things. It started with a 10 minute walk that felt as if it was an hour long. I can’t believe I restrained myself from strangling them without having.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1217541/ Thursday July 5th,    Having Trent be here made me think that this week would be more interesting. Not that this week was uninteresting, but I guess I let my imagination run a little wild. I am going to cut to the chase and jump to the 4th.     As agreed my parents and .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1215845/ Friday June 29th,     Honestly everything from the last time I wrote to yesterday has been a blur. Tucker and Nolan officially have a summer fling with Dakota and Phoebe. I manage to not vomit every time I see any of them together. I have gotten to know Seth a lot better. Seth broke u.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1206312/ Wednesday June 20th,        I spent all of last weekend with my parents family bonding. We went to different restaurants, we went shopping, my father even made us play mini golf. Leaving Phoebe and Dakota to spend as much time as they wanted with thy guys for three days.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1197901/ I'm sorry for this chapter being so long but I hope you enjoy http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1193964/ Friday June 8th,    I love starting a new journal it is the best feeling. It is like having a fresh start.That’s what this summer is about. I get to say goodbye to all the drama, and all the people I don’t want to see. This morning Faye, Avalon, Zephyr and I were walking a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1191034/ This is the sequel of my first book A Cliché Diary. I advise reading the first book befor you read this one or you will be a little lost. I fast forward to the summer. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1191030/ I need someone new in my life. Someone who can make me forget. Someone who I can talk to for hours on end. Someone who is just as crazy as I am. I need a fresh start. A new begging a new chapter. Someone who I can start over with. Someone who brings out the best of me and makes me want to be a bette.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1178573/ December 18th,    This week was crazy. I’m pretty sure I did not have a free moment to relax all week. I’m currently writing in the car, while my sister is blasting Kinky Boots. So much happened in this week. It felt short, but it seems like Monday was ages ago.  &nbs.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1166455/ December 12th,        I haven’t written in for ever. Probably because I just haven’t been in the mood. I just can’t force myself to write. This week was hectic and next week will be worse. We have two weeks before winter break. Thank God because I defi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1159007/ This is a new idea for a book. I would start it after I finish Cliché Diary it is just an idea. Tell me what you think. I don't have a title yet so I would love ideas for that to. I would also like an image for the book so if you have any could you message them to me please. I know peopl.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1147986/ November 24,    Yesterday was my first day back on campus. My parents decided to drive me up, because they didn’t think we spent enough time together the past week. Though both of my parents took the whole week off from work which they never do. My father said, I was antisocial .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1147280/ November 18,Today was my one month anniversary with Tucker. It is kind of surreal. I know that I once hoped to date Tucker, but I never thought it would happen. I guess I am still letting Trent’s words get to me. Probably because he’s not the first person I heard this from. Nolan has cri.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1142417/ November 14, I know I haven’t written in a while, because I have been spending most of my free time with Tucker. Except for this week I was consumed with musical auditions. I know I am not much of a singer, but Leti directs the musical so it is full of dancing, which I can do. Auditions are th.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1141626/ Today when we talked I didn’t get butterflies in my stomach, or have my heart start racing like it normally does. Not having these feelings were weird. I have tried so hard to force myself to not like you, and now all the sudden I don’t. I thought the only way to get over you was to desp.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1136143/ October 16th, I know I already wrote today, but so much other stuff happened since this morning. When I got up all my roommates were gone, because they were at breakfast. I could have got up and joined them, but my body couldn’t handle food. It was about 11am when Faye came back to the room. &.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1131488/ October 16th, I’m giving up on the whole salutation thing and just going to start writing. I haven’t written in a while but nothing really interesting has happened until this weekend. I guess I started talking to Tucker again and stopped giving him the 3rd degree, but nothing happened ti.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1130557/ September 9th, Hello Diary, Okay that just sound weird, but enough worrying about how I start my entries. It is finally then end of the week. Yes it was only the first week of school, but starting classes was rough. Classes start at 8:00am and go till 4:30pm, and we have lunch from 12:30-1:30. It is.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1127839/ Our relationship was going good it was going great till I messed it up with the s**t I said.A friendship gonecan’t be repaired all because feelings were there.You were good to meyou were so sweet but the second I say something you suddenly changed. You pushed me awaylike you never caredwhat ha.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1126928/ I finally did it. I always told myself that I would work on writing a book or a play and I finally did. I started working on my book about a week ago I already finished a chapter and a half. I am really proud of myself. I have had way more people read it then I ever thought. I have gotten a lot more.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1125630/ September 5th Dear diary, I’ll start from where I last left off with my text from Tucker. I was indecisive about going to meet with him so as I always do I asked Faye what I should do. She offered to go with me, but I told her that would be extremely awkward. Zephyr tried to co.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1124723/ September 4th Dear diary is so cliché but this salutation of my entries will have to remain till I find something better. Today was a special day; last winter Faye and I applied for an experience of a lifetime. We applied to join The Academy of Gifted Youth fashion program, and I a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1123031/ http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1123030/ I love writing but I hate english. I sit in this class and every second feels like an hour. I guess it depends on the teacher because last year I loved english. I had a funny sarcastic teacher but this year my teacher is batt s**t crazy and can’t get through a sentence without saying the word .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1121624/ I hate when the person you like says the snakiest things. When they just try to impress the people around you and act like a hilarious big shot. When they say something and you have a great come back but it would make that you like him obvious. When you are with one of your friends and you both give.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1121131/ There are two guys and I like them both. I can’t tell which one I like more or if either of them are interested in my. Both guys are dorky and make me laugh. They both like to make fun of me and try to piss me off. Guy one is athletic and has a great body, but guy two is artistic he can act an.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1119492/ I feel like I always over think things. I try to figure out all the possibilities about why he talks to me at the weirdest times and about the weirdest things. My best friend thinks he likes me and he could but I don’t want to get my hopes up. I have gotten hurt by him several times and we hav.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1116451/ I’ve been writing a lot. I can’t tell if that is good or bad. I write when I’m upset. And I have written 3 pieces in the past 3 days. This is number 4 and I’m still on day 3. I know writing your thoughts and feelings down is good but do I have too many? I guess there is no su.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1097249/ I hate the snow I hate the coldyet why am I drawn to the places that are this way?I’d rather be in a place warm and boldLike Florida or Cali down by the bay.I’m sick of the sniffles and coughs and always having to bundle up.You’d think after all this time the feeling would wear off.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1097226/ Some people cry all the time every time they are sad. Some people bottle up their emotions and cry it all out when they can’t take it anymore. Then there are people like me who never cry. I personally hate it. There are times when I want to brake down into tears or cry my self to sleep. Even w.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1096727/ I miss you so much. I miss seeing you in your most likely a mismatched outfit. I miss seeing your dimples when you smile. I miss how you constantly try to piss me off and how we constantly argue. I miss when you ask me stupid question even though you know the answer. I miss you blaming me for things.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1096230/ This is how I feel right now. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/thisiscrae/1077211/