http://slow.writerscafe.org/bibliophile901 The original writings of author Kyari Hasutto en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776006830 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Dear EA,I like you, but not the way you like me.Dear EA,I think you're a really good friend, but since I don't like you, you really just need to suck it up and move on.Dear EA,I actually do have a crush on you that I've been unsuccessfully hiding. I'd love to be in a relationship with you.Dear EA,I .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/1188654/ Can I really believe it's been two years? That you're now home and coming out to college in a month?Of course I can't.I've reread things, reminding me of the months when I had a crush on you. And now, with you coming out in a month and no girlfriend...who knows what could happen?My mom certainly hop.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/1188042/ There's been a lot that's happened since the last note. You made me dinner for Valentine's Day, we've spent about three days a week together, we realized how much we had missed each other after you were gone a week...About a month ago, I realized that I wasn't ready to kiss you. That I was going to .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/1146672/ I didn't think you'd actually fill out the application, but I'm glad you did. It gave us an opportunity to bring up things that wouldn't normally come up in conversation. It quelled some of my fears, and definitely allowed me the opportunity to see how you think.I'm trying. I really want to like you.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/1120637/ When you put your arm around me last week, I leaned into you almost instinctively, silently rejoicing in the fact that someone had bothered. One hand rested on my shoulder, the other found its way to my left hand and interlocked fingers. For the next few days, I tried to remember the feeling. T.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/1114787/ I don't know where I stand with you. As in, I don't really know how much I like you. Give me a little bit to figure this out. Cause right now, I'm not really sure.Life is fairly confusing right now, and it's nothing you've done. It's just me wondering if you're the right fit.I know, it's only the se.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/1106840/ Our date getting postponed until Thursday turned out to be a good thing.When I jokingly asked who I could trust, I don't know how much I was actually joking--because I was pretty sure you were going to say that I could trust you. I'm sure you'll think I'm horrible now, trying to set up the conversat.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/1103801/ We hadn't really ever talked in the two months we had been Facebook friends, but over break, I messaged you over something trivial and something clicked. We've chatted/texted every day since. Here's where it gets weird.Whovian? Check. Interested in linguistics? Check. Musical? Check. Nerd (the .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/1103473/ I'm pretty sure it started out as a joke. She's the type to flirt without meaning it, and you seemed willing to play along with the "in love" act.I found out that last night after I left it got worse. According to her, you guys started holding hands--for real, not joking about it. And you asked her .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/1075282/ We really hit it off when we started treasure hunting, but it escalated when three weeks ago I asked to talk to you. I just wanted to thank you for helping me realize that people can actually care, and it turned into a lengthy conversation about a bunch of other stuff.In the next two weeks that foll.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/1070612/ I made the mistake again. I cared more than I should've.Here's the advice I got...shortly after I realized this: "It's difficult to learn to build up a friendship without at the same time pushing it too far too fast. Could it be that you're getting hurt not because your friends aren't investing enou.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/1070609/  A month later, and not much has changed. In fact, one could argue that it got worse.You cared. You honestly cared for a month, and then something happened, and I'm back to being the one who cares more than you do.Two weeks ago, I told you I was afraid of this happening, that it had happened to.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/1061580/ When I ran into you yesterday afternoon, I tried dropping some fairly heavy hints, trying to get you to be the one to suggest that we do something together. To my dismay, you either didn't catch them or you sincerely didn't want to do something.I got home and my roommates insisted I come bowling wit.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/1051774/ I asked for fifteen minutes--we hung out for close to ninety.Twice this week I've needed just moments with someone familiar--someone I knew I'd be happy around--to cheer me up. You've been there.I'm afraid to trust my roommates, truthfully. I don't have anything small to start trusting them with, an.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/1034489/ I was so happy this evening, when really, I had no reason to be. It was a really hard day, and I hadn't been feeling great, but regardless, I was happy.I guess I really do know why. I love spending time with you. I love the fact that I can share stuff about the gospel with you and you appreciate it .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/1026069/ This past two months have been some of my favorite times with you, and after last night, I don't know what will happen.When you broke up with me, you talked about not wanting to be in a serious relationship, especially since we're leaving in a month and we've got different personalities.Part of me f.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/1006470/ Well, you have the honor of being only the second of my girl friends to be noted. At least, officially. I bring you here today because...it's complicated.I wrote in your yearbook that I hoped we'd stay good friends. You complained, saying that you wrote that you were sure we'd stay best friends.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/994951/ I overthought the whole situation. And the more I thought about it, the more I wondered, "Why am I even thinking about this?" The more I talked to you, the more I hang out with you, the more I realize that I don't mind it the way it is.So what if we don't hold hands. It's not the end of the world an.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/994506/ Can we talk?Soon?Please?Everyone--Mack, Tay, my mom--wants me to analyze our relationship.Mack and Tay think all we'll ever have is a friendship. Nothing more. Nothing less.My mom wonders when we'll ever hold hands.I don't want to.I want us to be friends. Or more. Or something. I don't know what you.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/991941/ After a mostly perfect evening of Cherry Berry and a sorta party, you asked me if I had had a perfect evening. I don't know how serious you were, but it gave me food for thought.What defines a perfect evening?I thought about evenings that I thought were close to perfect. My grad party. That bad movi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/989479/ Our first official date together since we started going out almost a month ago, and it was wonderful.Besides the fact that I finally learned how to skip rocks.But today I learned that I really am one of your best friends--comparable to your best guy friend. That is incredibly special. For years I've.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/986996/ Two and a half months. I wish it was more. I wish I didn't keep dreaming about you. I wish...I could stop wishing.I'm not infatuated with you. Which I've kind of always assumed meant that that meant...I don't even know. But with you? I have no idea what to call the feeling.I'm comfortable around you.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/985584/ It's a different relationship than I expected. You're not really one for physical contact, and there's definitely some times when I wonder why we started dating in the first place. But then there's other times where I'm glad we are dating. Where I'm more than just someone to hold your stuff for a br.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/983627/ It's funny that it actually happened, since according to everyone else we've been dancing around it for years.I finally got up my courage to ask you yesterday on the way to lunch. "Have you ever considered the possibility of us dating?" I asked.Then followed a conversation which I'll keep to myself... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/975551/ You were so close to convincing me, and I'm pretty sure you actually had me convinced. You made me breakfast for my birthday at seminary--chocolate chip scones are awesome--you and your mom decorated my room...You were being nice to me.I should've known like every other time that you'd let me down.I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/975549/ She broke up with you a couple of days after prom.The other girl got engaged.Turns out another one has a boyfriend already.Each girl you like you seem to get rejected by.I'm so glad I can help. Not because I'd like to date you--not that I'd mind that--but because I love helping people. It hurts less.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/970678/ You left for Eastern Europe and I never got a chance to say goodbye.I'm going to miss you--after all, you were one of three I loved working with, and to not see you at all will be a disappointment. Even when you were acting weird it made me smile.Good luck with the rest of your life.Including your b.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/970674/ aLife got easier after I accepted our friendship the way it was.Taking a legitimate step back was good for me, and I've stopped being so attached to you. I no longer confide in you or turn to you for everything. Yes, we do still have fun together in seminary, but our relationship is different now.Ho.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/970671/ I don't know where my feelings for you lie. It seems strange to say that, doesn't it, after my last note to you.But then prom happened. And you were so incredibly comfortable with me that it made me wonder. Then I found out why you were so evasive about your prom plans--you were thinking about askin.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/970665/ If the stats are anything to go by, there's a few people besides me reading these...which means there's a few people probably getting peeved at the lack of organization.So. What do you wish to see?New books for continuing people? Such as Tal getting a separate book? And a separate book for people I .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/961320/ Everyone was fairly sure that you would ask her. In fact, it came down to a race to see who would ask her first--you or him. He won the race, got accepted...and then rejected by her.I was in the middle. I knew I would have no date to prom--after the episode with WS, there was no reason to expect oth.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/961318/ (WS, Tal, MG and I are all in choir together)Turns out it was someone else. Now that my twitterpation has been squelched into the realms of 'Feelings for Former Crushes' I'm a little bit more rational. While I had fun hanging out with you, I find it hard to do the same now, fearing that it'll be see.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/953083/ You seem to care all of the sudden--like you're trying to salvage a friendship four years too late.Can't you see how hard it is to be friends with you? You tell me that you care. You tell me you'd buy my dress and ticket if I'd just go to prom even without a date. But rarely do you do anything that .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/953080/ It's disheartening to think it might not be true. That you might not actually be asking me. That it might be some other girl.All I know is that I'll know this week...I'm going to start stopping caring. Cause otherwise...this is going to be a depressing week.Should've kept it quieter than I did. But .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/950838/ Last night I texted you how things were going between you and your ex. Instead of explaining over text, you asked to speak in person--it was too complicated. So this morning I found you and we went into one of the practice rooms in the choir room to talk.Although twice people accidentally came in, a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/948416/ All I did last night was text you what time rehearsal was next week.That turned into a discussion on trying to balance stuff and coming up with ways to make money. You suggested being an art thief, to which I jokingly replied, "The only things I'm good at stealing are people's hearts.""Aw. Adorable .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/947764/ It started Sunday night when we were on tour.I joined your group because mine was going shopping, and I didn't want to go with them. In the midst of that, I became France in the World War that was the Mustang Battle. We went to dinner, and then ended up hanging out on the pool deck until rehearsal. .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/945818/ It hurts to realize the person you most want to be best friends with doesn't want to be friends with you.I realized this past week on our tour how little you like me, or more accurately, you dislike hanging out with me.Three times you walked away in the middle of our conversation. I'm done, Tal. I c.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/945817/ I moved lunch tables--at your advice, and partially because I was getting bored with my own. AJ and a few of her friends had moved over. AD stopped talking, pretty much, and SR (his ex-girlfriend), while friends with us apart from AD, didn't feel comfortable there anymore. Then there were a couple o.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/939159/ The simple issue of going to church in Hawaii became a problem. Your refusal to do so turned into a critique of everything wrong with the other person.I don't know how we're still friends.You don't find it at all impossible for you to be friends with AJ and me. How I disagree. You would infinitely p.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/936600/ I found out last week that you honestly like her. Not just take her to C-ball like her. But both of you are so shy you don't want to do anything about it.Good luck to the both of you.I just wish I had had a chance. I don't know that I ever did. I don't know that my feelings ever wanted me to, but I'.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/922349/ I told you this morning that the choir director and I had decided on a date to tell the rest of the choir the secret.You responded that you had already told two people.It wasn't that you told them. It was that you told them.Make sense?No?The fact that the people were told doesn't bug me. The fact th.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/922307/ Twice in the past month I've talked to you, both times about an issue concerning you that had been bugging me. Both times I came about being the one chastised.The first time I was addressing the fact that it felt like our friendship was one sided--that I cared more about you than you did about me. I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/917091/ Why on earth do (nearly) all my guy friends have 'J' names?! http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/910296/ It's an interesting relationship we have right now.For one, we're both rather brutally honest with each other. Like that lunch conversation we had about how we're not marrying each other. I think I'm actually grateful for that. A lot of relationships tend to get shaky with misunderstandings. Ours di.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/835208/ Our study sessions have become fairly regular, averaging about once every two weeks or so. My parents made the assumption that we were dating, and insisted on me "bringing you home." So when I found out you got a girlfriend, I was strangely grateful. Because my parents realized that we really were j.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/835164/ I met you my sophomore year when the sophomore class cabinet set up a middle school dance and you were helping out. I'm not entirely sure why you were there, but perhaps it was because you were a senior and old enough to chaperone.For the next two years you nearly faded out of my memory.But then you.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/835129/ You found out that Richard had asked her, and you weren't happy. Not because he asked her instead of me, but because he had the guts to ask her, and didn't ask me.I was a bit surprised at that. You cared? You said I was worth more than that.Oh, Tal...If only you actually paid attention to that. Caus.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/822740/ (Author's Note: LB is a sophomore looking to take me to our Christmas Ball. I rarely see him, and have really only talked to him twice. This is my first time going, and it's my plan to just go with friends. Unless some other circumstances fall neatly into place.)You called today, wanting to understa.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/821835/ I found out that you're taking her to Christmas Ball, and instantly a part of me was disappointed. I had so few options of dates that I somewhat hoped you'd ask.But I know that that's what I believe dating is in high school: going with different girls to different dances.You'll make a cute couple. N.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bibliophile901/819983/