http://slow.writerscafe.org/Christeenuh The original writings of author Christina Braceros en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776066036 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 THEY SAY LOVE YOURSELF, BUT WHATS THERE TO LOVE WHEN YOU CANT FIND YOURSELFYOU MOVE THROUGH THE DAYS LIKE A LEAF ON THE WINDA KISS IN THE DARK FROM YOU TO A STRANGERI LOST MYSELFFIND MEINSIDE ME, COME LAY WITH METELL ME WHAT YOU SEEOPEN YOUR MIND AND ABSORB MY EMPTINESS AND TELL ME YOU FEEL FREEFIND.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/1861115/ They say silence is goldenAnd hear it is screaming within the depths of my soulThe undying urge for the knife to rip through my skinI feel so empty with no one here to hold me.I keep my silence at bayHere I am in a quiet so violent Surrounding me within its echo Driving myself insane a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/1573205/ there are demons in my head, haunting me everydayi re-live my pain as my memories betray mesleep has become an unpredictable enemy. the ghost of my past is an now a ghost of my futureyou watched me then, you haunt me again a demon lives in my head, again and again.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/1307690/ break me, i beg ask you to shatter me so like a pheonix i rise from the ashes, stronger than i ever knew to bebeat me down so my weakness cannot get up but my strength to push he yells at me that im nothing, my face down i drown him outas bead and bead drips off my face i see the floo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/1288933/ i am not the prettiest girl, but i hope you wait for an honest hearti am not the smartest, but i wish you stay even though we are apart i wish and hope yet what is a sailor to do, but ride the waves of an ever haunting lonelinessi watch the sun disappear behind the mountains of spaceo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/1288566/ i bite my tounge and just boil in silencei feel the pressure push against my chestfeel my heart beat, hardi feel the pins and needles nausea and bitternessbut i swallow the tonic with out a flinchthe bitterness taints my already fragile demeanor but your sweet memory is that twi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/761569/ wait and watchflashing brown eyesi see your shadow i see you slip from veiwmy dear, you marked memarked me with three tortured soul you invade mei feel you internallyas you grip my being i watch your memoryi know your truthi known you eternally i s.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/741694/ i wear my love on my wristhe tugs at my lipshis powerful kisschills my skin smooth to the touchi can feel my torchburn brightthe intimacy crackles between our finger tipsthe intensity aflame i wear my love on my wristas he smiles im his prisonerhe is my keeper.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/741686/ i watch the shadows playangry games of pasti hear the echos of pain and heartachecut deep every breath i take i will take your heart and watch it melt in my handlike a block of ice as you watch i hope you feel my painof what you caused but i do not showi will taunt youand i .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/741683/ i have failedthe ironic beauty of loving youi wish i didntbut i cant help myself something about you pulls me inur flashing hazel eyesyour beautiful mischivious smilethe way your skin feels against mine my beautiful addictionbut you dont love mei wish you didbut you dont a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/706313/ im breaking, im cracking, im losing, im failingi want to disappear and walk away from my painto go back and never start. that way i wouldnt disappoint and suffer inside silentlyeveryday i burn from the insidei drown from my regrets i smile to hide themi laugh to make them seem distant.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/706294/ depression consumes me like a cancer consumes an innocent,my everlasting sickness, fill me till i leak from my ducts,every tear a flash back towards what once wasnow is lostjust like yesterday fades of forgetable memoriesthoughts consume and slowly processit hard to avoid and deny access.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/706290/ i sit outside and watch the skyi see a plane pass a cloud i can hear it nowi watch the white whisp float by unphased  just like me fighting through all my painsim lonely through my dreary times even though i have people around me here and therelike the blue sky during its dreary t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/666062/ what happened to the good old days?where everything between us was better than great,but now everything between us is riding on ok.were going through the motions riding on a wave.thinking its us we can save, but when enough is enoughand everything is gray, than the only way out is saying w.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/650523/ to love is to fall, to fall is to lovebut will u catch me?will u risk it all?or will i slip through you fingers?will u catch meor watch me?will u love me?or will u love to use me?am i ur next victim or your next symptom? will you catch me or fail me?will u take me or leave.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/634870/ The constant sinking feelingis burning insideit seeps down through everythinga fog of abnormal settings a feeling of losing the affectsim losing myselfin hopes of finding myself somewhere elsebroken stories of what i couldnt tellbroken hopes of what could happenserve purpose beyond all elsebut still.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/492174/ Of  ups and downs this was the worstthrough the foggest of things i could cut with a knifeall the possibilitesof what can be possilbly incorrect of the many tragedies o the tragedies of a fractured life of impuritiesknife cuts deep through skin like immenities i broke the bon.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/473240/ with you i have seen more than i ever couldive wished for no more but i wouldi long for loveand I'll meet you half wayi cant do it all by myselffind me borderlinewalk with me for some time You wanted so muchbut i could only meet you half wayand thats what you wanted me to ma.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/472891/ I cant sleep and i cant eati cant breathe or thinkI think im in love with you no one can help me nowive fallen to deeplosing my sanityi want you with mei dont want to be alone im losing every meaning of my selfno one can help me nowhelp me nowim lost in thoughts o.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/472853/ amongst all the distraction i lost what i had loved the mostbut gained a lot more than expectedto lose is to gain being lost has a new meaningi couldnt believe what was happeningmy world fell apartand now came back to different things in which i resolved in what was newsaw through my eye.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/453442/ MY FEELING OF BEING ALONENOTHING TO GAINBUT EVEYTHING TO LOSEI HAVE LOST ALL BUT MYSELFYET FOR HOW LONG WILL THAT REMAIN I KNOW NOT,IM FILLED WITH PAIN, AND SHAMEOF NOT BEING GOOD ENOUGH FOR THOSE I LOVEDESERVE NONE OF WHICH I'VE LEARNED TO BE LOST IM DROWNING IN MY EVER GROWI.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/434964/ i know the story of a girl so young, a story that had just begun.walking home she was followedby a demented and disturbed young fellowher eyes dark brown, but sparkled brighthis dark and souless like a cursed night captivated by her innocence and the way she lookedshe was his ta.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/423659/ if i said i love you, would you say you love me too?if  i said i need you, would you need me to? now tell me my darling...am i your everything?to me your my life, my love , my dreami write to tell of a story of epic delight and beautyof whats dangerous and whats powerfuli can.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/423654/  I never meant to do any of thisso unexpected, but will you stay with mei'll try my bestbut hold on to thisI never suspected this to besomething like thisbut will you stay with me  I want to lay next to youwatch the world shine through your eyessweet paradiseTo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/414288/ out of mind and body, experience the appearanceof what was and what isa lost battleof what was forcefully takenwithout consent or permission such dark thoughts unwanted strangerto steal the unwilling up in smoke with screams scratching through the airriping sounds and violent .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/413912/ Stop in fear of what i lostblood covered hands is all i gotbesides unfinished thoughtsa cold chill and a ghost tasteof what I sought I lived to see the day of dyingkilling dreams with a stab of sharp broken promisesno second chancesI'll let you drain and watch you sleepfeel .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/405680/ I'm in heavena heaven of velvet dreams of wonderful thingsI cant hate only lovefor i was taught to never give upI float on cloud nine and wonder all the timeIs this love?the worst poisonbut the greatest serum of blisswho would imagine a love like this http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/405677/ I cant stop smilingyour the air I'm breathinglife with youunbelievingi feel so alive yet I never diedjust faded insidewaitingBut now i have youand I see everything seems so clearyour voice in my earno dream can ever comparei would never dare hurtor stop to careyour all I ha.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/405673/ Do you see me there in a crowded roomDo you see me staring at youDo you feel the pain you put me throughI bet you do, I bet you do  As I hold your stareI feel your fear As you watch me moveacross the roomNow can you'll miss me I'll ignore youand make you.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/395751/ I let all my fearsburn a hole deep insideI lie to myself and die I let all my painburn insideas i remain quietnot a word I let it all burnit tells me I am only human and this is how it isbut I'll look after youas i burn inside for youI will always love you.&.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/395747/ Here's the bleeding factstit for tatit's just no one understands thatthey just accuse you for lyingI spill my blood my heart for youan empty soul break in two Here's the bleeding factsa truth that doesnt matchhold on tight lovefor you dont add up to muchyour just there.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/395744/ I listen to the song play on the radioand I miss you more than you knowI'd give you my all, my soulbut nobody knows but me I miss you like a fat kid misses cakebut I know the risks that we need to takebut all will remain the sameI'll be yours, alwaysI'm missing youand nobody.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/386047/ I try to block out the wordsthat haunt my dreams and stain everythingthey float on dead air as they flow from nonexisting mouths           they echo through my mind stabbing me everytime         &n.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/383240/ this undeclared warthats ignoredand which everyone is oblivious tooThe same old thingseveryday a soldier is lost and a wave of pain We fight day to dayto survive but everyday more tears I cry on the streets of life and deathand everyday I see the same old...pain.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/381231/ You'll be the peanut butteryour such a crazy nutterand I'll be the honeybecause I'm your sweetiejust you and me baby nutty and sweetdescribes you and meyour my favorite thingput us together and this is what we makealways smiling Your the honeybecause your so sweet.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/380864/ Let me see your facebefore I leave this placeLet me catch your tearsand kiss away your fearsdead or alivefor all time Before I go let me say.... hold my hand and smile,talk to me for a while.hold me close and never let goand I'll always know,kiss my pink lipsand.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/380853/ you say your the bestyet I cry out "NEXT!"your wasting your breath. so quit talking and rantingbecause we all know you fakingplus I gave up on believeing you promised me thisand all I got was zipyou brought on this s**t get off your kneesand quit be.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/380846/ Do you like that?the way I cry as I recieve a slapDo you like that?I give my all and get nothing backDo you like that?I don't have a place, so I'm trappedDo you like that?when something always gets in my way,Do you like that?when you witness my masked pain do you like that.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/379483/ " as I get older does life get harder?"I look out my window and wonder. " your old for your age"I look out my window and observe "your open minded and kind"I look out my window and seen the cold"your always right"I look out my window .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/379443/ my tears filled with painas i watch you walk awayI was just a gameanother victim for you to claimThe paincuts through the veinI'm hurt again Let down againjust another victim but it's my faultI loveI trustonly to let down as the fool I dont wa.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/378784/ The ache is sharpechoes all aroundit makes being aloneten times worse no matter how much funthe pain has just begunit ehnaces the viod making achewith a longing so fierceit becomes physicalmentalemotionala longing that has the potentialbut not substantial but .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/378027/ I stare at my reflection and wonder whyI tried to destroy the girl that I spyin front of me In the mirror I rememberhow I used to wish I was someone elsehow I wished that the girl there would just go away but now as I stareI can't imagine why anymorethe reasons seem l.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/377180/ I once knew a girlwho smiled white pearls She sat on the beach and read all day told jokesand wrote poetry I once knew a girlwho was able to light up a room for a while she was lostsuffering from a broken heart but now she is backsmiling like .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/377175/ All  I can do is watch the worldfloat on byI watch lovers hold each otherand wonder how niceAll I can do is smileas people love each otherI let mine go to wastelet it sit and rot all day and All I can do is watch the world fly by http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/376866/ Looks like your really going to have to prove yourselfare you different or just like the rest?if I gave you my heartwould you take care of it or break it? Looks like your going to work twice as hardfor my trustcan you do it or leave a trail of dustI'll give you an oppurtunit.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/376414/ Like Springa new love begins to formLike Summerthe passion hot and warmLike Autumnthe warmth begins to fade awayLike Winterit grows cold and gray like the seasonsmy love plays but from death comes lifeand from pain comes joy and one dayit'll be spring a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/375603/ I want to sit next to youand watch you do what you doI want to laughand hold your handI just want you to love methe way I am I want to watch the world pass us byand I want to call you "mine"I want to inspireand hold you higherI just want you to love me forevert.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/375484/ You sit there and judgewhen your the worstbetween the both of us You sit and sayyou better than mebut you don't seem to seeyou just aren't me You don't know meso how can you sit there and judge meif you can't seeYou don't even know mequit pretending You d.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/375480/ I don't care what you sayyou don't care anywayyou just sit there and ignore meyet you act all knowingbut screw that and F*** you! I'm not listeningnot anymoreI'm tired of your insultsyour wearing me to the flooryou can't hurt what's not yours you tire me outyou ma.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/375426/ Stay tonightand leave tomorrowwithout a wordI won't mindStay tonightand I'll say good byefor I won't waste my timeyou want me nowbut will you want me tomorrowso stay tonight and discoveram I your cravingor what you breatheI won't waitso don't expect meno ultimat.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Christeenuh/375183/