http://slow.writerscafe.org/kthimm1 The original writings of author Krista en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1775984142 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Scattered scars mind and body bothHave been shattered and brokenBroken into a million pieces.Can try and piece me back togetherYet this body is fragileTired and brokenJust wanting to end the good fight.Continuously fighting for someone elseBut never herself In the end It's .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/2877437/ So fed upjust sitting around wonderingWhen death will just take meTake me away from all this pain and misery.After almost 33 years of lifeWasted lifeNothing but pain and miseryI just want it to end.I can't keep being strongI can't keep fighting.Maybe I just don't want to anymore... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/2865391/ It's been probably years since I actually wrote anything but a lots happening and this suddenly just came to me. Knowing soon come end of year or beginning next im returning home http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/2862042/ "Now I have told you my tale my love, ask your questions I know you have many and then you can make your choice," Sam says. 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A need to never leave you alone.Your all I could .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/2103641/ Day after dayNight after night,Thoughts racing along with the time.She plays with the ideaOf it being her last nightBut shrugs it off.Her mind is of many,So many that she wishes it was not.Ones thoughts are bad enoughBut others are too much. Memories not just hersBut the rest.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/2063824/ Sitting on the roof,thoughts cross my headwhether they are validor notI can't even tell anymore.What I wantis one thing,but nobody else wants that of me.The few who would get hurtleft behind.Is it really even enough to stop meTo stop the upcoming storm inside me?Walls are com.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/2032103/ Should I live to see one more day,Maybe one more week,Or is it just time to let everything go?Everything hurts anymore,Every little thought,Makes me question life,Every night I ask myself,"Why do I try anymore?"Can't someone just answer me?Make me feel nothing,Even if just for a .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/2030325/ Goodbye goodbyecruel cruel wordas the thoughts spin around my head,without a soul to notice.If nothing was saidif nothing was sawwould nobody know?The feelings of no hopeof ending what little is left,is what is running through my mind.Is there hope left?Is there a purpose?A meaning?The blood calmsth.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1988764/ If you wish to call me a fake or a liar go ahead words are just that.Everything that you say to me,I know isn't really truth because I know I Don't belongI should have died years ago but instead I chose life to fight for the little things.A reason is all I want,an answe.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1961711/ A memorial for a lost person.... RIP http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1959481/ How would it be,if I died tonight?If I took that last breath,when talking to you.You are oneof few who care,one who listensbut I still feel like,something is really missinga piece of myself that has dissapearedthat probably is gone foreverthe aspect of life,is gone to me.I keep trying,just to f.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1957930/ SOME PEOPLE MAY FIND OFFENSE THIS IS MY OPINION AND ALSO MAY BE TOPIC FOR ESSAY IN CLASS SO GETTING HEAD START PLEASE DON"T BE RUDE WITH COMMENTS THANKS http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1955691/ After all these years of lifeI wish just to hide foreverand sleep forever.Not live another dayJust want everything gone from my mind,I wish to be normal,but what even is that?The voices screaming in my head"your such a screw up! ""you can't do anything right"The number of people telling me to just e.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1946915/ All I wish is forsomeone to hold me.To let me know everything,will be okay eventually.But after 26 years,I started doubting it will ever happenthat person will never be apart of my life.Does anybody really truly care?Does anybody truly see me?Doubt anyone can break past the walls,I created just for .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1946088/ All you see is what I want,you don't see the truth.You don't see the pain,you see the outside,the thoughts running through my head,would probably scare most.I always have a plan,just when I do it is,the decesion left to make.You see an almost normal person,but what is normal really?I know I'm not,yo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1946085/ As the days grow long,I bleed more and more,risking dying but I don't care.The blood,washes away any and all sins,but instead of aging,I grow weaker. I'm no longer able to keep fighting,I hear the screaming in my head,I want nothing more than to listen to it.t make"Bleed me out,the voices .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1940710/ When events from a year ago,that you believed untrue,come back to haunt you in more ways than you like.You didn't believe,that you would ever regret it,but life is no longer worth living,because no matter what you're fucked,live,let the past haunt you for years more,Let what happened take my li.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1940540/ As I look at the sun setting,seeing what I see is not normalI see my death,not my life,not the brightness,most probably see,I don't see happiness,I see peace in death,Something I no longer fear,its unknown,You can die any moment any time,Peacefully or in your last minute,YOu can easily kill yourself.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1938922/ Will this be,my last day,my last breath.As I wish to watch my blood,run down my body,arms and legs covered,red liquid from various areas all over.The thoughts in my head,become overwhelming.Wanting more than ever,for this to be my last breath.I watch my life fade away before my eyes,person after per.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1938906/ Can I tell you the truth,the entire truthand not get hurt or thrown into a pile of garbageto be searched through later maybe.If I tell you what really is going through my mind,what will your reaction be,will you get scared and run,like most people have?Or will you stay to help?How much can I sa.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1938746/ As the day comes to an end,I hear my thoughts coming to an end.The voices screaming in my head,shouting at me that I don't belongthat its my time to go.That I shouldn't have even lived so long,Nobody cares,Nobody wants me.Lies maybe,to you but not to me.All I want to see,is my last sunset. My l.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1938578/ One last word"help"One last thought"why me"One last smilewhich is fake.One last laugh,that you brought me before you died.You wanted to live,one last sunset.One last breeze,hearing the wind blow past my ear.One last bird chirping,trying to decide how to go.Seeing the nature around me,brings me peace.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1938441/ Once in my life I actually wish I could smile Without it being fake.My face shows nothingBut if you looked deeperYou would see the hurt in me.Scared of friends goingBecause of something out of my control Scared that i might Accidentally push someone over Without meaning what i sa.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1935884/ The majority of people Who ask me "Am I ok"Get a lieBecause im scared They will run from truth.So many have So why risk the truth When a lie Is so much safer?You see the smile You hear me laugh Do you see the pain Behind the mask?No that you don't. You can not find Wh.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1935883/ The night you died in my armsYou might as well taken a gun to my head. Because i never forgot What you said with your last breath.I know you blamed yourselfWhat happened the night before Was my fault and only mine You begged for us to change our mindsSaying something bad would occur .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1935880/ Thoughts racing through my headYet not a flicker a doubt shows on my face But on the inside Turmoil is about. So many emotions So much pain and hurt.The thoughts Of wanting to face my last sunsetMy last day.But it would cause so much pain To my friends Who became like family .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1935879/ All i know is painThe hurt from othersPromise after promise Gets broken Until the pact is formed You promised to stay Never leave me alone again Yet you decided to sleepAfter making the pact with meOne goes the otherShould follow Yet im still hereHolding on by a little thread.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1934577/ Are you a ghost From my pastCome back to haunt meCant you see im in enough pain and hurtWithout the memory you bringYou were like family to meUntil you decided that your life Was no longer worth livingThat the pain was too much.That people were cruel and uncaring That your family.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1934574/ What goes through someone's mind,When they decide to die?Is it the very last option? Did i really try everything else? Are the thoughts going through my heads,Actually right or they just lies? Am I actually considering suicide as a choice? Are things really that bad?Have I completely.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1928957/ I've made my mind up,I have never believed that I really belonged anyway,Why should I try,When others give up everything that they are?When you decide whether,Or not to live,What goes through your mind?What makes your choice?How much have you lost?How much have you ever loved?Whe.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1855234/ Everyone is so fixed on the way they look these days. Ask yourself why looks are so important now a days. What influences kids and even adults?? Magazines, TV shows? People probably don't really realize that they alter those pictures and photos to make them look so skinny.. Those are such bad influe.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1849102/ Dear whoever,Tonight shall be the last night,I feel so much pain,not only physical but any pain at all.I truly don't deserve anyone,as I truly don't fit in anywhere.So many thoughts run through my head,I feel like I failed every person I have met.I never really had a chance,in this.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1846015/ I'm just human,like everyone else,no different than you.Just because I have,something that you don't,does not mean I am any different.Please don't judge me,by the way I may think or act.Don't hate me,just because I live a different life.You don't truly know who I am,or what I h.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1845416/ Im far from perfect,I'll never be what you want me to be.I don't have the words to even explain,What i want to actually lsay.My life isn't wort,Your tears or time.I don't deserve you,I am meant to be alone,With nobody.I am not one to admit weakness,But what choice now,I cannot,.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1838105/ Seeing as much pain in ypu,As i look into your eyes,They are a mirror,Into my past.All that hurt from now and earlier,Not just the now,But the past and future.You need to find,Where you belong in this hell,If you widh to call it.Dying is not worth it,Trust me,Learning it the .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1836703/ Seeing you,is undoing my control,the control I worked so hard for.It's not your fault,that I know,but is it mine either?The fault lays with neither of us,I guess.How could either of us have known?There was no way.I've only met you recently,finding what I did in you,it was almost like meeting myself,.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1834470/ I've seen the pain,in your eyes.You may believe,you hide it so very well.From most that is probably true,for me it is not.I have the same pain,hidden deep deep inside.Having the need,for someone to just care,love,hugme.Needing someone to say," I see the pain,what is wrong?" Needing someone that.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1834469/ I saw you,The first day of classSitting there in pain,Neither only physical Else wise as well.I saw myself in you ,Even that first day.Seeing you is hard, Maybe i can help in some way.I know talking about things,Doesn't always help,But having even a single person,Who understa.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1834251/ In so much pain,don't know how much more I can take.Trying my best not to pick up a blade,and cut as deep as I can possibly can.It's so hard,I feel like crying.Crying and crying,til I can't cry anymore.No more pain please.Just give me a break.I don't think,I can handle anymore... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1472946/ A little girl of age 5,abused an hurt,by someone who is supposed to love her and care for her,but obviously doesn't.The thoughts start,thoughts of wanting to disappear,of not wanting to be alive.The little girl wonders,if anyone actually cares about her.At such a young age,the pain has already began.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1230588/ I want somebody to understand me,but I'm so tired of explaining myself to others,so tired of having them not listen,tired of having them not understand.Yes I have problems,lots of them.I have addictions,try to follow me here.I have nightmares,I hear voices in my head.I have bad days,very many of the.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1225081/ Addiction, Oh addiction,I wish you were gone,but yet you are still here.You added another one to my plans,OD'ing on my medicine.Calming, relaxing as it is,it's dangerous,wish you hadn't put it into my thoughts,but you did.So now I'm addicted to that,as well as cutting. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/kthimm1/1217988/