http://slow.writerscafe.org/unrealityxx The original writings of author Laura Ex en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776046168 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 @font-face { font-family: "Cambria";}p.MsoNormal, li.MsoNormal, div.MsoNormal { margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman"; }div.Section1 { page: Section1; }I am fragile painted veins on butterflies’ wingsI am crashing wav.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/625833/ @font-face { font-family: "Cambria";}p.MsoNormal, li.MsoNormal, div.MsoNormal { margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman"; }div.Section1 { page: Section1; }Anticipation      What will it be like?Anx.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/618476/ my face tightens and gets soggy wetas i wonder if this is the way life will always beso-called-empty threatsfollowed by so-called-friends emptyingand strolling hand in handto the sunset and away from thedesperate bleeding corpse of nothing-girland i somehow doubt their thoughts will lingeron this pi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/618320/ I Am            Thinking of you in the morning and wish my alarm clock wasn'tBroken            So I could wake up in time to see the smile on your face as you make your wayAlone&nb.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/618312/ I'm not even going to pretendThat I dreamt I was a lie anymoreAs I lay out on the linoleum floorAnd sudden realization comes pouring down on meI've been a lie my whole lifeNo one caught it beforeNo one saw through my translucent bodyAnd cut me down right to the hollowed out boneMy last year has been.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/618311/ We both walk down to the sandy rocksAnd take off our sandalsThe sun is setting and the pink and blue skyIs just so beautiful that I can't help but smileBut then again, I always smile when I'm with youThe wind picks up andThe breeze pushes my hair back and I realizeI am in loveIn love with the ideas .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/618308/ If this is all a dreamAnd death is my wake up callThen these pills sure are doing their jobOf lifting me out of my sleepy surrenderWake me up so I can finally be freeOf the constant worry and unending disbeliefBecause I'm not who I was anymoreI am an untamable monsterThere is no trace of the girl yo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/618306/ The weight is melting off of meDripping into puddles on the floorFor me to mop awayI can't take seeing it anymoreI want to tear into my skinCut away the fatMaybe there's something wrong with meDid you ever think of that?And maybe once I carve so deepI can finally see a ribAnd you can finally find my.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/618302/ It's chilly outsideAnd i think of yourThrift-store drug-rugThat keeps you warmIn the windThis room is rather coldAnd my math teacherExplains simple algebraBut i can only think ofHow smart you areI'll be walking from this classAnd out into the brisk airWrapping my very own drug-rugTight around my bod.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/618301/ Time ticks slowly byAnd I wonder howI could have gone a whole dayWithout                                      .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/618300/ blankemptynothingnesscompleteutterbroken messsad andpitifulat bestonlyworthlessnessis left. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/618298/ @font-face { font-family: "Cambria";}p.MsoNormal, li.MsoNormal, div.MsoNormal { margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman"; }div.Section1 { page: Section1; }My blood flows redMy blood flows strongMy blood paints a storyO.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/617971/ The raised weltsFrom the incisionsI made on my armHurt when you touch them. I remember when I pulled apartThe wound so I could watchThe blood form a poolAnd leak out of my skin. Now they are just raisedOn my bo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/537280/ What’s next you ask me?What’s next?You sit and stare and wait for my responseAs I sit with my eyes closed, breathing in and outTrying to concentrate enough to give you a straight answerI’ll tell you what’s next,A new.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/534810/ The feeling I get, tingling startsIn my wrist and moves up through toMy arm and spirals towardMy neck, chest, stomach, thighs.The thoughts I have, twitching startsIn my right hand to pick upThe blade and trace the tinglingFeelings until.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/534805/ I bite my lip and feelThe broken open skin on my lipFrom when you peeled back my layersAnd tried to figure out just who I amI run my thumb acrossThe coarse callous indent on my fingerFrom the constant presence of pencil grip,Trying to write the pain out of my systemMy eyes trace overThe scars on my .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/518691/ Time ticks slowly byI put my earbuds in one by oneLook outside at the white-out skyAnd smile; yet still I'm unsatisfiedA shadow rolls across my pageMy heart skips a beat, hopingIt's youShould've stopped, not skippedBecause you weren't thereTurn my music up, drowning out hopeWiping the smile off my f.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/517992/ Green smeared ink smudgeTracing the tiny tunnelsEmbedded on my thumbA mystery maze for the color to bleedThroughA whirlpool of identityTilting with every hand gesture madePaths that age developedAnd work hardenedSwirling infinit.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/517864/ I can hear the pit-patOf your jean legs swipingEach other as you walk on by You just keep walking I can taste the sweatDrop on your lip slippingDown, salty on your tongue You just keep walking I c.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/516723/ I see into your eyesOnly to see into a murky hazeI gaze into your soulOnly to find hateBelated not by joyBut by tears pure, resonatingSadnessSadness so coldSo swept awayThat it sinks itsBone-deep fangs intoMy frail breaking heartUntil one............ By................OneThe pain comes undoneAnd slo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/507194/ Buckle, breakUnder the pressureUnder your influenceUnder your stepAs your shoe crushesAll the pride and joy I had leftHAD. Past tense.As in, I no longerEnjoy thingsI no longerLove thingsI no longerHave motivationI no longerWant to liveBecause I'm folding, triteUnder the pressureUnder control http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/507193/ Rip the insides outAnd let them hangDangle, drip, and weepMuch like I'm doing right nowTear the tears from my eyesAnd let them pourSaturate, soak, and drownMuch like my unfortunate vowBreak through my ribcageAnd let it restMangled, broken, and soreMuch like my heart and howWhen all the world is movi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/507191/ Blowing the tear drops down my face with a hair dryerTo see which one will reach the bottom of my cheek firstWhich one will drip drop to the ground or imprint itself in my shirtHope flutters too easy in this chest of mineAnd chills make their way too fast up my spineThis world is too full of so many.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/507190/ The only thing I can think of is the word hurtWhich leads me to replacementAnd then I think mendBecause I want to, but I know I can't if I place myselfIn the exact situation that breaks me downSlowly but surelyBecause I used to be the one hung on your sideI used to be the one cuddling up to youAnd I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/507189/ I look at you and thinkHow unfortunate you areI take pity on your soulAnd hope you have enough senseTo take you far away from hereFar away from meFor if you don't go farYou'll be forever trapped in last-minute-break-offHate-love spiral trapping clinging pushingAnd I'll say how much I don't careAnd I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/507188/ I immersed myself into the sunAnd burned all my friends along the waySuch a silly thought, to be the oneStuck forever night while he is forever dayI ignited the lantern with so much careAnd so much time it took me stillAll my friends vanish.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/503263/ The tears fumbling over the brim of my eyelidsSoaking the lashes with their salty-coating drip-dropsSniffling and wondering and panging with the burn inThe back of my swollen pus filled throatI’ve been alone for a while and it feels like you .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/501440/ How much do you love me?Let me count the waysHow much do I love you?No one can sayHow much do you love me?I’m not even to oneHow much do I love you?I’ll never be doneHow much do you love me?Like you love me at all.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/501438/ Sometimes you say all the wrong thingsAnd it might just be the way it seemsBecause wrong sounds right to meWhen I hear it all the timeSurrounding my lifeAround in my mindI don't know which is worseThere's nothing to loveOr I don't love you enoughWhatever the case, it comes down to thisSimple or comp.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/501436/ I get my expectations upThat for just a moment there’d be timeWhen you’d remember you are mineAnd I am yoursBut I guess that I was wrongAnd I’m singing the same songWishing you could somehow miss meBut I never understo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/500871/ Purge this pulsing, revolting impulsivity from my headThe mere thought of it makes me want to hurlThere are not enough vile words to describe how disgusting I feelTongue, mouth, head, heartThose are only for youBody, soul, spirit, loveThose are always for youAndnow I hope my sickly venom has sunke.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/499474/ I always hated when people picked at scabsAnd yet, here I am, doing the same thingFumbling for band-aids with my unbloody handAs I reach for the gauze I laugh slightly hazedHow can I sit here and do something soSo rashI punch at my legs unt.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/499351/ I want to bruiseI want to bleedI want it all to get away from meI want to hurtI want to hateI want it all to go awayI always fightI always runAway from everyoneI always screamI always tearAnd this time I don’t care.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/499350/ Stop screaming let me take thisLet me take all of thisThe pills, the hate, the damnationThe poor abducted life-lostSad, sorry gone demolishedAnd brokenHe was goneShe was goneWe were goneAnd I leftI left us all to crawl out o.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/492789/ i love you and i love him. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/492730/ I am disappointedIn myselfWho I amWhat I’ve doneAll that I’ve become I am demolishedBy myselfWho I hurtWhat I’ve triedAll that I’ve lied I am dyingBy myselfWho am i?What have I done?Who did I hurt?What have .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/487608/ I saw you, screaming, shiningIt feels a dream so far awayAnd it feels the happy said goodbye to meBut decided not to retreat quite so far backLike it usually doesI'm all mixed upLike a tequila-martini-daiquiriThe music plays in my headBut for some unknown reason,i.can't.hear.it.T.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/486485/ You're so addictingAnd my lips keep on splittingAnd my headaches keep on winningAll because I love youThe urges never passAnd their strength it always lastsI think I'm losing graspAll because I love youIt's true I love him moreAnd it's true I still adoreAll things both he and.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/486484/ I feel like I’m breaking in halfAnd crumbling down into myselfOh, I wish that I wouldOh, I know that I shouldn’tOctober through NovemberTurning into DecemberHeartbreaking months,Into a heartbreaking memoryConverging into a sickness in my gutIf w.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/477627/ everyone is torn apart http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/477626/ I wrote you a messageTo let you knowHow much I love youAnd I wish I could showThe world, everyoneJust how much you saved meJust what you’ve doneMy black-coated eyesLike raccoons in the nightAre un-swelling beneath meAnd helping me fightTo stay awa.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/477125/ Unfortunately Dear,It seems I broke down todayAnd one reason may be because I will never stop loving you.The intensity may go down, but sadly enough I’m bilingual.I know the language of you.And the language of him,And now I understand why when you’re .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/477119/ Sweet longingTo not see you for days on endAnd receive the sweet releaseOf euphoria to simple see your nameFor once we meet our eyesAfter period of absenceThey lock into placeAnd I can no longer look awayThe swirling pool ofSpirit bubbling streams of lifePouring from our mouths.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/476919/ SittingDreamingMotionlessHeavyI see you through glassFrom the dark cool outsideSwirlingDimmingMeaninglessHungryFor something slightly moreThan this. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/476918/ Don't believe what they said is trueNo one will believe in youGive respect where respect is dueSometimes there's nothing we can doAll the while I need time to rehearseShowing up to make the crowd disperseI saw you there and didn't sayA single thing I thought that dayWhen all the thou.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/476917/ Shaking in my wordsFlying with your colorsKilling you with verbsOur nouns are secret loversBreaking off my shellKeeling back these layersI'm open, vulnerableFocused in on failureI need to believe we can'tFail in DBTAlthough invalidating environmentIs constant, judging meI am .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/476916/ Mi Corazón es como hieloTu voz es como vientoMe juzganTe juzganNo juzgamosNada, nadie, nuncaEste dolor es como nieblaMis sentimientos, como tormentasMe odianMe odiasMe odioSiempre, siempre, ayúdameDolor va a estar despejadoY a mi me gusta muchoY a mi me gust.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/476915/ Anticipating, waitingCalculating, debatingInitiating hatingReplacing with lovePeeling, revealingSealing, healingStealing feelingTaking from above http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/476914/ The deep gaping wounds shined in the dark warm light that swallowed most souls whole. It hadn't stolen mine, and this is exactly why the said gauges occupy my arm, leg, and stomach. If you had any idea, any at all, you would have your own scars and stories to tell.Still fresh, Dripping Crimson.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/476913/ a song i wrote and recorded. not done yet. still needs music :] http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/unrealityxx/476912/