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The original writings of author Gastroc. en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776039370 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 In the center I standWincing and squintingas they snort andspit"I thank you, ma'amand I thank you, sir," I'll sayWaiting to see them turnbefore I wipe it all awayfor they say I must be anything,anything but rudeWe should express our feelings freelyAnalyze why we're in whichever moodThis is unless, o.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Gastroc./644360/ brisk mornings spentgrasping onto oversized mittensand this is the only time you let mehold your sweet independent handsand allow me to lead the wayonly to the culdesac andbackwaving at passerbys,neighbors,from this same expensive placenearly two and amazed at howbreezes make their way throughtreesa.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Gastroc./501314/ it's like looking at myselfthree years pastthat,and a trainwrecksimultaneouslyi bet you didn't think you'dbe cast to play my roleand perhaps i should pick youapart 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http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Gastroc./493601/ once handed everything you thoughtyou ever wantedyou're bound to throw it backjust to see if it sticksbecause weas peoplelong topick up the piecesand watch as others pity usfor being so strong in battleswe ourselves pickedand we need to tell the worldof our accomplishments de.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Gastroc./476525/ i requested thisthesei even paid andtippedappropriatelyi believe ithanked youwhole-heartedlybut that wasthenand you know what thisisperhaps i wassinningon multiple,differentlevelsperhaps i, too,wasbowing down ata carved imagemy release,escapefrom all that the world hasdone onto mebut i suppose theym.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Gastroc./435085/ timevital as it isisno longer spent ondaydreaming butliving-living realitiesdream-like informat timesbut life -life like this iswell spent onappreciative ones who knowwhat they've gotand haven't a need to askfor more inreturnthe selfish leap ahead,bounds,and 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