http://slow.writerscafe.org/staystrongbutter The original writings of author StayStronglilButterfly en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1775997163 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 In my mind.I'm in the ICU.Scared, alone, numb.Crying my eyes out.I want to leave.My only way out?If the doctors tell me.In my mind.I'm in the ICU.Looking around.At other sick patients.Help me.In my mind.I'm in the ICU.Fighting.Yanking the cords off me.I run.I wake up.Scared. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/staystrongbutter/1631888/ Remember those?Harsh words you spoke.They're now.On my arm and wrist.All those cuts.All the scars.The words you call me. Fat, ugly, attention seeker.Those words still remain.Not towards me.Not on me.On you.You spoke.I wrote. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/staystrongbutter/1161066/ Inside....I feel cold. I feel weak. I see clouds. It's a rainy. It's nasty. It's a good day to stay in. Looking out the window. I see nothing, but water. Rain water. In my mind......Depression is taking over. I want it to be sunny. But, it's not. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/staystrongbutter/1140416/ There are  voices in my head. They are Ana (Anorexia) and Mia (Bullimia).  Ana's telling me to be skinny. Mia tells me otherwise. Who to believe? Who to not? "Get skinny. People will like you." Ana says. "What happens if people say that I'm too skinny? That I look sick?" I say to her... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/staystrongbutter/1140403/ "She covered her face with make up. No one knows who she really is. All she wants is for people to like her. All is wants is beauty......."   http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/staystrongbutter/1138195/ March 1st is Self harm awareness day. This is the day that we wear orange. I do apologize if the picture is triggering. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/staystrongbutter/1133535/