A Beautiful Sin

Finally just let the words flow on my laptop for the first time in years. I hope you enjoy. Please leave feedback.

Dancing With the Devil.

I'm spiralingDown...Down...Down...Deep into my depression--It's where I belong!In a dark abyss Leading me down an unlit pathA path with the Devil waitingWith arms wide openBeckoning for a bargainMy soul for happiness Happiness... What would I ..

Methamphetamine

One deep breathAnd It engulfs meLike a chilling flameCrystalCrankGlassIceCall it what you wantI call itBlissGloryParadiseHappinessTwo deep breathsIt consumes meMy mind going blankCompletely buzzed... Methamphetamine

Such a beautiful mind

Such a beautiful land her mind could beFilled with vivid images of a child’s dreamFilled with the thoughts of a young girl’s loveFilled with the thoughts of a happy future But take a step into her depthsPast the facade the world seesInto the dark place that she calls h..

R.I.P. Sara Hendrickson.

A still blooming flowerTaken at an early hourShe will be missed in our livesEven when gone, the happiness in her thrivesWe hold her close to our heartNever will we let her partOur memories of her are foreverEven through the stormy weatherNot Many got the chance to meet youBut those..

Free From This Fear.

A short poem/song I wrote about me Father..I miss you..

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Don't worry, Daddy.

Please tell me what you think...

For my brothers, River and Ryan.

I love you guys.

My special someone

My special someoneLoving him isn't hard to doI just never know what to say Does he even know whoWho is crushing on him this oh so lonely dayWho is searching but never finding himWho is longing for his kissWho is living in a world so grimDoes he even know he's the one I missI wish he knewI wish ..

Poem eighteen.

You are you, I am meWe are who we want to beAnd as a whole we are oneAll on a planet under the sun

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An old poem about an ex

A night of fun

He's my pet, now call me MasterI crack my whip and tell him fasterOur fingers rushOur lips brushEach touch creating frictionYou are mine now I whisper with convictionI throw him down and get on topOur movements never stopHe hits the right spot as our thoughts spunI think we just might...Come with me..

Poem seventeen.

My thoughts are spinning like a fanThere were so many times where I should have ranBut now I'm stuckAnd completely out of luck

Breaking up with you.

Weird how this one came out of nowhere..

My dearest Jarin.

I love you, baby.

Chapter one.

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Rehab.

What it's like to be in rehab...

Poem sixteen.

Happy Birthday to herHappy Birthday to herHappy Birthday poor childWon't someone save her

Poem fifteen.

Sex and white lies, Handcuffs and alibisMasturbating would be just fine,We’re just wasting our time with a pick up line

For someone I miss..

Yeah...

Poem fourteen.

I’m tired of putting up with this s**t.Why can’t I just be alone?I refuse to take another hit.You know what? I’m never coming!

Poem thirteen.

I’m trapped inside this room tonightWishing I could end their fightI want to be hidden, somewhere out of sightI don’t want to do this; I know things won’t be alright

Poem twelve.

Stooped down low on the closet floorI cover my ears to block out the soundAll I hear is her, knocking down the doorIn she bursts with a deafening pound“You stupid b***h, I know you’re in here!”I hear her coming closer to meMy body trembles in fearShe punches me in the..

Poem eleven.

You made meYou broke meYou loved meI still do.

Poem ten.

"What if I fail?Will I prevail?"Stop, breathe, and take a chance.Jump this hurdle and advance."Will I make it, will I fall?"I know I can do this, just give it your all.I jump, trip, and fall.It's okay, try again and retry this wall.

Poem nine.

You broke the promise you swore to keep.Now I’m stuck in this bed as I cry myself to sleep.I begin to drift off as my tears begin to slow.I never thought my life would ever sink so low…

Poem eight.

As I sit and wait,I can't help but to hesitate.I want to be redeemed.If only my soul could be freed.

Poem seven.

It felt like a wonderlandAs we stood hand in hand,She whispers "Do you love me?"He kisses her nose, "Forever and always."

Poem six.

It felt like a wonderlandAs we stood hand in hand,She whispers "Do you love me?"He kisses her nose, "Forever and always."

Poem five.

My vision is blurred,My voice is unheard.I let out a sighAs I lie here and die.

Poem four.

As I make that final slit,I do not regret it.My crimson blood is making a mess,And I smile to myself as my vision is shrouded with darkness.

Poem three.

As she snuggles into my shoulder,I whisper these words as I hold her,'Forget about the past,And may our love last.'

Poem two.

I wish I was with the one I love.Our relationship is as free as a dove.I would like to see his gorgeous smile.If only he could stay for a while.

Poem one.

If you truly love me,And I did not see,Would you say 'I love you'?I'd say it, but only if you do too.

Bring me out the sun.

I wrote a song...

The emancipation of Mimi.

Enjoy I guess..

Should I leave the Cafe?

Should I go, should I stayI’ll be sad either wayYou guys yell, you guys screamYou make it hard for this child to dreamYou sit here and poke funYou know what, f**k it, I’m doneI can’t do this no moreI’m so pissedI can’t f*****g take itThat’s it, I..

Facts about Mimi.

Some random s**t about me...

Rehab Clinc Room 208.

My thoughts as I waste away in my rehab clinic: room 208...

Love+BreakUp=Heartache

I love youI really doAnd I wish that you could seeJust how much you mean to meYou know that I want youI don't know how many times I have to tell you I doYou're a piece of crap you say, but you're not to meBecause your perfect qualities are all I seeI don't know why I t..

Sixty things to know about guys.

Worked a long time on this one. Enjoy.

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-steps closer, pushing you against the wall, staring deep into your eyes,and slides my hands up your neck, entangling my fingers with your hair asI kiss you deeply with all the love, passion, and desire I feel for you, gentlynipping at your lip while I press our hips together as I deepen the long ki..

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My heart is buried deep within the sorrow that consumes my soul, and yet no man is brave enough to venture in and retrieve it from the dark hole. I feel lost with nowhere to go, nowhere to hide. Maybe I should have just done it and died. I would be gone; I would be happy. Maybe then my life wouldn't..

Battle with anorexia and thyself.

Another poem about anorexia.

The thing in the mirror.

What is that thing in the mirror?That couldn't possibly be me standing there.She's fat, she's ugly; she's not right.Look at the way she twitches in the light.She's a monster; she must go.I bend over the toilet and force the bile to flow.I gag and I heave.I collapse and I cry.I just w..

The demons lurking within.

I'm writing this poemby the light on my phoneI hope this lightwill last the night'cause the dark scares methat's where they roam freethey roam freedeep down inside mein the shadows they dwellthese demons from Hellthey screech and scream their pleaeach causing such miserythey seize my brainthey mak..

Goodbye world.

You said you wouldn'tYou promised you'd stayLive without you? I know I couldn'tI don't want to listen to what you have to sayWhy did you leaveI want you back for goodIt's getting harder to breatheThis didn't end the way it shouldMy heart hurts from the pain you causeI want to be ha..

One shot.

I'm tired of hearing b*****s gloat,I'm putting a gun down my throat.F**k my life; it's already beginning to fall.It'll only take one bullet to end it all.It's my own life I'm willing to take,But why is my hand starting to shake?Just pull the trigger, it's not that hard!You'll be one mo..

River.

River, tu eres mi mejor amigo,You are aslo my brother.Kokoro kara anata o aishite imasu.With you around there ain't no reason to cry,Seules des raisons de sourire.I'm so glad that I have you by my side.Ich hoffe, Sie sind fur die Ewigkeit bleiben. ---- English Vers..

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