http://slow.writerscafe.org/hscudder The original writings of author Gazelle en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776321605 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Chapter ends: "And then he lied." http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/612947/ I even googled this. Apparently there isn't too much out there. Somehow, I can't quite believe that. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/604108/ In the bath again tonight...one of my favorite places to be. Oh yeah, this is not leading where you think it's leading, k? Lol, that said...I like to sink my head under the water and have all the sounds muffled. It helps me focus and calm my thoughts. I was wishing tonight that I could have a wa.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/475288/ It was a good day today. Despite what everyone expects this day to be for me and my son, it was a good day. We woke up, played a video game, went outside and worked in the yard for awhile, went to Chico and overloaded the car with bamboo flooring (future project), had the girls next door over, ate o.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/475286/ To my son,On this day I want you to know how much you meant to your daddy and I want you to know how special of a man he was. I want you to know that from the moment he found out we were having you he loved you more than anything in the world and the first time he laid eyes on you his love was o.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/475285/ i wonder if following my gut feeling is more about following whatever emotional high i'm on at the time. sometimes i feel like my "gut feelings" are more about my insecurities bubbling to the surface than any rational thought process. but then again maybe those feelings are valid and need .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/475284/ interesting and encouraging side note here. darcy told me about a conversation she had with her daughter. apparently my son and her had been discussing the fact that his daddy had died. what could have been a scary conversation between two children turned out to be very matter of fact. it was too ba.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/475282/ i wonder if i sat down with one of those profilers, or the people who draw the portraits of people based on descriptions of witnesses (what r they called?), i wonder if i gave them all the little details of what i loved in life, i wonder if they could draw me a picture of where i'm supposed to be? .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/475281/ i kinda think that instead of waiting 4 someone 2 draw me a picture i should just go ahead and make it happen. after all, isn't the building part most of the fun? isn't it better when you've taken all the pieces urself and put them together, painstakingly piece by piece?isn't that where the sati.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/475280/ its funny how we hang onto things. physical, mental, emotional...things.how often do you here someone say,"well at least i have ____ to hold onto." why do we hold on to these things in the first place? wonder what it would be like to just...let go. let life happen and not hang on white.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/475279/ moments? feelings? memories? events? people? places? rolling over in bed and bumping into your best friend? a glass of wine on a rooftop? jumping into a freezing cold mountain lake? watching your baby open his eyes and look directly into yours for the first time and recognize you? laying in the .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472924/ i think sometimes, as much as they try not to, people go into their relationships expecting others to disappoint them. any type of relationship. friend, acquaintances, lovers. i wonder why? it's setting yourself up to fail and its also giving yourself an easy escape route. at least that's what i'm t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472923/ to hold close with affection. hmm...so we are supposed to embrace life, hold it close, with something resembling affection...sounds good. just thinking about the whole concept of embracing something or more importantly someone. it's usually an act that gives us joy, and peace,and warm fuzzy feelings.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472919/ where's a rooftop when u need one? where's the cool night, light breeze, and millions of stars? where's the glass of wine on the chimney acting as an end table? where's the crickets? and where the heck are the annoyingly loud bullfrogs? where's the spot where i can lay back and breathe for a few min.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472918/ so its almost 2am in FL and i'm awake. i was hoping i was over the whole sleepless thing but its not even close. and as i'm sitting here on the balcony i'm so happy i'm not over it. because the meteor shower is still pretty cool tonight. out here for a few minutes and already seen four beautiful sho.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472916/ i miss jesse. there are times, like this last week, when i miss him acutely. "acutely: characterized by sharpness or severity; felt, perceived, or experienced intensely." i sit there and wish he was there with me. because then things would be different. i wouldn't be sitting at a comp.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472915/ I'm having one of those so tired it almost hurts days. My eyelids are barely hanging in there and I don't think I've slouched this low in my chair since 6th grade. I have my music blasting but it's only adding to my headache.Whaaaaaaaaaah!!! :pLol, but I'm loving life right now. I'm happy, I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472914/ two sickos laying in bed watching the original Transformers movie. footie pajamas on, theraflu taken, and i'm feeling sick physically but amazingly enough not so sick emotionally today. yesterday was tough for various reasons and probably exacerbated by the fact i had a fever and the beginnings of t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472913/ best read while listening to Flight of the Bumblebee. it makes more sense read at high speeds :) http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472911/ Interesting question. Makes you think about yourself in a whole new light really. What is it that makes you worthwhile?First response: Plenty of things! Duh! First response has absolutely no thought behind it so discard and start over.I started thinking about this a lot yesterday after my fi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472861/ thinking about the combination of things that go into making it all worth it. thinking about all the people, the places, and the things that have crossed my space and thinking about all of the people, places, things still coming. interesting to think about it. expecting hindsight to kick in on past .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472859/ The pile of castaways is growing and as it grows....so does my peace of mind! A combination of events, people, and sheepdogs have reminded me of how far I have strayed from my original goals and my original direction. It was very clear to me a year ago that I was finding new direction and I eagerly .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472854/ Cooking lasagna. Extra cheese. Mmmmm.....Having a glass of wine while I finish everything.Hmm...I'm curious about a few things in life right now. I'm curious about why people are so closed. And I'm including myself in this generalization. I'm curious why we feel the need to show a "side.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472850/ Once again, an amazing conversation with a six year old who has my heart:Son: What's a white blood cell?Mommy (thought): Oh crap! I thought this was in third grade at least. Lets see...Mommy: Weeeelllll...white blood cells help keep us healthy.Son: How do they do that?Mommy (though.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472436/ I watched "Running the Sahara" the other night. It was a movie my brother had recommended on facebook and I knew it was right up his alley. Three men running across the Sahara desert. An insane mission and all I could think of was "Why?" Throughout the movie it became clear t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472431/ moving forward http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472428/ Figuring out what 's up ahead http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472421/ Thoughts going through my head at the time http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472419/ Okay, so I've had one glass (lg.) of cab., spent the last three hours going through boxes of stuff I don't use, and most likely will never use. Of course once it's gone I'll suddenly have the need to use the stuff I just gave away. It always works that way, or so the pack rat in me would say.Des.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/hscudder/472409/