http://slow.writerscafe.org/estrella The original writings of author Estrella en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1775972831 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Today I feel inspired I haven't written for quite some time. Not so sure how I feel about this http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/estrella/523700/ The last thing I want is your sympathyI see it when you look at meYour plastic smileFake concernsRehearsed, and all for youDoes it make you feel betterWhen you pretend to careAm I a charity case?I wish you could see (as I show it quite openly)Malevolence, just for youThis mirage you've painted for y.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/estrella/504606/ Fear consumes meFor I have never taken the timeTo fully realizeHow close I am to the the endThink of all I loveOutweighed by all I hate There realy isn't much left To contemplateI don't seek reliefI know that won't be foundSix feet underneath the groundAll I'm looking for is pe.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/estrella/481569/ Choke on pills to keep this dumbed downLast thing I need is you aroundMy vision blurs, as do my thoughtsAlong with feelings I had foughtEverything seems to slowNumbness takes hold and wont let goRoom starts spinning I close my eyesHow long before this all subsides?Sinking down d.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/estrella/481203/ Why are you still here?You have no one, feel nothing but the burning pain of loved ones looking at you with disgust, confusion, loss, hate, causing you to retreat even deeper into the fucked up web of lies you've become. How can anyone be sorry when the only one that ever really knew you was .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/estrella/480427/ You suck the life out of meBathe me in a degree of exhaution thatI didnt know could be in existanceYou fill me with apathyHave me reaching for feelings thatHave hidden with persistanceYou decayed me completelyHave my insides turned to something thatI'm too weak to fixYou Isol.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/estrella/479508/ I've become dependant on youEvery emotion you feel runs through me deeperIf you could only see what this does to meMaybe you'd stopBut you won't seeYou're blind to how I feel about youHow could anyone feel that for you?I canI doAnd its tearing at every aspect of my beingIm evapor.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/estrella/479089/ Black as the night can getEverything looks perfect nowThe only way I start to forgetThe only place I find a way outThe stars look down upon meThe only light I needReminding me there is still beautyIn this mess we've createdIts easier to breathe when the lighs dimEasier to see.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/estrella/479001/ So alone that it's no longer a feelingIt's a presenceFollowing you everywhereEyes glazed over with apathyTape on a plastic smileYou've got everyone fooledYour only friend is what's insideHe's overstayed his welcomeEchos those thoughts over and overYou're disconnection goes un.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/estrella/478238/ Leave me aloneI'm all you have, you knowGet out of my headYou'd preffer eternal silence instead?You don't even existThe times you've obeyed, shall I list?I wont do this anymoreIs that our blood on the floor?No, you're gone, that's just mineSo much for leaving me behind...As I sai.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/estrella/478168/ Perhaps the best way to completely disgust yourself with the society we live in, is to just sit there and watch. Be silent. Just listen. I do this quite often. I'm not shy really, just introverted. Its arose an extreme hate within me for people in general. When you're quiet you hear what it i.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/estrella/477935/ Dysthymia, they told me, is a choronic mood disorder that falls within the depression spectrum. It is when the person diagnosed (me, surprise) esperiences a low or depressive mood for the majourity of days for at least two years. Symptoms are hopelessness, pessimism, poor self image, decrease in app.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/estrella/477878/ Nothing lasts anymoreThere's always things to severMy heart's bleeding on the floorSpells out "Forever""Forever" seems much less appealingWritten in my bloodFrom within escapes all feeling With apathy I floodFlooded with lack of emotionLove for you subsides.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/estrella/477321/ Feel it scraping at the back of my mindHear its screams from deep insideCan you feel it?Can you hear it?I’m begging you, just look at meTell me it’s not happeningCreeping up inside my wallsRipping, tearing, untill they fallI can feel it (it wont leave)I can hear it (unt.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/estrella/477113/ How can this be real When I can barely feel The love you claim to have for me The hate instead you show to me You know that I love you and how much I care Yet constantly question if I want you there Drowning in apathy we both seem to leak The deeper we go the less we will speak I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/estrella/477112/ I dont know what's inside Unaware of all that's outside All that's left is the other side Is it my time? Fearful of the inside Detached from the outside All that's clear is the other side Stop me this time Screaming on the inside Forever silenced outside Hiding from the other.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/estrella/477111/