http://slow.writerscafe.org/HaydenS The original writings of author HaydenS en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776084883 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 I feel as though my expectations were raised to such an extent that it induced possessive traits in me without me suspecting it, maybe it is natural, but logically to me it was unseen.  In my expectations I have found myself disappointed, though I'm not sure if it naturally logical or possessiv.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/HaydenS/1660634/ Dating is not what I used to think it was.  In dating this beautiful girl, I have realised I did not know what it was to feel true compassion and to give fortune.  I have established a heartfelt connection and offer myself wholly to her and I see her potential and enjoy her wholly, but I s.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/HaydenS/1596944/ In revealing myself slightly to those remaining in Husk 2, I've made the unfortunate mistake of arming those I've armed.  I've established a trying moment for the key individuals and am pulling the bow straps into place.  It is thrilling watching them realise their circumstances, as Freud .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/HaydenS/1565859/ Something I crave, hunt for and so easily obtain is also something I can not afford to give.  Slowly I'm realising the power of the struggle I've embraced willingly, watching what has been forged logically reveal itself as inapposite.  I am beginning to describe the development of this sec.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/HaydenS/1548509/ The serenity felt in the ignorance of stout ideology, is shy of the tranquility of dialectics,Under conformity and by chance amidst uncertainty, lie prosthetics and a prominent worry,For lack of redundant effort and embroiled angst, an extraordinarily dominant is realised,Through endeavored ago.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/HaydenS/1501227/ The lonely mind, a welcomed respite, harbours only what I could imagine to be more darkness. 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