http://slow.writerscafe.org/crazy-gymnast11 The original writings of author sam en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776042772 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 so much has changedbut i seem to remain the samemy misery will never fademy pain will never subsidehe thinks im better but i still think about it all the timewhenever the smallest thing goes wrongmy depression thrivesit takes everything in me to not reach for the blade  http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/crazy-gymnast11/1068821/ i dont want to be anythingim a failurea dissapoinmentwothlessnot worth itnot worth your timenot worth anythingburied in the shadows of foreverwaiting for never to cometears silently roll down my cheeksas the truth reveals itselfi cry soundlesslytrying not to alert my parents.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/crazy-gymnast11/512172/ endless clouds of blackquickly conceal my visionif i do this, theres no turning backto ease the pain with one incisioneverytimes i close my eyesi see the blood pooras the depression continues to risei realize i want this so much morefor pain and misery to subsidefor everything to turn numbfor my lon.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/crazy-gymnast11/512170/ his lips are warmas they go over my bodycompared to the cold airof a winters nightas hormones grow greaterthe want and lust increasesi dont want it to stopi dont want it to endhis hand slides over my backwhile the other holds my head in placepain and stress are replacedwith lust and desiresuch a fee.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/crazy-gymnast11/512169/ he silently cries in the front seatbecause moneys so tightshe silently cries in tha backbecause she doesnt want to fightthe tention still lingers int the airas she thinks of ways to helpthe wind blows back her hairthis time it wasnt that badmusics blaring from both set of headphonesas a result .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/crazy-gymnast11/512167/ the voices are a low rumbleof confusion that wont leave my headas i continue to stumblethough life, i just want to be deadmy skull criesin pain"ive caved, ive caved"its all i can do to convince people im sainill have to liei close my eyesas my insides scream"it was only a few m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/crazy-gymnast11/512166/ she hides behind a mask of shameno one knows how she really feelsthey wouldnt understandshe doesnt fit in anywhereshe never hasshe lives in a deep dark world full of pain misery and discomfortno one sees who she really isbut deep down shes a troubled soul http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/crazy-gymnast11/512164/