http://slow.writerscafe.org/sspankyy The original writings of author Sspankyy en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776004814 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 How much can i hate my life before i finally end it? http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/1688323/ the pain has come backthe pain is....my heart has shatteredmy mind is fracturingi'm trying to keep it togetherunsuccessfullythere is no explaining itand no way to make it rhymeno wa.....compelte thoughts are evading mebut i'll try to let it outthat's supposed to help, right?two and a half years agot.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/998594/ alone is not so badi'm in good companyfor the only one aroundis the one i call 'me'i'm a good guyor so i've been toldand these cycles in my lifeare getting rather oldit is now time to break them time to move ona new day is cominganother beautiful spring dawnagain i move forwardonto learning who.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/709001/ this is where it is nowi'm not sure where it has beeni am now truly aloneand it seems i'll never wini know it is my faulti know i am to blamebut the future laid out before menow seems rather lamei am not sure what to do nowor even where to gonot even sure where to stopi guess i'll go with the flowse.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/708308/ the final timethe final tryi am done nowi now wanna diei will push oni will keep goingmy life is pushing forwardi see no signs of slowingthings are just happeningbut now i see no reasoni know what i want to dobut You would consider it treasonso i move onpushing the pain indown into the darkn.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/706509/ Sleepi might get another hour or sobut nowhere near what i needfor my heart is full againin it has been placed a seedYou planted the seed long agoand now the seed has begun to growgrowing into this thing called Loveand now i'm surrounded by this glowso, there You are sleepingjust a few feet awaythe .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/699910/ Just me trying to put a bookmark in how i feel at the moment... it's really not worth your time... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/669015/ I'm going to make a betand I'm going to be rightfor, I am always right,that is just how I am.I wish I was wrong sometimesI wish things could go my waybut life isn't like that at least now I am sure of some things....I'll bet you unblocked me, Just so you could seeIf I wrote another poem ab.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/666894/ i can feel itas my soul drains awaylike dirty dishwaterit no longer has a purposethe void is wideningwhat do i do nextthis was always a possibilityso i guess its my faulti can feel myself emptyingof happiness and joyagain i am alonethe fight has left memotivation is gonealone i move forwardto live a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/655917/ Here I go againdown this familiar roadthis time is differentit has to be differentthere is simply no choiceeveything i have is in thisi am holding nothing backif i fail this time,i will lose everythingbut when i succeed,i will gain more than i deservei have placed my entire heart on the tableand mad.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/648444/ you said loveyou said trustyou said foreveryou heard a rumoryou now say never http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/546500/ ~ http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/531547/ I knew from the beginningthat it would be way too highI wanted to delude myselfbut I knew that it was just a lieI'm glad you are happyyou still mean so much to meand if this is what you wantthen it's the way it will bethe way you looked into my eyesthe taste of your sweet kissthese are a couple thin.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/530518/ you know who you areyou know who you must bepart of me just wishesthat it could have been with meI knew that it was impossibleI know you cannot be untrueI am sorry I caused you painI know that you must think of youyou helped take away my painyou showed me I could be okayyou showed me that I can be h.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/528204/ It seems I need a reasonI guess I'll find one nowsome reason to keep goingwithout one I don't know howI'm going to be honestI will never be untruethe reason I am clinging tois the chance to be with youI know it is unlikelyI know you have moved onbut without that to hang on toI wouldn't live to see t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/525676/ I opened up the boxand let my feelings outit was the right choicefor this I have no doubtwhen I let them outI let them out for youI made sure to let them growwhich for me is something newyou made them grow strongyou filled me full of blissit totally surprised methat love could be like thisthen today.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/525127/ I guess it's setting in nowmy heart is torn in two it seems that you love himand I can't stop loving youthe pain is gaining strengthmy heart has been destroyedall because I love youmy soul is becoming a voidI know you made you choiceas I watched my hopes go dimit just hurts to see youknowing yo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/525103/ my story is not specialI am not uniqueI am just a manwho feels very weakthe pain is just way too muchfor me to ever dealbut without experienceing it fullyI know I'll never healso here I am waitingto figure out what to dobecause the above statementseems like a catch-twentytwoit is pretty obviousI hav.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/524134/ how am I to do itwhen I am not completewhen the better half of my soulmay find me obsoleteI cant even move muchas I watch my strength depleteI guess I may have to learnto live a life incompleteI have no real desiresexcept to stop the tearsand to be without youis by far my biggest fearbut if I have t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/sspankyy/522544/