http://slow.writerscafe.org/PattieCakes The original writings of author Lovely Pattie en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776049554 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 I get pulled in by the need, not the want.  Its the need.  The need to feel what it does to me and how I react to it.  The words just pour out of me like an over filled cup of water spilling drops of water all over paper.   I'm in trouble when I give into it.  I am.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/PattieCakes/1420373/ Sometimes it hits me hard and fast The sadness wakes within me It wishes to pull me in It knows its easy for me to give in Im not an easy person when i am in my feelings Ive got to learn to be okay to be alone I need to like it Its so hard Why is it so hard&nb.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/PattieCakes/1419262/ When your not around, sleep isnt easy to come by My thoughts eat at my time When you touch me, then sleep makes its face known The day you landed in my life was the day that i was able to keep my head on a pillow longer than a few hours Sleep likes the company it keeps so if i do.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/PattieCakes/1401325/ I forget that when you like someone, love likes to toy with your emotions Your everywhere inside your mind One thought and it opens the door for pain because loving someone is grand It captures you without you even noticing it Its a sneaky bug http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/PattieCakes/1401318/ I have experienced many emotions today. You would figure I would be exhausted from it. Feelings are such a holder of my heart. They hold and squeeze my heart to feel them. They yank out the big chunk of me that was tormented and touched. They never leave me be. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/PattieCakes/1398159/ Insomnia makes its face known. It keeps me up at night. It whispers thoughts which torment me. Sedation screams out so sweetly. I begin to yell at myself internally. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/PattieCakes/1398158/ To be me is a hard thing. Circumstances circle around me like a buzzard to meat. To be normal is not easy. To be is hard and trying. Oh how I wish time wasn't fast but not so obvious. Soothe me with your talk and help me with my mental. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/PattieCakes/1398157/ There is beauty in the disrupted and dysfunctionalEspecially if you have been there yourselfSomething about how their emotions become so tangled with their mindsThere is such admiration in the struggle they endure to get to a point of calmness but then even at times it starts up again, the.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/PattieCakes/1349264/ You try so hard to live life morally You bang down the walls that hold you in, away from the wrong Then you decide to climb the wall and break free Your emotions begin to release  There is no longer nothing holding you back Once you have done the wrong, t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/PattieCakes/1345465/ Sleeping next to you at night makes it easy to forgive you  I can hold you We dont need to talk The bed is where we connect with touch Our legs touch and we position just right the comfort of laying next to one another Its when i can give in, when my.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/PattieCakes/1341257/ I had to change my life and no longer do I sedate http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/PattieCakes/1340072/ I have been away these past few days because I have been suffering from some severe anxiety.  Tried Lexipro and Prozac and neither helped. Now only taking some Lorazepam to help me relax till my doctor actually gets back to me. Makes me feel like my doctor thinks I am just wanting some drugs an.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/PattieCakes/1309374/ I remember the first time i felt sexI was hypnotized and sucked into the touchAnything i would doMy soul was for sale I wanted him to stay and be mineI know he knew thisHe destroyed meHe made me learn the wrongHe made me learn how to see the liesI was devastated from loving someone that could take m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/PattieCakes/1307020/ Yes I always tell you, I do remember when I wanted you and you didn't want meYes I again answer, when he says that now the tables are turned30 something years we have been down this road and still know each other, he saysNo, 30 years ago I was 8. 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