http://slow.writerscafe.org/vendezzz The original writings of author D.A.Ravenda en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1775974882 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Am I on your mindyou are always on minemy every thoughtback and forthyou are thereI try to convince myself I dont want you anymorebut jesus christI love you so muchso very muchInside anotherI close my eyesI see your faceI want you thereI feel no pleasureAm I on your mindlike you're on minedo yo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346360/ I want to tell herbut it scares meI dont want her to leavebut she should knowshe knowsI dont hide it wellI just want to say itI wanna tell her everyone I turned awayand everyone I would turn awaya minute ago I thought shed leave mebut even when I thought thatI knew I loved herwhat does it meanw.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346359/ What did I doI am just paranoidthis has happened beforeis it happening againwhy oh whyplease tell me Im wrongtell me when you saidyou said I wouldn't lose you that easythis is to easyI cantcant be without youbut likely Ill have to what the f**k are you doingbesides making me crazyor maybe I am .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346357/ I one time built a puzzleand found the oddest partCrooked and diagonaland shaped just like a heartWas scratched and burntand torn and wornBut it filled its spotwith no concern That piece had no puzzlethat I had seen beforeAnd my puzzle had one openingwith that piece at it’s core http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346355/ I could stare at her for hoursand never understandUnderstand what I was feelingbecause I am a manA man who loves a womandespite the pain he’s feltA man who loves his womanbecause there is no one elseTo understand love is to understand the worldWhy we need to dieand what is our purpose to .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346354/ Why am I still hereglutton for abusefor neglectstaying with someonewho doesnt love mewho doesnt even know why they are hereIs it that she lacks courage I see nothing elseI love her so muchbut get nothing in returnthats a liebut I find the truth so hard to findOne minute I feel that I am al.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346353/ I came this farI might as well finish itIt wouldn’t feel rightTo notMaybe one moreI hopeIf not then twoBut thats itThen maybe again But harderMore difficultMore rewardWhat to make of itNo back doorBut thats fineIm happyShe’s mine http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346348/ I cant even put words to anything right nowI just feel somethingIts familiar But its betterIts like it was that one timeBut its betterThe feeling’s the same but the sourceIs betterBeautifulPersonalAmazingIt doesnt compareI love itI hope it growsBecauseIt’s better http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346347/ Do you even carewhen you say you willwhen I know you wontDo you even carethat I cant even look forward to seeing you againDo you even carethat I am so afraidthat last was the last timeDo you even careI have to make other plansto avoid feeling a foolDo you even know that I cant rely on yout.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346346/ Sitting in the yardsmoking onethe sounds of the nightso soothingthe skya perfect blackexcept for the lunar beauty It seems to last foreverthe smoke, the lightlike one they witherso slow, so beautifulIt makes you thinkLights flicker and so does my mindI wonderI wonder where they could go so late.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346341/ I do not understand a great many things.  One of them being the opposite.  Am I stupid or is something wrong.  Why let on a truth that is false.  Is it false? It has to be, but every time? It must just be me. doubtful though.  Im sure things will fall into place one day. I j.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346339/ Big green hillswhats on themwhere did i gowhat am I any waydo i matterI think notI think that we are nothingbut I can not believe thatIs it becausebecause I feel that it cant all be for nothingbut it isso what can we do to make it worth what are we worthI want to leavetravel to a distant worldr.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346338/ I can already feel my bones breakingunder the weight of my own resideCrackle crackle crackleEvery time I stepI know it grows closerMy demise my endI know how it will come But still I do not fear itI still refuse to changePerhaps I do not believe it http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346334/ I broke into this world one dayAnd never knew I dont belongCursed to live a half lifeCursed to sing this panting songHow could I knowWhy did I deserveLinked to the artificial Destined to never be real http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346333/ I dont have a solutionImpossible one is to findImpossible as I know nothingNothing reallyWhat can I prove With only these senses They can lieJust as their user Never can achieveThe creation of blissful memoriesHumble humble man I amForced into the frying panForced into asking Bec.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346332/ She follows him aroundfucking all his friendsmaking sure he knowsmaking sure he caresHe just longs to go homebut home if returned to would not be the sameso lost forever he will remainThe Third fifth was far behindfragmented stained glassscattered throughout pieced back in the reflection http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346328/ I stare at a blank pagemy mind is emptyand the specter looms overgreen spirit desperately attempting to detach itselfWhat am I trying to sayif anything im notconfusing yeswas it meant to beThe page now has contentbut meaning is lackinga thick fog covers illuminates the atmosphereunderneath is nothin.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346327/ I open up the boxout the crystals flowI know the smellI taste itTexture so amazingcuts right through glasscuts into my bodywets my very jawFrozen  let the flame thaw youlet the twig come from a stickthe stick be from a tree http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346326/ I dont know what to doI cant stop thinkingThat has always been my problemI can never stop thinkingI appall thoughtI always haveSpent alot of time trying to eliminate itIt always returns I can keep it down temporarily  But I can not temper itIt lingers in my headI can not stand it I si.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346325/ I remember the first time I heard her voice Down by the lake or was it a river  It was by water that much I know and When I first heard her I was scared  I never heard her voice before and I wasn’t quite sure that she was right  I would say about the third ti.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346324/ The most depressing news is notwhat you think it would benot for menot for meIts not about a girl or a gradeor that you dont talk to meit is meit is meThe way I was born so totally unfairxxyzxxyz http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346322/ So here we sit 5:30so many mysteries so many things to get doneso scared so confusedso hurtso resentfulso pridefulso regretfulso tiredbut so so So here we sit at 5:31Wonderingwhat is on her her mindwhat is even on your ownwhat can you overcome what choice do you havewhat can you .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/vendezzz/1346319/