http://slow.writerscafe.org/chaos101 The original writings of author Jessica Lynn Polley en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776000676 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Dreams of you betrayals...they come to me in spades.It is always a sickly reminder,but I still miss you when I wake.I do not know how you ever got me,quite so twisted inside. Without you here I forgot living,could feel quite so alive.Now even when I hate you...I love the passion that it feeds!I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1871565/ My mind it spilling, it is almost thrilling...to believe that I am awake.If it is all a guise, I am compromised,and stuck in between the real and fake. My hands are sifting, while time is shifting.Suddenly I am blinded by your noise.If God is seeing, here is to believing...that I could ever be .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1870807/ I am so sorry that I forgot you,I don't know how it all came to this.The world just got so sharp,so I had to blur it with a fix.The voices in my head...they slowly started to die,I thought it would make me better...if they weren't there inside.For some time now I have felt empty,but it never really .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1870793/ Stop, surrender. No just fight.My heart is bleeding, not as much as my knife.The voices are screaming...each a different complaint.Fight for what is better. No settle in your place.You could move mountains, but you can not climb a hill.God he will save you, but the devil wants you still.It is just s.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1870783/ Breathe in, breathe out...count 1,2,3,4, and 5...do not forget you are broken,but remember...you are ALIVE.If you have to run!If you can be brave,when you deny your needs...to find what you crave.Seek shelter, safe harbor...hide from the eyes...when the devil is looking,remember your PRIDE.Let your .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1465374/ I would give up almost anything just to talk to the moon,about the mothers she has seen crying and the lovers she has seen swoon. I would give up almost anything just to speak with a star,about the void they call home, and how they have gotten where they are.I would give up absolutely everything for.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1465343/ I can't be a wreck so I am just reckless,but I thought I paid my dues to time...yet I still stand here facing backwardconsulting with a past that is not mine. You see I do not know her anymore,that girl that I used to be...the one still facing forward,the girl staring straight back at me. There is s.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1465319/ I have never been one to count my blessings,but I have always counted flaws...not sure if you can handle what I am confessing,sure that I never asked you to fall.You see me chances are being broken...and I just forgot how to breathethrough out that one finger salute that the world pointed right.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1436007/ Is it right to see the colors that I keep from you?They are bright and they are beautiful but they don't shine the way you do.They do not kiss like the sun, or fall like the rain,you know the silly wind still tries to whisper your sweet name. In a world of blacks and whites, in a world with no .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1408754/ My face burns, my hands tremble, and my heart races...To hell with all these burnt smiles and all these twisted faces.I am so sick, can't you see I am so f*****g sick...my stay in reality is over and you were a part of it.Days of love are long gone. I am empty in side,because when the fire swallowed.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1408751/  I am only two hours in,already buried in pity I am drawn to your sin.Painted red with lies that seep into my bones,Another two hours and I'll be all alone. It's not hard for me to forget who I am...one more conflicting thought and I wont know where I stand. All I know is I would blee.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1408747/ It can not be real,but it will not be fake...spun with lies,and riddled with mistakes.How could this happen?How could it be?How could you loose what meant everything to me?The world has stopped spinning,my heart sits still,my body is crumbling,and it yearns for you still. I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1401330/ Crack and crumble and fall for me,let love portray what we could never be.If I let your light take my dark,will you be there for me when I fall apart? You see my dark helps to hide my cracks,and the parts of me that I will never get back...From all the times I have fallen before,.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1401289/ I brought you here to show you this,and now you have gone. I prayed to God I would make the list,but I have been diluted for so long.My hands wield so much power,but my words lack validation.To many tricks for such an old dog...to much hype not enough sensation. I have been bui.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1401262/ Blood is boiling, pulse is racing,hands are trembling, and heart is breaking. Look at her, how can she even exist...in the lie that cant be and the truth that just is. She is barely breathing and the ghosts have all gone...you see while death waits for no one life must move on. She is st.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1400369/ I am standing here at a crossroad with one bone in each hand,one telling me to be myself...the other one telling me who I am.I listen carefully to the words they say and notice that somehow I do not fit...between the cracks of complacency, and the urge to resist.My lines they blur and some.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1390025/ If I only could, I would say something profound...it would make your heart start to stutter, make you better with its sound.If I only could, I would tell you how I feel...but part of me believes I would say it wrong and it would not seem real.If I only could, I would give you a piece of me.... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1387416/ Racing toward red lights, because I am going no where fast.Fact is I feel it right now and I am still not scared to crash,because it would be beautiful in that timeless sort of way...boy saves the girl...tell her it is okay...As you pace the white washed halls, with angels singing in your ears...tha.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1385716/ White lines like white lies bring me somewhere new... where fears die but hope thrives and I can finally look at you... and your light does not darken mine because I am already blind... so that my cracks are only yours to see but they are still mine. Butterflies dance on my ski.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1384847/ She escapes into her mind for a while, a place she does not have to fight to understand.Nobody notices the long silences and averted eyes, as she sits and ponders all of her plans.Sometimes she manages to loose herself, but these are the best times of them all...When she does not have to fake the ne.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1383518/ Tripping down memory lane...my feet less sure than before.Your lies are still beautiful to me...I just don't want them anymore. My hands move on their own accordtouching everything they can...except my unfamiliar selfbut you know exactly who I am. My knees beg to touch the ground, so .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1381657/ I am going to be out of smoke by morning...out of hope by 2:00 am...and with just 3 dollars in my pocket, I can't afford my favorite friend. I always start out running,mama said slow down before your fall,but mama I just can't help it this world was not made for me at all. So bab.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1380050/ The screeching, screaming, and grinding of my universe comes to an abrupt halt inside your eyes...The hate, dread, and malice of your truth,are drowned out by all of my lies. For if I am you and you are me,than there is one thing for which I am sure...We are two whole halves of nothing,so .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1380023/ She walks into the shadow, a rope gripped tightly in her hand.With no way of escape, she finally has a plan.Hey eyes still pink and swollen, he left her there in pain.And when he comes home he will see, she is not going to play his games.She throws the rope up high, then ties in her little scheme.Sh.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1377348/ I stair at black skies,white stars,and blue eyes.I scream through thick cloudspelting rain andand rushing crowds.I love a little to much the things that break my heart and leave me undone.I try every night to push you awayand throw the fight.I wonder if we will fallfor the silly peopl.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1377346/ It is so hard sometimes to paint it on so thick... I try and try to make it real, but real never felt like this. Who am I in this world that I do not understand? Who am I to say these things...to question what I am? My mind is a hurricane and my thoughts are victims to the s.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1376896/ Sometimes it is hard to be this, sometimes its just hard to breathe... When I stop and take a second to see, how much you are breaking me. I do not think it should be this hard, but there is not much of which I am sure. One thing I know is that we are broken, and I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1376895/ It something that is building...climbing its way up. I can feel it in your looks, but the feelings were not enough. I stayed to see it... the monster they all said you were, because I just could not picture it, and I was ready to fight the world. Something even stranger.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1376892/ Someone saw the red red rain, and someone saw the soulless fall. Someone saw the earth break open... someone saw it all. Someone heard the angel cry, and someone felt them break. Someone held the angels eye, just like someone kissed the ang.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1376890/ I just need to feel it... maybe just one last time. I want it so bad, I want it to be mine. In my mind there is a constant need To get it before it's gone... just a little more pressure which is amply applied when i'm wrong. It's alrig.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1376883/ A viscous tide of a magical storm, crashes upon my shore... promising me an electric current that I have never felt before. With winds that destroy cities and thunder that redefines, I stand in the midst of chaos still strong with my head held high. .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1376881/ Create with me something tangible something we can hold not otherworldly but real some semblance of our home Something truly extraordinary that does not have to sit among the stars something that will love me back and would never tear me apart Its be.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1376880/ I am still wondering around, lost in the lunacy of my time. Left roaming this place...I only stopped once to pay for your crime. I saw no justice only your faults and it brought me to my knees... How could you leave me here with all the debt of your greed? I should stop aski.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1376879/ Please can we stop the sideshow...I need your attention right now.We have a rogue circus act,in which I am very proud.So focus your attention...now to center stage,ladies and gentlemen may I present to you...the Freak Show parade.So many, so many hearts are pounding...and I can hear every one.Will y.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1376875/ Don't you see my hands all over you?The picture painted and translucent hues.I am not sure if you are real anymore...But I am sure, so sure that I have been here before.My mind is racing but my heart beat slows...as I whisper a story only you know.I wish you here to read these lines,so I kept your h.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1376858/ I don't want to be your reason for resisting,or even where you draw the line...it is just that this whole time I have been existing,the world has been anything but kind.My dreams always have me searching,and I always come up short...not even for sure why I am still looking,or even what I am looking .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1376850/ It is a life unlike reality...hiding just this side of wrong,when I see it right in front of me...blink my eyes and then it is gone.When you know it can not be real.Somethings just do not exist...push against the stark contrast,and deny everything that it is...but that does not make it go away,it ju.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1376817/ If I could I would take it all back...rid myself of all of these scars,kill all of the regrets that I have,and mend my mangled heart.If I could I would forget you,erase all the memories that haunt me.I would do anything I could do,to finally be free.Still everyday I break a little,and I cant make ti.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1376808/ Someone sought the time maker asked for a little more That someone was shot down, broken went the score I watched from a tree branch before falling to my feet Let my smile split my face let my laugh cut the breeze Someone sought the time maker asked to start a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1376077/ Falling through hues of blue and black I am calling out to you My screams silenced by your words Do you see what you put me through? An ache that swells inside my chest threatening to swallow me whole   with the chitter chatter of the beasts begging me to.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1376005/ I do not know what I was expecting... I don't know why I was so surprised, I knew exactly what was coming... I could see it your eyes. I hope my heart was worth breaking I hope you got what you were looking for Because I got nothing from this unless you c.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1375997/ I am falling I am broken You say you love whats inside, But inside I am frozen... I don't know what it is. and I do not quite know how to say That all I really want is to push you away. I am not like other people I do not talk through my pain I write.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1375995/ Why do the words evade me when I have something to say? Why do they refuse to see me? Why do they run away? I do not want to fight in this battle anymore, I do not care who wins this war! I no longer see the point, I don't even know what i'm fighting for. But all of these th.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1375991/ With wings of silver and eyes of gold...she remembers a story never told.A time of darkness and tainted blood,the twisted images almost to much.The time since then almost 10,000 years Her heart alone still knows true fear.From beneath her feet the ground shakesthe things she hears she could not.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1375915/ He taps his cold and bony fingers on the table that is the same.Knowing tomorrow may not come, he takes pride in his little games.He knows a truth that scares him and this truth will not exit his lips.He ponders to himself, what if this is all pretend what If I don't exist.But with no reason to thin.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1375371/ I want to express to you the need that burns inside.The want to do something different, and the inability to hide.My minds is always racing, and my thoughts are split into two.A part of me wants to leave, and a part of me is glued.So many things tie me here, I wish I could throw them all away.Someti.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1375370/ I am in a better place than now, a more solid time than this.Somewhere that everything I can be...mixes with everything that is.With a softer cushion to land on,and somewhere safe to plant my feet.I thank my lucky stars Ive found it...what ever it may be. I solidify in my structerI am stro.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1375365/ The color is seeping through the cracksas grey and black course through my veins.Its just another broken holiday here,or at best it is just a game...As his voice echoes in hollowed earsher screams fall silently down.Your not in Gods house any morethey say as you watch your angel hit the ground.All I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1375362/ I am laying here in a dark place,and I can see the pain in the walls.For I am sure this is where,the world watches its weakest fall.Why am I at this place,and when did I loose control?At what point was it decided,that the world can take its toll?Where did I loose myself?Why can't I fell it anymore?T.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1375361/ Can't be forgotten, but wont be mentioned...in the pungent air that is filled with tension.A bubbling storm right inside his eyes,as sirens rape the silent night.She holds the gun, but he holds her heart...slow draw, quick trigger he will tear it apart.Her body shudders, her legs buckle,her hands sh.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/chaos101/1374484/