http://slow.writerscafe.org/micky1 The original writings of author micky en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776041362 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Things change...my mind on replayAs I delay..The inevitable rearrangeHow many times before i jumpHow many times will I walk to this ledgeHis many times will I stand on this edgeEvery turn, I hit another bumpThis road breaking me at every stop sign The clouds heavy, the air cold.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/2005903/ As the world comes crashing downOn my shouldersI begin to drownBeneath these bouldersThe stress destroying my bodyThe panic attacks...The anxiety ...Slowly it just packsMy feet collapsing beneath meMy lungs gasp for airLost in this realityIs there anybody out there The.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/2005259/ Hold on. ..I'm still here It might not be nearBut you've been alone far to longThe last message you sent meIt took me hours to readAs my mind began to pleadI wanted to set you freeFrom the pain,the abissYou must feel so aloneYou don't have to go on your ownI couldn't fathem.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1925030/ I remember when I use to try to justify it allTell myself "I'm okay"Push the feeling down,push it all away"It seems you were the start to my fall"It happened so fast...Nothing could catch meI was stuck in a never ending seaJust so f*****g lostI was scared,I'm still scared...actua.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1916911/ The loneless is killing me17 a prisoner of my own demise All the lies...The shatterd pieces of what I use to be Afraid to move forward It seems ever step I takeWill only be another mistake Life has become so blurredAnd the pain has become unbairible The suffering that I endure .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1905841/ This life has drained meSwallowing my soulDrowning me completelyI can't remember the last time I felt wholeUnwilling to accept the things I've doneAfraid to face this lifetime "No I'm not okay,I'm not fine"And now there is nowhere to runI watch myself faceThere's no hope,no asp.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1905033/ I have become my own detaineeWords drowning me each dayRestained down in this self conflict the wind blowing pieces of me awayI've been avoiding this self conflict for a while nowTo afraid to face my own thoughts that break me moreMaybe it's the fear of realizing "I don't know how"So.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1871971/ As time goes by...I ponder...Who am I ?There are so many questions I wonder But to this one I have answer,And it haunts meAm I a chancer? As I drown in each memoryFilled with regretAnger,hate,No self respect To much on my plate Im drowning in a puddleLife...I do.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1824702/ Its been awhile and I'm a bit rusty. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1819186/ Broken toys,When you`re broken and bruisedAll bloody and usedI`ll clean you up,and take you homeI`ll stand by your side,never leaving you aloneUnlike you...Because that`s exactly what you`ll doYou`ll leave me there all bloody and bruisedLike a broken toy that`s been usedYou were ne.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1724994/ My mind is a complex mazeFilled with monsters and a reply of each bad memoryEverything is in a blurry haze I wish it as differentlyI spend my night out running my nightmaresWaking with a cold sweat and a pulsing heartacheSpending my day avoiding there blank staresHiding my hands that tend to sh.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1711533/ https://youtu.be/Em7vc8NWUNY http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1706365/ When you emotions cnt keep up with ur mindPeace is something you will never find When your soul is dark But you eyes have a certain spark When you love to laugh coz if you dnt u might just cry When you speak of death,to help you get by When you spill all the pain on a blank .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1703945/ We were always outlaws Between the booze and brawls Between the fists and bluntsOut running the hunts We were the hunters gameWe kept him sane Running circles round this world As the darkness swirled As we crept in his sleepLeaving with nothing but our bare feet Ru.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1701989/ I have this intense..."rage"Its my first stage...Then anxiety Then an overwhelming reality Then days of self torture I watch my mind eat at my soul...call it immature Then self hate and anger Suffocate myself with regret and fearWatch myself drown in a puddleLet my bad memor.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1701954/ We going round 99m/p hourthe road was our hope we were lost,we try to copeThen the turns went sourThe green hills were to farThe rain pouring downThoughts so flooded,we could drownWe were running but we didn't know where we areLike a never ended nightmareThe car swervedYour voice was all I hear.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1700880/ I have scars on my arms ,legs and heartIf you look at me you see how much fight ive already usedEvery thing left in me is broken and bruisedThats not even the sad partIve put myself in so many bad situations alreadyLeft myself more broken everydayI let myself lose my wayIm standing o.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1692391/ You came at me with a rushUr lips was like a gental brushNext thing i was numb,couldint breathI didnt want it to stop,i didnt want you to leaveMy heart was pounding,legs unsteadyI wanted more,i was ready Ur arms wraped so tightly around my wasteMy breath came out in a hasteUr eye.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1692389/ So young on his ownSecretly he was dead and aloneA broken boy trying to be a manHe didnt even have a planHe faught just to breatheEven tho all he wanted was to leaveHe faught just to stayEven tho he watched himself faid awayHis dad haunted himBut it was just another thing Ano.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1692384/ Taken backI was drowning in love,Now I'm drowning in sorrow,Where is the love,You let me borrow,You took it back,Now I am lost,What is the price,What is the cost,The cost is tears,In cold late nights,After all the kisses,And all the fights,You've finally given.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1610557/ This empty feeling inside won't diesilence is the worst soundRelease my inner blood houndSo much anger...I scream as I cryI reach for thre sky...but there nothingJust a black blissWhat did I missWhen did everything...in me Decide to leave..Gasping for Air to breatheHow I wi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1605089/ All is good...and days arnt that longYou've given me strength and I feel strongYou've given me hope You make me smile and somehow I can copeNo more booze...ill have none No more anything...I'm doneI'm happy and that's all I needI use to watch as my wrists bleedBut now all I watch is .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1604108/ This is far to hard to say You helping me find my way Is great and all But I guess every now and then I fallAnd collapse.. The scars are maps Of where I been Every scar means somethingMy mind haunting meThe reflecting a reminder of what I use to be I'm trying to move on But it'.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1603792/ I let you slip in...I always leave the door open for youAnd your always at some point "there"This is our "thing"There's nothing I can doYou always leave me gasping for Air You leave, I'm happy for a whileYou leave, I go out...You leave, I feel strong Then you come back...I ne.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1565791/ He's hand on my thighhe's lips on my neck,then my collar boneI wounder if his lonely,i let out a moanHE moans in replyMy hands slip down,loosen his beltOne hand on my thigh the other on my breastHis hands so tightly pressedI slowly grind...Bite his ear..."I wonder how many times his been here?"He fl.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1565025/ I let the blade seap in, give me inspirationAnd the blood seap outI shout..In frustrationLet it drop down my arm...drip, dripLet this blade kill meLet this blade set me freeFor my heart has taken its last ripWatch the blood drip to the bathroom floorCut deeper...Up my arm, t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1558961/ I can still taste your kissesI can still feel your touchYet these distant memoriesAre becoming too muchThese memories, they taunt meRemind me of a timeWhere I was happyWhere you were mineNothing is permanentFate has its plansFate stripped your loveRight out of my hands... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1553955/ I know you,that's clearI know you cry at nightI know your to afraid to fight,to fight back,back the... fearSo afraid of the world...afraid of the mirrorAfraid of your thoughts..your mindTheres no light ...so darkness is all you findVision bluer...fog...(it will get clearer)I hope...But no one told y.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1553761/ Tomorrow will be longTomorrow there will be no getting out of bed3 years you'll be deadMother still pretends there's nothing wrongsince you left I have an ongoing relationship... or soWith  fear and depressionThese are things mother doesn't like to mentionI'm left wi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1552987/ My family I love them, (they don't understand me)My family are normal and happy, (they find me odd,my depression is a avoided topic)My family are outgoing, (I hate to go out )My family love to communicate (I dnt have any communication skills)My family connect easily ( I don't have a connecti.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1552087/ I glance at you as if you can give me hopeI glance and glanceBut this is a never ending danceJust hand me the ropeI sigh at you knowing all that we have been throughSuch a pretty face they all sayhidden scars,and much more to hind at the end of the dayI glance toward youAs if your opinion matters..... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1548578/ I know I have been avoiding youBut to be honest I don't know what to do...Nothing I sayIs gna make everything okay...Nothing I meanwill take back what we have seen...Nothing I have been throughwill explain me to you...I can't connectits me,im wrecked ...It's meHonestly I know we family...But I .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1542145/ I let a stranger pour me one more"How many so far?"I told him I wasn't keeping score"Whats a girl like you doing in a bar?"I could ask him the same thingBut I already know the answerWhat will the end of that bottle bring?The truth..his a chancerA boy trying to hold his ground like a manA broken boy .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1540421/ You came down and saved meYou wrap your arms across my shouldersYou were there for the storm,you helped me move the bouldersYou showed me how to be happyLeft breathless gasping for airThese wings lift me to the skyYou dried the tears i would often cryEven now your still thereYou bring me joy,watch m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1539330/ Time...It drives me insaneI never have enough timeIt doesn't help to complainSo i play pretend games,my favorite one is "im fine"I can tell you im drowning,falling,breaking but i don't have the time to waste So iI cook a meal of hopes and dreams,you ask what im making?Ill make a dessert of.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1538702/ Falling down                 down                     my downfall.....from cloud 9 to the ground                        these emotions leavi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1530053/ You never think its going to be youuntil that day...That day your foot fits the shoeUntil the moment your concentration begins to swayWhen your'e problems weigh you down   When your'e shoulders cant bare anymore When your head is to heavy from your crownWhen you lose you morals,waking.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1517557/ Crashing down into the same old pot holeHeaded straight for a dead endNo hope left for me...Suddenly the world shifts,losing self control He was an old friendMy heart on the loose,but he found it maybe?Heart racing,can't keep up with the paceFace blushingknees weak..When did love become a race?.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1513771/ Seventh grade poem...i would often leave my teachers in a standing ovationmastering my piece of artshowing of my creationimprinting each and every single partnever caring that someone always ended up deadnever caring that i left them with tears in there eyesnever knowing they actually listened to wh.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1511081/ in school they taught us that if you take two halves and put them together they make a wholeShe was a broken girl and he was a lost  soulSo they try to apply what they were taughtbut it was never a good enough reason and youd ought,to think that something so young should sproutbut he never let .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1510945/ "Breath" I remind myself again repetitively"BLINK",stand up straight I walk past the never ending seeof people judging me,"hate"The first stage?Anxiety...Then came my rageThen a tsunamiOf depressionA mix of emotionally retarded,these feeling witch i cant lessenOften finding myself at a loss,oft.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1509869/ I didn't know 99 steps to move onI didn't read books on the topic everBut since you been goneI learned don't say neverI could speak of all the trouble I gone throughI could tell the world how this has left me with hateI could blame it all on youBut arn't you the same person who taught me life isn't .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1449721/ You were my best and worst friendNot so long ago...Do you remember our story?I do!... Maybe because it scared me for the rest of mt life!Don't recall our story?... well then let me remind youIt started on a rainy day I was walking to school and you drove byI didn't see you but you saw meWh.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1448553/ She moved in his arms without hesitation... he wrapped his blood drenched hands around her waist...She caresses his face...Looking...Spilling Wanting...NeedingEvery inch...Every millimeter Of him...She cares about nothing more than feeding the fire that h.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1446131/ I didn't realize you were waiting for a Que     I didn't even know this is where it all falls apartYou could of told me...   Now I'm so lost I'm not really sure what to doTook a step back realizing I don't know where to startIt's like my world came falling dow.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1444925/ He takes a breath...Filled with painFilled with sorrowHis mom addicted to methHis dad questions if he is sane?His life just a broken tree left hollow No person will ever understand!He doubts there was ever another KID...So misunderstoodHe never got dwelt a fair handSo he did...all that he could.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1442482/ He was sixteenBarely a heart,people viewed him as a machineAnd that wasn't even the sad partHe never had a broken householdHe wasn't a spoiled child and his behavior was fine He wasn't shy or boldAnd yet his parents never had the timeA boy raised by a Nannies,soon to be left on his ownA boy unn.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1439969/   I've tried to ignore this feeling for so longI tried to ignore me longing for youBut when I here your favourite songI can't help but feel so blueI know that you're okayI know you're getting to see the worldBut I hate that I will never stop missing youThere are no words that I can say...to exp.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1439292/ I'm afraid that it's too lateI wanted to show you something betterI promise I never meant for you to go though thisPlease remember the time when I was your best mateI still have your favorite sweater I hoped when I saw you, we could reminisce I remember the way you used to smellThe way you.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1439023/ I remember the day I saw youYou took my breath awayI stood there unsure of what to doI hoped for something to sayYou looked at me in the corner of your eyeI remember the electricity shooting through my bodyAnd in that moment I knew this feeling wasn't a lieYou were the real thing not just another ho.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/micky1/1438568/