http://slow.writerscafe.org/DespairD The original writings of author Mika en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1775992475 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 The silence you left within me,The day you decided to walk away,Had me writing letters to youOf the life we once dreamed of.Our history imprinted in my memory,A sad scripture left without an ending.Your memory echoes in my mind,The ghost of you haunting me.I’m stuck in this.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/3128686/ I’ve been pushed closer to the edgeThanks to your cunning waysI’ve lost the sense of who I amForgotten what it means to flyYou dragged my self-esteem to the groundJust to feed your egoNarcissist, manipulatorIs all you’ve ever becomeIn my eyes, you’re no lo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/3128597/ Everything goes still when you’re aroundA faint memory with no soundI hear my thoughts screaming at meTo reach out for you but I’m paralyzed in timeMy breath so unsteady, unable to think straightThe desire I long for never faded with timeThis mental weakness I can’t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/3128501/ In my darkest daysI hear your voice call my nameA flash of memory still remainsThe flame we ignited still burns brightI try to let you go but each time I failyour the glimpse of hopeI always seekEvery word we expressImprinted in my headThe warmth of your loveKeeping me safe... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/3126695/ This is about an ex of mine who he was my first love. It was a long distance relationship but a mutual interest. One day everything went radio silent. No closure. I had to think of it as the end. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/3125405/ Enclosed within these four wallsWaiting to find a smile againRemembering the warmth embraceEveryone calls happinessFearing to find the lightBecause when I doNothing seems rightThe more I try to find itThe harder the fallWhen I choose not to seek itEverything comes to a halt.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/3124828/ Silence grows louder.The world becomes quieter.People freeze in timewhile yours keeps spinning.Promises once spokendisappear into the air,leaving murmurs in the wind,leaving you in the cold,wishing you could disappear too.Suddenly it feels like fighting alone,a war you never .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/3124827/ Darkness rises,Clouding our sight �"Black flamesConsume the night.HelplessnessConsumes the world,Blood runs,The innocent fall.What’s the point in unifyingWhen everything is torn apart?My heart aches,I’m raging �" a hellfire spark.If w.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/3124826/ When it all came crumbling down I fell on my kneesStumbling through my thoughts Unable to think coherently.Los in the perfect stormNot knowing which way I should sailChain down by the sea of memoriesSilence echoes in my mind driving me insane.Blind sighted, I'm lost at sea Past.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2759568/ Stuck on repeat,all the negative things you've said to me,overwhelming my thoughtsclouding my judgment, my judgment.Unable to think with clarity,I slam on the break before I take a step,always having voicesechoing in my head,so, I chain myself to this torment,now.I've tried to break the cyclebu.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2415142/ The earth quakes to the roaring soundof peoples rage to this unjustly events;innocent bloodshed on the streetswe are going back to our history.Belittling the damage that  has been donetoo many lives have been taken from ushow can we allow history repeat itself again,we have yet to learn from ou.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2176546/ We haven't left our home for weekswe keep losing track of the days,time keeps moving, yet we sit stilllike a prisoner in our own home.We can't remember the last timewe went outside and felt the sunshine so bright, and warming our facesas we look up at the blue sky.It seems like we all has gone mad,a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2171834/ I tried to face the pain alone but I failed,an internal war begins, I surrenderI stranded from my path, forgetting who I am, rememberI'm chained to this unending nightmare.Your memory haunts my pleasant dreamsthe scar left in my heart, begins to bleedmaking me relieve the pain I felt that day, I los.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2143772/ Every time I’m left alone with my thoughtsI lose my grip on reality and hopeMy mind runs a thousand miles an hourLeaving me silent, leaving me coldI can’t stand to face my own reflectionAll I see are insecuritiesFear and anger weigh me downMy demons tear apart my soulAl.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2143326/ Too many scars were left to beartoo many nightmares to eraseyou're trying so hard to repairall the pain left in this place,you're trying so hard to fade away.A storm of never ending painyour heart is fill with regret,you're trying to break the chainto start anew and to resetthis disastrous chain of .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2140192/ today I had to put my beautiful dog to sleep. She was bleeding internally and her blood was not clotting due to that all her blood platelets were so low and she was suffering & her brain was bleeding. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2132022/ They say you should have your life togetherknowing which road you'll take always adding pressure to be successful,stating their judgments to every failuredo I really have to follow their rules?Here you stand holding on to a blank pagein search for the right path to taketrying to stay true to yo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2123550/ Will we lose our dignityif we let them control uswill this be our destiny,bounding us into darkness.They're bounding us to their rulesbrainwashing us to becomeincoherent, unfree foolsdestroying us 'til we're numb.They're dictating how to bethey stole our freedom of speechcan anyone hear our plea?eat.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2120125/ I once heard a sad storyabout innocent blood being shedso much cruelty and violencegot me thinking about the past.A history with so much hate,so much ignorance, and fearclouded too many hearts,unable to see the truth,that we are all the same.A fear that only causes painlead to broken hearts,too many.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2114462/ Come with me and take my handlet's create our own world,that we can call it our home.When you try so hard to fit inyou begin to lose the sense of who you are,no matter how many times you try,the world turns their back on you.Don't dim the fire within you,or change who you truly are.Come with me and .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2108590/ Stranger's eyes judging me,unable to accept the unknownthey condemn me,Oppression! They say go out there and be yourselfdon't let anyone dim your light,go show the world what you've got,here I stand forced to conformto society's laws.Fear, turns into anger leading to hateful actionsfightin.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2105593/ When I closed my eyes,my mind traveled to a nightmare,a frozen world where no hope or dreams exist.Everywhere I looked,there was nothing but darkness,no light was able to touch this world,the cold winds howling wildlysending chills down my spine. Unable to open my eyes I felt like I was becomin.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2103179/ After all the bullshit you did, you can’t stop me.After all the meaningless words you said, you can’t stop me.Was I supposed to believe your lies?Fall for your sick little game?You’re a parasite, a slow-spreading diseaseFeeding on innocence, feeding on pain.You though.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2093344/ I hate you for every word that you said to me,for pretending that you gave a damn about meI wish I could turn back time and give you a piece of my mind.I hate you for thinking you can take control of mefor antagonizing me just to satisfy your greed,I want to make you feel what you did to me,you're f.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2091240/ I've been standing waiting patiently,trying to reach out for your handbut it seems you moving too far awayno matter how far I try to run towards youthere's an infinite distance between us.All this time I've tried to understand you,but no matter how many times I tryit's never been enough, for you.No .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2086030/ So many days have passed me bymy mind been constantly racingtrying to find the answers, I'm so uncertain,so I'll sit here in silence in this cold night.I know what I said, I can't take it back,my honesty might turn into my own enemy.Here I am, sitting in solitude,my mind racing at the speed of light.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2085709/ Don't mind me, if I lay here on my ownmy mind is clouded by confusion,wanting to escape from this mental cellunable to think clearly,I'll apologize. for not being present.This daze has me sawing back and forthtainting the memories I have of you,so hold my hand,wait for me to come to my sensesand don.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2082595/ There's something changing in your eyeslike something is not quite right,I get shivers down my spinenot knowing what you think of me,all I can do is just sit in silence.I long to feel the warmth of your touchbut it only feels cold as stone,all the voices in my head clouds my judgment.I want to hold .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2074681/ For too long I've untrusted myselfunable to see the light within me,hateful words overwhelmed my mindsending me spiraling down into the eye of the storm.I've lost my path in life,no matter how many timesI've tried to turn backall the emotions I once feltsurfaced once again.For too long I've been wal.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2073460/ Loneliness is a curse cast upon us,no matter how many times we run away,it seems it always able to catch up,blinding us from seeing the light,disorienting us from who we are.Fighting back with all our might,the chains we are bound to this curse,only gets tighter,unable to breathe,unable to think str.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2070756/ For so long I've been deprived of sleepmy days had turn into a blur,dazed by everything I once knew,I feel like I've fallen far too deep (I'm lost).The voices in my head grows loudertelling me to give into the painthe longer I stand stillmy body sways to the rhythmof their negative waves.The lo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2070441/ For so many years I walked down a broken path,a path that led me to believe in wishful thinking,just when it felt like my heart was healingall my wounds opened up and kept on bleeding.Every time I saw my reflection, I wondered to myself,"who are you trying to fool, yourself or everyone else?"the lon.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2064841/ There is something changing within me,every time I look at my reflectionI don't recognize the person looking back,the world around me seems to slow downand here I am standing completely in stillness.The light of the moon fades away,as the warm winds grows cold,every tear I ever shed cut me so deepli.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2059827/ Walking on a broken road for too long,darkness overwhelmed the sky,lowering my guard,allowed my demons get into my head,unable to shake them off,I closed my eyes and being to listen to their words.Dark silhouettes guide me deeper into the storma rocky road awaits for me,blindly following their voice.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2059274/ So many emotions, I've locked in my heart,no matter how many times I want to speak,my silences overpowers my voice.It's so hard to face you,every time I look at you,the memories of all the pain you caused me,clouded my judgment,this is why is so hard to talk you.As the years passed us by,solitude be.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2051981/ You tell me I'll be so beautifulif I lose those extra pounds,maybe fix my nose, and lift my cheekbones,so I can fell alive like everyone else.If I shed my skin like a snake,maybe become plastic like,would you tell me I'm alive?tell me, it will bring me the happinessI've been searching for so long.Am.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2049469/ Lost in the darkest forest,I lost my way back to you,I call out your name,can you hear me?I look up at the sky,in search for a guiding light,blinded by regret and hopelessnessthese chains of the past,won't let me go.These cold chains burns my skinunable to break themI call out your name.The way back.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2049447/ People pass right through me,a repeating cycle of pain and loneliness.I can no longer feel the warmth of the sunor the rain when it falls against my skin.I became a ghost to the world because of you.Every time I ran to your aid,you fed on my kindness,drained every ounce of love I had.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2049039/ My father is an alcoholic and no matter how much my family and I tried to help him to get help, he still refuses, and i know he won't get the help he needs until he sees it. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2048537/ The shinning rays of the sun,beaming down on ustrying to remember the warmthwe once knew, years ago.We're standing still, unable to move,the seasons pass us by,trying to figure out if we should keep on moving forwardor should we stand here and freeze time.An unknown future lies ahead,fearing if.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2043307/ Standing still in the middle of a dead townmissing all the familiar faces I once knew.taking small steps, the memories of us fades awayI stare up at the sky, looking for an answer,answer me answer me,time goes still and the loneliness becomes familiar,I feel I've been left behind.Tell me, tell mewha.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2042229/ Repressing emotionslocked in a cageunable to trust myself with my thoughts, chained into the silencetears stream down my face.The glass door reflects my faceunable to see my reflectionafraid to see the light in my eyes dim awaythis feeling of hopelessness I know it too well.I look up at the sky.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2027817/ When I close my eyesI drift away from this realmwhere all my fears and pain fade away,a numbing feeling overwhelms my bodya feeling that's so familiar;I wrap myself in false hopea transparent clothes that exposes how I feel.I don't know how to believeI don't know how to face my truththe pain that ha.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2026740/ So many memories we share togethermoments that were given by time,painting a picture that became unforgettable,yet the thoughts of all the troubles I've given youblinds the good times we shared.Despite all the hardships we've been throughyou still look at me with a nonjudgmental eyesalways giving me.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2019084/ I remember the night we had to say goodbye,tears streamed down my faceyou looked at me and wiped my tears away,you held me close telling everything will be okay.Being held by your embrace made me feel safe,the warmth of your skin burns to the touch,being this close to you made my heart beat with joy.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2008022/ Hello dearest strangeryou've lost yourself,the light the once shine from your eyeshas deem down.hello dearest stranger,your pride has betrayed you,you stand alone watching the stars,the tears you shed,I caught them all.Hello dearest stranger,don't let your pride control you,look around you,there man.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2007288/ I always tried to go out of my wayto do everything to please you,no matter how much I tried tomake you feel proud of me,it was just wasted energy, so I gave up.Every time I saw myself in the mirror,I forgot the sense of myself,the light in my eyes dimmed.Good bye, goodbyeI have to keep moving forwar.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2004223/ I look up at the blue sky...One day I'll find my path in life.Walking down this worlddragging the chains of fate,carrying the weight of my pastunable to get rid of the pain.I look around unable to recognizethe people surrounding me,an unfamiliar sense of unwelcomenessI feel a stranger in a place I s.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2003625/ You've been an outcast for far too long,you, not longer recognize your reflection,it seems the longer you try to fit in,you lose a piece of yourself.The longer you try to blend in,you grow weaker each day,you try to find your way outbut you lose hope, the darkness overcast your world.Step back .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2002270/ Nice to meet you,I remember those words clearlylike if it was just yesterdaythe innocence you seemed to have fadedas quickly as you spoke those gentle words.You took my dignity and took advantageof the my kindness and acceptance,you raped the purity I once had,don't say anything, because in the endn.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/DespairD/2001826/