http://slow.writerscafe.org/ayejodie The original writings of author ayejodie en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776010145 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Little parts of meBegin to break away.The light has been dimming,The bulb you never changed. And I gradually dullSkin flakes away.You have seen meWitnessed how I've changed.How I don't smile Like I used to.The emptiness in my eyesAnd silence in my laugh. You ignored every sig.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/2020598/ Here again,Broken and defeated.Lying still and hopeless,Dreams of nothing new.Slow and shallow breaths,An effort to continue on. My eyes are heavy as they try to close.The darkness doesn't scare me anymore,Provoking it to take me. Release me from the constant burning in my mind, .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/2011610/ a girl who is unsure if she wants to stay in a fiery relationship, or does she want to jump into the unknown world of women. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/2005043/ When a regular life, is not for you. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/2000999/ The morning after the night before http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1994472/ He has the key, he's taunting me.He needs it though,Won't set me free. I grip these bars, so tight it stings.He weighs me down,And buys me things.I got given life,Not a life worth living.And if he found outI wouldn't be forgiven.A butterfly came, real late at night,Slipped thro.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1977019/ A neglected relationship http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1958565/ Take what you want. Be who you want. Do what you want. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1950798/ Jet black hair and skin like silk,Her eyes, the brightest blue.She followed me into the early hours of the morning,Beneath the blankets of a strangers bedQuick to crawl her hands along my body. Slow, like under water,She kissed my lips. Despite the rising sun,The room was dark.Tw.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1946630/ It's kind of like your scarf,Caught in the car door.Dragging along the road,Begging for you to notice.Travelling at a speed,Unraveling the stitching. Perfectly patterned,Now dulling and grey.And nobody knows,The damage we don't see. If only we could stop,Lift It out of the dirt.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1944319/ I walked as far as I'd ever walked before,Heading toward the castle ruins. The sunlight shon bright and far away,It's warmth hardly grazing my skin. The grass crunched beneath my feet,As I walked in the morning frost. A blanket of fog surrounded meAnd the little I could see. Wild f.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1937123/ What happens when you stop doing what you should do, what the world says you should do, and instead do what you want? A short story on not being able to control temptation. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1935785/ Your path, your walk, Your life. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1934411/ You know I'm afraid of dying,It's a fear of the Unknown.I picture myself old and frail,Not ready yet, to go. It's ironic really,It keeps me awake at night..But yet everyday I dream it,just ending my life. This Sunday, well it seems too hard,I'll imagine an escape..Or this Wed.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1924101/ I stood there, Up on stage, In my red dress.I glowed against the lights,So intense they almost pierced through.As I waited to begin, I watched the crowd in the darkness, Shuffling around, no notice of me. The piano began, without warning.I closed my eyes And with a shakey vo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1907848/ Old town,You welcomed meWith open arms,Would you believe.I changed for good,Or so i thought.I went in deep,Friendship I sought. Drunken NightsGrew our close bond,Thinking it'd last-the biggest con.Memories were made,But I can't remember.That last day cameThe first of September.No more days,No d.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1907837/ Marriage http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1905118/ Dreams are somewhat underestimated.Submerging ourselves into another world.A familiar world,But yet our own.A place where we can visit the past,Talk to those no longer here..And no longer around.Do what we want with them,Pretend they say, what we wanted them to say..In the past.Taking us away from o.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1897389/ I'm lying here, Wearing today's face.I really tried to paint perfection.-And I am lying beside you.Night after night,Goes just like this.I will analyse our day,And question if you love me..Because how would I know, right?I lie there having craved affection,And left, untouched... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1886656/ There is so much inside me,So much I have to give.Like a fighting child,Wanting to be heard.I can sometimes hear the faint sound of screaming, coming from within.My body holding me back,Too tired to move.Everything I want to become, Everything I am inside, I am not.The ballerina who never .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1877448/ It was exactly how I'd pictured it;although a little earlier than predicted.I didn't expect it would feel so, expected.I almost felt as if it was getting closer as the days passed.It was certain, we'd close the four year gap.I have to admit i was afraid,What would the absence cause?Would it have cha.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1860545/ Why did you visit me last night?Why did you come to me..After all this time.3years, I think,-it's been a blur.Your stupid red car,You used to pick me up in.That sickening tightness in my stomach.-How I haven't missed that.I'm trying hard to forget you,Really f*****g hard..I've .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1829831/ We lie together all night,before you have to leave. We laugh and talk,Fall in and out of sleep.But I will never tell you, And you will probably never know,What my heart would like to say.I could never tell you that you're my hero.I'd never let you know how strong you make me feel... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1827243/ Them nights I lay by you,Floating way in to my head.You've already drifted,As I look at you.The urge to wrap my arm around you,But I just don't. Instead I face away.A torn sort of love.I want you,but I don't just want you. One thousand and something nights like this.Not enoug.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1799940/ Do you ever want to do it over?Your life? End this life.Drop everything and walk out of the exit doors.Do you ever dream of what's beyond the hills?There has to be more than this..Just drop the Mike..F**k this...f**k this life.I'm starting again.As if we'd make no mistakes..I'd s.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1781887/ When you dance, your a lone body.Rubbing off other bodies.My eyes are closed and I imagine time is still.The talking switched off for a moment.The only words are the lyrics,Telling us to forget, get drunk, or temporarily fall in love.A song I am fully connected with..Speaking to me, .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1724730/ I'm sorry.I'm sorry for being me.I'm sorry for having a past.I'm sorry you were not the first,I wished so hard that you were...Please know that I am sensitive. I've been kicked and hit and bruised.When you chose me,You chose scraps.I put on a good front but please know,I've been .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1705370/ midnight thoughts http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1701834/ I'll show my legs tonight.A nice tight dress and my hair draped down my back.Everything slowed down.Thick black lashes flash a glimpse of my piercing blue eyes.And only the slightest half smile as I turn away.Red-blood curls snake over my shoulder.revealing the sweat on my chest glimmering from the .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1614819/ A smile is only halved,A laugh is not sincere.Our conversation endsI just pretend to hear..I'll still look on the street,Force of habit I suppose.Other eyes mine will meet,Questioning the ones I've chose.And then you call my phone,At the end of a busy day.And although I'm all alone,There is nothing .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1609662/ Sometimes, I truly break into a million pieces... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1535179/ Do you know how badly I wish for all of this to end?The breathingThe thinking..the living.I cannot indulge in what others findHappiness in,Because I am trapped in my world. This invisibly unfortunate hand I've been slapped with. To breathe takes every energy from me. The sluggish.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1523927/ How do you know, if you are happy?-If those years of pain have finally ended?How can you have that happiness,without fear that pain will return?Those little thoughts that bed themselves into the unreachable parts of our brain,There to stay, reminders forever. Staring happiness in the f.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1518232/ What I thought was love before you... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1515586/ Your round dark eyes,A deep brown but so full of light.Your little nose and silky baby skin, here forever lies my many loving kisses.A crooked smile that makes you so imperfectly perfect.-And that laugh, gives life reason.You are kind and careful, yet a typical boy. You are teaching me.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1514550/ Falling in love,How beautiful it sounds. How easily it attracts us..So alluring. -But I want to be loved...Everyone wants to be loved.But...what happens when you do fall?And your lying there, on the floor..When love is no longer new,When we no longer chase it. What happens, in lo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1500075/ I was the non-believer.The negative. There were no beautiful thoughts left.No vision for the future.I float through days of empty nothings. I had no purpose anymore. Maybe it was because I was barely holding on,Towards the end.Maybe it was my desire for the end. God knew I could no.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1494405/ I am waiting for them to ask. So patiently, I'm sitting still. I wipe away the remainder of my tears,With the torn sleeves of my uniform. I am still waiting, as they decide on what to do. Nothing I am allowed to hear. As they enter they say nothing. My life ex.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1485748/ It would be easier to write about heartbreak.About how you've ruined me.Lines that describe how broken I am, and how I'll never learn. It would be effortless to write it all again. - A second nature to feel it. I can describe being crushed and physically feeling every break. But, tonight.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1483671/ Say how much you hate meWhen I'm alive..Then tell them how you loved meWhen I've died. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1481787/ Thrown into a tinted pool.Another colour added to the mix.So tiny, I didn't even leave a ripple.-So irrelevant, I made no change.Like an orange flame,Mixed with purples, blues and yellows.I am diluted. No longer like the sun,more so its' rays.Bombs of colour plunge and cause a spla.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1481530/ Reduced to a small child,I am needy again. I become weak and dependant.Crying at night, so they don't hear,I pray so hard to God.In this moment, I am nothing.In this barren wasteland, I sit.Tears streaming down my cheeks,I call for my Mother.Scream.I am a lost wreckage,In a sea of silence.No ad.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1477695/ Life. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1473904/ Keep Dreaming.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1472431/ Stop it.I higher the music.I said, stop it..You pollute my thoughts,My jaw is clenched.Like an illness,You poison me.Spreading numbness throughout my body.The sting of vodka from your lips.You'r grip so strong,Leaving nail marks on my arm.I will never be free. Stop!I pull at my hair to blo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1472425/ She was a mother.A friend.She always cared for others.An angel.Her only goal, to make them happy.She was so beautiful, ...She didn't even know.As delicate and fragile, as a butterfly.Her touch so gentle, and voice so soft.She was, an Angel.Giving light in times of darkness,She'd make it all ok... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1471172/ I am sat here, alone again.Feeling drained.I am empty,Yet my heart is heavy.I try to swallow the lump in my throat.Gather myself.Reluctantly, I catch a glimpse of my reflection.And I ache.The mascara underneath my eyes.Unaware that I was crying.My eyes look grey and hollow,My face always a frown.Sec.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1471158/ Mental Illness http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1466372/ Feeling..curious. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1465291/ Shards of glass,they thread my skin.Feeling cold,I hear them sing.Outside to stand,For the world to see.Their every word,Has broken me.They grasp my heart,They rip and tear.My secrets out,For all to hear.The pull and nip,My every wound.My soul inside,Forever doomed... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ayejodie/1464412/