http://slow.writerscafe.org/adillar3 The original writings of author alastair en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1775964371 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 i told myself that if i waited and you came then that was my sign, but i waited for what felt like hours and you never showed http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1722559/ he gives me the attention i never knew i was craving http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1722558/ You didn't take your eyes off her the whole night. Every time she looked to see if you were looking you were already staring.why do you deny that you love her? what is so scary about being with her?she doesn't say anything when you say you'll call but never do. she doesn't get mad when you start act.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1611830/ She always said the people who drink alone are dangerous.Then she became one of those people. She is sad and she misses him, he isn't even hersbut every night when she's drinking wine like its water she gets uncomfortably close to calling him, but then she remembershe is not hers and she can't .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1611827/ She wanted nothing more than to get on a train or plane, one way ticket to someplace she had never been before, go and never come back.She wanted a new life, she wanted to start over.New life, new friends, new everything.She would start from scratch and make something of herself, by herself.That's w.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1611824/ You talked to me for hours, but you gave her your number.You leaned in and kissed herYou called me over to talk againWhat was i supposes to do?I knew you didn't want me, you made that clear when you chose her lips over mine, but i enjoy talking to you for then i get to look at you and for a split se.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1611821/ I need to stop going to parties.They always leave me feeling empty inside.Every time it's the same thing. She gets picked over me.I don't know how much more i can take, it's starting to kill me.What's wrong with me? http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1611819/ do you remember what my voice sounds like? or what my smile looks like? did you forget about me?i forgot everything about you, but that wasn't my choice.I just want to know what made you decide one morning that i was no longer worth being in your life.What the hell happened? http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1611818/ You're on my pedestal. i compare everyone to you now. I thought I was growing, moving on but then you came back and even though it was just for two days it was more than enough time to put me right back where i started. You on my pedestal.I wouldn't normally hold on for this long or try this ha.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1611817/ Ever since he came back she's had a sinking feeling in her stomach.He's acting different towards her.After being away for so long he realized the beauty within her, but alsothe brokenness.As much as he wanted to love her he couldn't, he was broken too.So he kept searching for the one to put his piec.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1611816/ This time, maybe this time things would go in her favor. Whenever he would come around you could see her eyes light up a little and her smile grow more frequent, but she saw his wandering gaze and it was not towards her, she sat back in her chair and the memories of every other t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1541636/ After he left, she had to keep his sweater with her to feel at home, to feel him, to feel something.Last night she fell asleep in her bed while the sweater was on the couch. She’s making progress http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1533362/ She would play indie playlists on spotifyand scroll through tumblr every night until her computer would die.People started to ask questions so she had to put a label on it,a reason that would make her seem less crazy."I'm an insomniac" she would mutterand they would leave her be.Truth is she could s.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1532245/ I thought that I could handle this,seeing you with her seems to be too much for me,still.So it's time to do what's best for me.Being on my own has revealed more to me about myself then I thought there was to know.You, just you, will always be in the back of my mind,but I smile more now. Like actuall.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1532201/ You left in a way I never expected.Well I guess I did, but I hoped it wouldn't go like that.There was no "love you" like you said to her.or big embrace like you had with her.Just an awkward parking lot half hug and a "See you around"But will you really?You made these past 10 months something to.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1529287/ I'm sitting on my floor thinking about what it's going to be like never seeing your face again.It's a nauseating thought.Say what you will about "I'll come visit" or "Don't worry I will keep in touch."We both know those are lies.We had a good run, there were laughs, tears, and beautiful nights, but .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1526111/ Tonight was the night that all the lights went out in her room.Each time a segment flickered, flickered then went darka piece of her soul went with it.A single tear streamed down her cheek as the very last segment started to flickerand then a smile emerged because now she wouldn't have to feel the p.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1526098/ They knew they were suppose to be together,but it wasn't the right time.Things were complicated,so they accepted that.He is with someone elseand she watches from a close distance being known asonly a friend to anyone who asks but to him she was more, but only his late night thoughtswould ever k.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1524716/ She had good days and she had bad days.Today was a good day,so she hoped he would say "yes" to whatever she would ask when she wakes up http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1524197/ if you look at the pictures close enough you can see the happiness fade from her eyesit was a gradual changebut neverthelessit is there http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1519392/ i never thought i would find myselfthinking about taking too many pills at 4 in the morningbut there i wason my floor, tears streaming down my facehow did this happeni was fine 4 months ago and nowi can barely make it through a single day http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1519300/ i could tell you were hurting but i didn't aski could see the pain in your eyes but i kept my shoulder to myselfam i allowed to ask, am i allowed to offerwhere is the line?where do you permit me to cross? http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1518567/ the sun was shining when you lefti think i prefer nights http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1518557/ Do you believe in fate? Because I doSeeing you tonight of all nights was no coincidence http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1518545/ I'm losing time, forgetting things.i look at my phone and see things that i have no recollection of sending you.not drunk, not high, not anythingwe have nothing, why is that so hard for me to get through my head?but if you didn't know me you'd think we've been in lovesince we were kids wit.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1516063/ Last time he made me sickPhysically sick All the stress almost put me in the hospitalHow did I get this way? How did I let myself get this way?The break was good for usI reconstructed my wall and heFound a new girl.It was good.Everything has changed, I'm not afraid of him this time aroundHe has.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1481400/ I want the old us backno pressure, no past, no betrayal.But thats the thingit wasn't a mistake; it was betrayaland i don't know how to get past that. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1476797/ How to act around you is something i don't know how to do anymoreundecided on if you should be forgiven or notbare with methis is your fault you made me waityou shut me out but you let me innow its my turn to playand its your turn to wait http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1476795/ You were the perfect catchbut then you fell for her fakeand it changed you.It changed you forever. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1476794/ She looked at him as if he put the stars in the skyBut the looked faded and he did nothing to try to capture itSo that was the end. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1476793/ i practiced thisi practiced what i would do,what i would say when i saw you after months of silencebut when i saw you i didn’t feel what i thought,what i told myself i would feel.i didn’t think about you anymore,i had a few weeks of truehappiness.but I’m back and so are youand now .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1476698/ you were my knight in shining amour then one day it changedi never looked at you quite the same wayi knew you didn't love mebut i still held out hopeyou can't fool menot anymoredid you ever tell me the truth?now you're gone but not in that wayyou spend your days behind old gray wallswith a unif.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1454957/ loving him was as radiant as the sunbut when he lefthe took all the warmth awayleft me in the dark and never looked back http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/adillar3/1454952/