http://slow.writerscafe.org/scarred4life The original writings of author AnaMia en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1775985453 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Reina,I have no idea when you guys can come to visit. I think usually the parents know or something. I'll ask the techs later, alright? But it's probably soon I hope, but usually we get less visits, even if we're in here longer which really sucks, doesn't it? I really want to eat - I'm starving - bu.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/594609/ Beth, Are you seriously saying that you can write anything in the diary, and it happens? I think that Jordan knew that it did that. Why would Jordan give you a diary that made bad things happen. Does it make good things happen, too? Maybe, to test it out, you should write that you wish that Tammy .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/594548/ Reina,Are you kidding me? I'm the fattest person I know. All my gymnast friends are probably about 85 lbs and I'm stuck at 94. I just need to lose a few pounds to be able to do the flips higher on the uneven bars. I think it would help a lot.Anyway, Jordan is okay, I guess. I don't know. I try not t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/589328/ Beth, I miss you too. It's really good that you're making friends. Even if I can't be with you all the time, or talk to you 24/7, I'm glad to know that you have someone to talk to. I really don't think you should have told the techs about Jordan, because they might keep you in that stupid hospital.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/588090/ Maybe I'm just not meant to be a gymnast or something. The coach keeps yelling at me now because I'm gaining weight. I don't know how I'm gaining anything because I keep throwing up everything and usually that's what happens when you throw up, you usually don't gain a pound. But what will happen to .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/586876/ Reina,Why shouldn't I have told the techs about Jordan? Who cares anyway. They already know I'm crazy. That's why I'm in the stupid insane asylum anyway. I know it's not really an insane asylum, but they have all the doors locked! It's crazy. I wish that you were with me or something.I've made a new.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/586324/ Beth, Thanks for forgiving me about not really supporting you enough while you're in the hospital, it means alot to me. I'm still sorry that I froze up on you like that, this whole situation just got so confusing! I didn't know what to say to you when you would write. Now, I know that I just need .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/586308/ Okay, I swear on my life that if Mrs. Warren says ANYTHING to my parents about the note, I will not only kill Ali, I will kill Mrs.Warren. It is none of her business anyway. She is just a young teacher who has the looks of a model, why she is teaching i havent the slightest clue. I am so angry... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/585951/ So here I am with an empty stomach. I can't believe that I've gone back to what I've done three years ago. since I am small I weigh 89 lbs, but I want to lose so much more. Unlike my cousin Amelia I am not anorexic. I'm just bulimic.Yes, I throw up whatever I eat, but what's the big deal? Sure, I co.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/585792/ Here at the Royal Elite Gymnast Company in New York City, we have weigh-ins every Friday morning at 6AM prompt. It is so stressful to me because I have to get up every morning at 4AM just to make sure that I can make it there in time. Plus, everyday after school I am back there training again...But,.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/585785/ These exclusive girls are dying while in search to be the best of the rest. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/585774/ Reina, Ok, I love you. You're my best friend in the whole world. I'm sorry I went off on you like I did, but I was just upset. I'm so so so so sooooo sorry. I already told you what his name is. It's Jordan. He gave me a book in private. He called it "Ephemeris Diaboli". Isn't it beautiful? It's like.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/585391/ Beth, what are you saying?!? We're not friends anymore? It's all because of this stupid ghost boy! I want to be your friend Beth, I really do. I'm just so confused! You are right about one thing though, we are teo different people. I would shy away from this ghost boy, but of course, you would tal.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/585260/ Reina,I can't believe what you are saying to me! I thought that you were my best friend. You're supposed to be ON MY SIDE! What is this crap that you're telling me about not being able to talk to this boy? Why do you EVEN CARE? Why do you even care about me? I don't understand about any of this anym.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/584986/ Beth, You talked to him?!? I told you not to get yourself into trouble...what are you doing?!? You can't help him, he's already passed. If he's been at the hospital longer than you have, don't you think that someone else would have seen him, or knew he was there? There could be something very wron.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/584928/ Listen Reina,I'll be careful because I know how to be careful. I know what I'm doing. Besides, I found out what his name is. It's Jordan. He actually talked to me. I think he really is a ghost because no one else can see him. But I'm kind of afraid. I don't know what to do with him and what to do wi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/584536/ Beth, I'm sorry to hear of how unhappy you are at the hospital. I knew you wouldn't be happy, but it still makes me sad to hear. You know that you're not alone in the world because you have me and I'll always be here for you. I don't know about this boy. If he is a ghost, how can you be in love with.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/583694/ Reina, It helps me - as if it calms me down to inflict pain on myself. Sometimes I feel uncomfortable thinking I am alone in the world. I have nothing to gain from cutting - I have everything to lose. I understand this. But life isn't all about what you lose or gain. It's about the horrors which hau.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/583553/ Beth, You need to tell someone about this boy you see. Don't get yourself into anymore trouble while you're in the hospital. I don't want to lose you anymore than I already have. So, where did you get that plastic from anyway? I thought they watched out for anything sharp. Why did you cut this time?.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/583551/ Reina, I saw him again. He was in the cafeteria when we went down there. He wasn't with the residential or the adolescence acute unit either, but he was just there. I don't know his name, but I'm going to find out. He's so cute, but I don't know what to do about him. I'm not allowed to tal.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/583540/ Beth is in residential in the hospital and has no way to contact Reina so they write letters to each other. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/scarred4life/583536/