http://slow.writerscafe.org/companynotkept The original writings of author thespaceinmybed en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776031741 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 desperate and whorisheager for anything resemblingstrengthgive me your violencemake me feel soft againI will be anything you wantI will crawl pantsweatit's been years of dissatisfactionplace your hands on meand watch my skin yieldI just want a man inside mevalidating my existenceshow me that I'.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1397365/ and all the things I buriedcome up through the gutknocking at my throatthreatening to take my voicebut I fill it with whiskeyand hollow laughterI drown my secrets you never askedwhat was wrong with meit never matteredin the endwe became strangers againin the saddest sense of the wordhow do you .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1309107/ I want to feel my mind twitchunable to look awaymy heart has brought meto the feet of manypress down on mebruise me with the force of your lipstell methere is no escapeI want to revel in your attentioncover me with your darknessmake the miles and disappointmentsnonexistentI want to look up into your.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1303106/ maybe I should've let the heatlie stilland all the thingsthat made us bleak and mean and brokenwould've dissipated with timebut I don't have the constitutionto believein anything that smells like a miracleI've known too many strangersbled in too many bedsmy smallest bitsstill cling to youas some sor.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1302493/ it begins like a slow rusha rotting feeling in the guta picturea nameand there you aremaking my eyes bleed againit's been monthsI should be able to stop shakingstop loving you for everythingyou weren't my mind becomes weakand tender to the touchyou used to bea softness I'd forgotten I was capab.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1297423/ I'm not even closeyou want someone to make you feel aliveto reach through your skin and your hurt and your scarsand create some kind of magicI can'tI can't turn you into something you aren'tI am hellthe lostthe damnedbut I can make you feelcompleteI can make you bleedand thinkthat’s what you n.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1290099/ You make me want to spill secretsCreate something to cave intoBut you're not a parachuteYou aren't there when my body hits the pavementYou aren't there when I'm washed away with the rain http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1289843/ just like the last timeI thought you would saythat you missed meand we would argueand call each other namesand then get over itI thought we were made ofthe stuff of legendsI thought our blood randeeperI thought you would neverbe over meI thought you were someoneyou weren'tand its only the whiskeyand.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1289518/ and I don’t even believe in heavenI thought we would kiss in the oceantell jokes until the sun came upI thought we wouldtouch each other in and out of soulsmake each other laugh until we hurt ourselvesI thought you wereeverythingmy reason for beingso fucked upI thought you were beautifult.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1289491/ I've peeled my skin open for youin places I still don't have a name forbut it wasn't enoughit's never enoughI don't understand how can you ask for morefrom meI turned inside out and felt my mindshudderfor youBut it wasn't enoughThey say it's my faultYes I knowLove means everythingBut I nee.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1282108/ let them bleed outslip to the groundwait for someone elseto resurrect their uselessnessI can't tell you the truththere is no place for itbetween uswe deal in lips and legsthe weightier thingshave no voice here http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1277938/ what I neededto feel alive againno one saidenemies are the things inside youit takes so many namesI lost countit begs and wishesand warmsit festers in the bottom of youripping out whatever was there firstbuilding a home in borrowed spaceit gathersskin from day to dayyear to yearit never washes itsel.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1272135/ this is where I pour myself some more whiskeyand waitand wish impossiblysomehowmy words will reach through this gapfilled to the brim with bitternessgrab you by the throatand drag your flesh to methe truth is a weight I can’t liftthe voices in my headsayyou don’t careand this timeI belie.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1268016/ like you were calling me homeand I thoughtjust onceI could stop trying so hard to breathebut it wasn't youit wasn't anybodysimply my mindimagining things againso I wentI left that placeand all the strangled hopesthat lived in itsomedaymaybemy hands will stop their slow wanderingyou couldn't do ityou.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1267966/ with all the things you don't know about methey could swallow youand all your lost intentionsbefore you had a chance to become unsettlingwhat makes closeness so difficultso horrible to standyou look at me with open skinwilling to take in anythingsorryno one ever taught me how to be th.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1265286/ In blood and retributionSomeday someone will ask And I will have to answerWhat good are buried secrets to the living?Mouths want to be fedFilthy thingsAlwaysThings even the dirt won’t cling toI could tell you my nameAnd all the bodies it’s rested inBut that’s not what really m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1258262/ they couldn't stand the weight of your nameI used to use themto make light in the darknessto turn so many nothingsinto somethingbut I knowwords can wrap up scarsandwe can drape ourselves in good intentionsbut love dies under feetand over headsif it's not being fedyou take the strength from mean.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1252753/ Where we made popsicles out of whiskeyAnd took to the streets singing dirty love songsFor some reason your hands are what I most rememberThey were slender and strong and coldThe bits of realityThat I chose to savorCan't competeI want to build forts out of boxes and sword fightIn the middle of the be.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1252693/ A lost whisper I can't gripSo keep your name and your waysCause nothing else warms meYou are the blanket full of starsI like to wrap around my shivering bodyIn a empty parking lot http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1252675/ Disguising my black heartWith the empty husk of your warmthTell me what to doI'm losing sleep and a steady gripOn what is rightWhat is trueIt took us too many months to bury youAnd now we steal part of your memorySelfishlyI want to feel your love next to my soulIts not a justifiable reasonBut I can'.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1252668/ a bitterness I sipwhen the curtains are closedI've stomped on your namespread dirt over its carcassyet somewhere in my fleshsomething lays soft for youcurling your words about iton cold nightsits pathetic I knowI grip time between my teethhoping it's strong enoughto wash away your tasteI w.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1251618/ they choke me in the strangest placesI feel the rippleslike earthquakesCorrupt everything in reachThey will take you from me tooYou will look at me like they doLike I doWhen the blinds are closedSometimesLike tonightThey whisper'You're going to have to tell someone eventually'But I prefer silenceIt'.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1251465/ That you are rightAnd somehowMy mind is making itself sickI should've knownI would never meet someoneWho would meld to me Like liquid metalAnd reinforceEveything I believeBecause my beliefs are not rightOr goodOr beautifulI know thisIt's difficultTo point to yourselfAnd say This doesn't ma.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1251462/ We went too deepTraveled past the point of comfortWe dug too far into each other's skinReached where the blood comes fromIt's thereBetween usthe things we never didcoated in an angry silenceWe will never be loversBut somehowWe've become like two threads interwovenI close my eyes and can feel you wra.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1250049/ Strangers, friends, or those that are confusedIt doesn't really matterI need someone's hands on meLike sunlight to my eyes I crave it more than loveMore than truthMore than sanity http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1250043/ I don't know how it grew so largeso ingrained in my teethI don't know how I becameso enveloped in shards of hatemy skin tricked metold me tales you could never satisfythey say the things inside mecan never be rightwhy do I feel you in the broken bitsa humiliation I can't swallowmaybe I am .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1249039/ there are things I don't like to admit to myselflike the way I lay heremy chest hurting when I grasp for your nameit's the weakness of my wordsthe way they slink out of my headand wither down to the floorI lead my thoughts into a graveyardfull of misplaced hopes and dreamsI keep my breath silentbegg.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1249008/ so I took what was left of himkept it in my pocketsafe from the rain they say you were an astronaut a miracle makera son of the unknowna mender of space You fondled oceans with your smilegathered birds under your fingertipsfed them the secrets of your past You became larger than .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1248997/ Before I ever didThat's how the story goes for meI take you apart in the darkAnd you see some magic in it But there was never any magicThere was never any usThe days crawl by on broken legsAnd I cannot lift them up http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1246605/ with a wide smile and a confident walkhe led me into bed and out againhe didn't know mebut he loved what I stood forhe loved how my skin lookedunder his handssometimes I could smellhis eagernessI had seen that reaching in eyes beforeI gave inas I was born to dohe took me everywhere but home&nbs.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1246592/ it floatsface downshame building in its bloated formyou can poke itwith a stickturn it aroundtrying to finda sidea bit more interestingbut its what you would expecta gruesome picture ofsomething trying to breathebut not succeeding it poisons the waterhereso pleasekeep your pollutionto your.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1246579/ my ears would split openand turn on methere are parts of you that still lingerthe stale scent wafers in and outof my mind I don't feel myself collapseI just look in the mirror one day and I'm goneI slide my hands down my bodybut my skin never answers I feed myself namesthey crawl abou.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1246063/ but I choked on itthe reality of it was hard to swallow I placed your name in my moutha stain I won't forgive myselfour beginning was a mistakeour closeness a jokeboys come out of the crackslooking for someplace on meto hold on tobut my body is smoothand I don't leave parts of itlying arou.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1246049/ are hung in throatso you cant help but taste themwhen you're aloneyou are the only bit of myselfI don't despisebut you ache just like the resta throbbing I refuse to feelI spend my thoughts wiselynot believing too closelybecause faith is for the lostthe stupid and the blindI know feelings are fleeti.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1245731/ you can't see itbut it's therespilling filthinto your veinsyou can't grasp itits when the right and the wrongblur togetherand you can feelyourself slipyou let themdig their hands inside of youand sometimesthey leave with morethan what they came foryou can screambut any part of you that ever caredis .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1245547/ or just a dirty consequenceI had comingI sew my secrets into the ballsof my feetso I can pretendI'm constantly walking away from themthey sayeverything fades with timebut I smell you in my own shadowlurkingreminding me of all the thingsI can never beas the years take my smilesI wonderif dead ho.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1213706/ if I don't belong to anybodymy eyes have died alreadythe only stains I wear are coldand my fireis just a torn up wayof provingthat paindoesn't leave mealonelike you do http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/1213700/ you keep your ignorance wrapped around youlike a sweat stained sheeti tilt my eyes upand my mouth followseager and waiting i wouldn't dareto call youbaby but my fingers touch your backbegging for attentioni have no rightto your smileyet i caused it there are few of us leftwho kee.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/678009/ I have so many secrets I can't keep them all closeThey itch to break out of my mouth and reach their limbs across foreign skinI court disasterLet the hints fall from my pockets as I pass by your sleeping mindMy words couldn't penetrate the haze caused by her lips on your dickI make a horrible bystan.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/675307/ It was one of those nightsWhere the moments blur into each otherAnd I'm standing outside your houseYou seem a bit taller than usualAnd you smell so f*****g goodI look downdebating whether you can tellHow unsettled and completely stoned I amI follow you insideShe is there with her scrapbooks and her .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/675302/ When I no longer think that loving youIs a mistakeI have burned bridgesForsaken my loverLost skin and bloodTrying to wrestle you from my bodyYet you remainYou remainAttached to my sinking soul like a goddamn vultureTearing out the piecesYou believe you can salvageSwallowing the bitsI no longer recog.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/671447/ you can deny it all you wantbut i have bought you with wordsand my whispered weaknesseshave kept your mind cloudedwith my name i never meant to burden you with affectionso i'll harvest kisses from strangersand hold your dreams in my hands when i'm alonepress my breath against themcoaxing a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/666001/ it wasn't that i didn't want youyou are naive enoughto think i am worth savingi've seen the way your eyestry to pull me towards your goodnessbut i don't belong thereour attachment is deeper than i could ever breakit holds me stillwhen i feed myself to my own demonswhen i slipwhen the need to feel is.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/663572/ I am delving deeper tonighttaking the skin offin an effortto make you love and hate mesimultaneouslyI stumble aboutwanting answers that can only harmI'm afraidso damn afraidthat you've forgotten my nameand the heart beneath it http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/655343/ the only lies you live bybelong to those cold hands you holdi can break youwith one heated kissbut that's more truththan i'm prepared to deal withso i convince silence to be my only allydisguise my traitorous eyesand unhealthy tongueyou don't need more than one pair of legswrapped around youyou don'.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/651016/ Was just a click of the phone hanging upAnd even though your hands were hardAnd your words were mostly meant to cutYou always came home to meAnd would find me under the coversYour mouth would devour my skinAnd your hands would strip me of any decencyAll the self control I showed othersDissolvedAs yo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/635267/ This restlessness eats away at mei don’t want to pretend anymoreI’d rather give you upThan watch you love someone elseYou can’t force me to stand hereWhile happiness spills outside your mouthI hate itBecause I was not the causeYou can keep your cake faced memoriesYour pocket full o.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/634547/ you would take this timeto ignore the sightof me falling on my kneesi can't say it againyou will have to pourthe whiskey down my throatand pry the words outwith your fingersbut you aren't that kind of manthe kind i'm used tothe ones that just need an empty roomas a reason to reach for my beltyou wer.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/628742/ I will write you a letterIn a language you don’t understandYou can pick apart the wordsThat my silence couldn’t stopYou take me into cornersQuestion all my liesI can feel the heatThe drum of panicGrasping at my heartI turn my head awayAfraid you’ll read weakness in my eyesYour body.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/616887/ i found your memorywandering the streets aloneits cold lipspaced beside mei was searching for passionand received torment insteadi've had years to cope with my own sinsyours still chafe in some placesthe bitterness is still a comfortand while you prayi cursewe add fuel to the firethat lies betw.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/companynotkept/614793/