http://slow.writerscafe.org/AshleyJ586 The original writings of author Ashley en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776011615 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 I will always wonder what it feels like to wake up and not feel the weightof everything I ever did and everything I ever said laying oh so heavilyacross my chest. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AshleyJ586/2846881/ My mind is fighting battles with itself.My heart is intolerable, it can't seem to let certain people go.They hang on like I have the strength to hold all of what they have dragged me through. 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