http://slow.writerscafe.org/Cloubay The original writings of author Ceri Louise Baylis en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1775986582 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Time to grow up behave like an adult now get away with anything in twenties somehowBut now a year older that milestones been reached 30 years old  time to join the scrapheapIts better to be over the hill than under it how old are you now? not easy to admitNot to worry t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714070/ I wrote this to a friend following her break up. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714067/  Time and time again I am completely misunderstood Not conforming to social norms that I shouldI will rebel if people disapprove the way I live my life If told to do something I’ll do it more for spiteAs I cause no one trouble I am my own worst enemy .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714065/ We have not got a lot of memories that are fond Do not share the norms of a family bondLacking shared memories seen as fond Of times that  we were happy for onceTied by blood shared a home so differently raised You unnoticed and my misbehaviour praised Discar.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714063/ Down the twisting, turning broken dark path, leading through the darkest woodland,There's a trail that will challenge any sort of man, Pathways ending up where the walk had began,Warning signs say the path will end up where you first started, Reaching the same path to which they’d .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714061/ In my village there's not a lot Interesting people there is not The land that time has forgotMisguided people And over the top Gossips talk s**t they also lack wit Original thinkers? Not one bit Minds so small not filled with fact No ones reputation left in tact Gossips .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714058/ I wrote this for my friends mother. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714056/ Looking back at the past relationship I've hadI question why I stayed when it was so badThe only conclusion I can draw he had me hook line and sinker Controlled confined from life, no more an original thinkerI thought as I saw what he was doing I was in control But his m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714055/ Don’t ever lie to me I will tell you this just onceI Want to hear truth not a dishonest response,I’m good at detecting lies when there toldOne lie leads to many as deceit takes control,If lies are told, trust is shatteredTruth and honesty were all that mattered,If it&rsqu.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714054/ This is dedicated to my lovely dog Ruby who saved me from losing my way. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714048/ Another year has passed youare not here In this life,A loving mother, nainy & Devoted wife.19th December was to celebrate your birthOnly memories ae left of your time on this earthMum I loved you: sorrow remainsI pray your now free from life's heartache and painsIn life what .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714044/ I was very angry when i wrote this poem about my controlling ex. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714042/ When I sit alone and reminisce I constantly think of what I missThe years have gone so quick somehow Memories of you, so distant now Unanswered questions still linger on…. Why did you do it?Why not confide in someone?Why didn’t you tell us how bad it had gotten?.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714040/ Are cards ours to play or are they set to decide our life's role? Are cards dealt for us  and is fate in control?Is it my decisions and choices that lead the way ? Or is it a path destined to guide us one way?Does one make his or her own luck?Is it by choice we.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714037/ I have faith that the universe is in controlAnd that angels look out each and every soulI believe that fate guides us where to beOur lives entwined through destinyIs it my decisions and choices that lead the way ?Or is it a path destined to guide us one way?Does one make his or her o.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714034/ Imagination wild with dreamsand A happy childhood so it seemsFrom a young age my future was setThen tragedy and our family metDad had taken fate in to his own controlBy deciding when to end his life roleIt’s seen as a selfish act by someI think he was brave to use that gunB.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714032/ Positive thinking brought positive results I bounced back from my minds insultsIm free from the torture my mind endured How bad I truly was seems absurdFree to enjoy the future once moreCan use my mind for what its intended for No paranoia stress free I now.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714030/ Its now time life will reward me with a new hello I am only just starting a new and have far to go Today is the day Now is the timeTo take back the life that is rightfully mine Don’t dwell, don’t think don’t hesitate Find the positive from any past mist.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714024/ No more bad thoughts its gota stopBe positive and grateful for all I've gotNo more mental breakdowns keep it togetherI cant be mentally unstable for everIts the start of a new beginning todayI must block out the negative forces at playI am a good person being psychotic is hardI won.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714016/  To brave to say goodbye to oldIts now time life will reward me with a new helloI am only just starting a new and have far to goToday is the day Now is the timeTo take back the life that is rightfully mineDon’t dwell, don’t think don’t hesitateFind the posi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714015/ Your loyal and trustworthy; a true special kind Beautiful soul in spirit & mindYou are a person whom I can depend Thank you for being such a good friendThank you for being supportive & not giving up You were persistent to pull me out of that rut Your caring, sha.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714013/ How do you feel? Is a question I hate No point explaining; you cannot relateI don’t want to talk I don’t want to share You could be sincere I really don't care What's on your mind? another s**t line Easily avoided by saying I'm fineIf I told you, you’d regr.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714007/ How do you feel? Is a question I hate No point explaining; you cannot relateI don’t want to talk I don’t want to share You could be sincere I really don't care What's on your mind? another s**t line Easily avoided by saying I'm fineIf I told you, you’d regr.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1714000/ Sick of paranoia tired of absurd thoughtsConstant grind hearing things assumptions being distraughtIf its not derogatory voices talking constantly about meRandom thought will make me act quite obsessivelyCant shake the feeling im being watched all the timeConstant stress of security be.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1713998/ Untamed self control my own worst enemy I can beI can not be the poison and the remedyThe voices I hear are not in my headI hear the words as if they’ve been said.Horrific thoughts I must endureCollective voices worse than beforeThe madness escalates, reducing me to an unbalanc.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1713995/ I was trying to steer clear of the type I adoreRefrain from where I've went wrong beforeLad about town with that criminal behaviourIn the long run he will not work in my favourBut I cant help my emotions drawn in by they're actFull of something more that the nice boy had lackedShallo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1713990/ You really truly helped me being there when no-one was,The fact you came to be with me meant such an awful lot,You revived my instability just by being you,Thank you for you time and strength; helping me get through, People always say that -in the times of need they&.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1713840/ How do you feel? Is a question I hate No point explaining; you cannot relateI don’t want to talk I don’t want to share You could be sincere I really don't care What's on your mind? another s**t line Easily avoided by saying I'm fineIf I told you, you’d regr.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1713839/ I can inform, enlighten, give an ideaBut cant explain how my reality can become so severe Yes you know I hear voices and I never can feel safe But you will never know truly what my mind can create Nor will anyone comprehend what it is like..To continuously hear voic.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1713834/ Sick of paranoia tired of absurd thoughtsConstant grind hearing things assumptions being distraughtIf its not derogatory voices talking constantly about meRandom thought will make me act quite obsessivelyCant shake the feeling im being watched all the timeConstant stress of security be.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1713830/ Untamed self control my own worst enemy I can beI can not be the poison and the remedyThe voices I hear are not in my headI hear the words as if they’ve been said.Horrific thoughts I must endureCollective voices worse than beforeThe madness escalates, reducing me to an unbalanc.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1713824/ The fondness and affection which I always came to give,Has now gone away, simply ceases to exist,My mind is now contained by a deep and heavy mist-Cant concentrate on others, nothing more I have to give,My troubles are now amplified as I proceed to liveMy sister stopped me grieving pus.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1713817/  You lived your life, now you’ve passed away Cremated with nothing left to decayGrief endlessly lingers more so some days, eternal peace for your soul I do pray.I have had to begin the process of changeOur home we once shared I've kept just the same I'm now co.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1713816/ If time is a healer when will it become easier?I long for your presence I want you here with me I sense you spirit but cannot seeThe day that you left this world behind A piece of my being died insideTheres an empty hole left behind Heartache and sorrow are.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1713815/ When I went away, You remained at home I’m sorry I left you all aloneThere was one guaranteeThat I always Knew that when I came home I came home to youYou were my constant, my rockMy mother and friendOn you I did leaned on, I could always dependThe day that you left this wo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1713812/ It's hard to grasp grief when it does come?Different for all when losing someoneIt never came on the day that you diedOr following weeks that passed on byWhen your body was gone and turned into ashesGrief remained distant and I stayed distractedDistraction from sinking alone in own t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1713810/ A life of living,A life of lossA life of giving,A life that lostLasting memoriesA life adheredEnjoyment gathered inYounger yearsTo all who knew a beautiful kindCaring, sharing an intelligent mindNow at peaceNow she sleepsHer soul now goneBeyond our reachSleep peaceful.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1713808/ There just aren't enough words for me to describe How much you are missed and how much I now cryA vital piece is now missing at homeWhen I enter the house and I'm all aloneWhen you were there and I had been awayIt never mattered when or what dayI could always rely on you to be there.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1713806/ There’s an empty hole Left behindHeartache and sorrow are entwinedIn every action, thought and feeling I haveA big part is missing since you have passedSadness tainting memories with lost hopeExternally showing to all I can copeTo be true to myself I allow myself time Whist I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Cloubay/1713803/