http://slow.writerscafe.org/ameliawothe The original writings of author Amelia Wothe en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1775981123 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 You could shoot off my sideTo study my stomach and the digestion of my words.Cannibalistic butterflies released in my lungsBy a hand  thrust between my teeth and down my throatSo my voice is swallowed by swooshing as tiny wings beat about.Nests on my larynx trap t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/2092886/ I want to talkThe words inside me spill over I have so much to say So much to scream These words rattle aroundLike marbles in a jar Gleaming and shining They shatter if you shake too hard I choke on my feeling words On my anger and sadness words The happy ho.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/2092542/ My favorite shoes are platform stilettos That make me 6 foot 2I love to lay sprawled on the floorAnd wrangle my arms and legs into an imitation of danceI love to lift my rib cageTo reach the top shelf flat-footedBut I love these thingsWith a wet-plaster smileMelting off in the sun .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/2092308/ You were always so f*****g beautifulAnd I think I hated you for itBecause I couldn’t rip my eyes awayI hurts to be without youAnd it hurts to be with youYou’re tearing me apartAnd you’re not even here“Give her a birthday hug for meBut don’t tell her .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/2091517/ You made me feel smallInsignificant Worthless"No one will ever love you but me"That's what made me stayBut now I knowMy worth is not measuredIn people that love meBut in people I loveAnd I have more people I would live forThan you have to die forLove is my new religionMy.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/2088977/ Tonight I will cryI will scream and shakeAnd damn the stars That dare to shine so brightlyI will crawl into my caveCurl around my broken heartAnd lick my wounds cleanI will curse the day I met youAnd ache for your presenceThe warmth of your armsAnd the strength of your hands.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/2083797/ Dear YouYou know who you areF**k you, come backYou selfish, selfish girlDon't you know I didn't mean it?Spitting your words back at youDon't you know you hurt me?So I wanted you to hurtYou smacked me off my feetBacked me into a cornerWhere I screamedAnd you couldn't shed a tear.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/2076125/ I am the dragon slayer I fight fire with fire Born from the hell in my stomach From each dragon I waste I take scales to build my armor I dig them into my skin and around my heart I take sinews and teeth and sew myself together As if with needle and thread I fe.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1835258/ Everything sucks and no one is happy I'll build myself a little hut Out of green Kit Kats And snuggle up to caramel biscuits Fading to sleep As sticky sweetness weighs me down Swallows me whole And drowns me http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1830122/ BisexualBisectional Bisected Taken apart piece by piece And sorted But together not enough Too straight for the gays Too gay for the straights Like we're playing a game of crazy eights But I'm the joker Don't fit in with the suits No value to call my.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1830120/ I feel like an iPhone On low power mode Enabled again and again Whenever the icon appears Saying 'hey, we're ready, lets go' Someone says no And that someone is inside me Stuck in my machinery Playing with gears and wires Making me always feel so tired http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1830118/ My stitching is coming undoneAnd I'm becoming a pile of scraps and fluffI cannot feel my fingertipsBecause my appendages have become unhingedI cannot send the impulse to moveTo pull myself back togetherI can only sit under a treeWith my feet in the sun and my face in the shadeAnd lis.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1807297/ Do I look happy to you? Is this smile doing the job it's supposed to do? Am I fooling you? Looking fine isn't feeling fine It's amazing what you can hide Behind a grin and sparkling eyes My face is my disguise Crafted from years of lies Of 'it's alright's and .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1803679/ Trigger warning: imagery of self-harm http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1786966/ They say home is where the heart is, But what if you lost your heart On the highway Somewhere between Kentucky and West Virginia? Are you supposed to chase it? Hunt down all the broken pieces And glue them back together again? Create a kaleidoscope ornament .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1785250/ I don't want their eyesBehind eyes there are liesI don't want their mouthsBecause lips guard teethI don't want their handsFingers are tipped with nailsI just want to feel prettyFor me http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1780060/ Someone turned up the volume on my painAnd I can see it screeching in front of my eyesRed around white around blue around blackPathways of blood leading through shocking whiteTo a vibrant, striated blue that fades into darknessYet that darkness is not emptyIt is full of the hundreds of n.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1774724/ I've never felt the need to write poetry about my dogsNever thought I could capture the will-o-wisps on paperOr paint the long lines of graceful muzzles in wordsThe light trot of their tiny, fragile feetPassing easily over what would cut my solesThe playful puff of curled tails shimmying i.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1773500/ I have so many words in my head Swirling and whirling and smashing and crashing And denting up this head case A psychedelic hurricane of colored language Full of “thee”s and “thou”s and “wherewithal”s Gusts of fiery red “my dearest.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1772661/ Love tastes like scorched semi-sweet chocolateFrom the bottom of a pancakeCooked and served hot on a Saturday morningWhile we’re puttering around the kitchenIn our sweatpants and ugly t-shirts We won’t get dressed todayWe may not even speak to each otherEach doing thei.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1772135/ The Ibold kitchen, warm and soft Yellow light glinting off shiny steel The butcher block table glowing satin smooth Dusty green linoleum floor Staring up at the wood paneled ceiling My childhood looks back at me From the front of the refrigerator And the cupboa.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1771558/ Filled with crackling laughter Bright and hot and dangerous It's screaming for release Hoping to burst out of my chest And leave this charred mortal coil behind Magnesium burning in my soul Beautiful and strong but destined to die quickly With just a pile of ashe.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1770409/ Spiraling off the edge Whirling whizzing dizzy life Vibrating out from my bones Burnt up inside by my own raging feelings Rising out of my brain like smoke Filling a balloon and floating away Looking down at my body with pity Pulling puppet strings Forcing.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1770408/ I think the biggest lie about depressionIs that every day is the same,The worst day of your lifeOver and over and over againThe big black pit waiting every secondFor you to trip and misstep into itThe gray cloud of rain incessantly pouring Drenching you to the boneSo that warm a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1770399/ Love is beautifulLove is kindLove has a smile so wideIt goes up past their eyesAnd calls me to followUntil we touch the skyLove is smallLove is softLove fits in my armsLike they belong thereGently breathing in and outWhile I listen to their heartbeatLove is anxiousLove is h.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1767550/ My brain wasn't built to be happyWasn't built to host the friends I need The armchairs are uncomfortable And the refreshments are stale I must have forgotten to give out the Wifi password And the air conditioning was on too high Clattering and rattling and distracting ever.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1767546/ Dopa-gone Like with the wind Chasing their dreams In some distant pasture Seroto-not-with-you That's all that mattered They didn't care where they went As long as they weren't here Oxyto-see-ya A careless wave Was all that they left me When th.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1766636/ I'm sorryWhat for?EverythingAll of itI always ruin itI'm sorryI'm sorryI'm sorryI didn't mean toWhat are you talking about?Mean to do what?Deep breaths, you're goodI'm wrongIt's all wrongNot goodNot not goodI can'tI just can'tYes, you canYou can do thisCan't can't can't can't can'tWhat am I doingWhy.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1765263/ My awful is Holding my eyes open So wide That I can force back tears My awful is Wanting to fall down Curl up And just disappear My awful is Going to sleep at night Hoping To not wake up in the morning My awful is Hating the photos o.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1765258/ I'd like to dedicate this to Libby http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1756277/ My Nonna, the LoraxIs a great protectorOf trees, of children and grandchildren.She is a strong woman, fretful and kindWho always walks forward with bold stridesEven with a metal knee and aging bones.She can seemingly pull magic from the earthWe dug into the creek bed and found clayCl.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1751474/ I feel Like spun sugar on melty ice cream Things are sweet and sparkling Dancing lightly over dish and tongue Crystalline ballerinas of fractallic glucose Fragile But spun sugar doesn't last Especially on melty ice cream The sweet cream floods the fractals&n.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1743934/ "Today feels like a Puppy Dog Eyes Day" I say. Your forehead creases and your nose crunches and you're confused So I open my mouth to explain But you turn away. I start to speak and you look back at me "You know when you do Puppy Dog Eyes, And you open your eye.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1743932/ There's a storm on the beach today The wind is howling and the waves are pushed this way and that Lightning cracks like a whip across the sky and thunder follows meekly after Tomorrow the sand will be covered in little divets Tiny hills and valleys, pockmark scars to be brushed.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1743930/ It may not seem like a big dealBut he touched my hips like they belonged to himIt may not seem like a big deal But he always made his problems more important than mine It may not seem like a big deal But he knew all about me and still didn't care. It doesn't seem like a big deal&.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1740621/ More often than not my words get in my wayThey leave me when I need them and I don't know what to sayThey chain me tight inside myself, not free until I drownThey unlock the gate to hell and gently lead me downMy words are the obstacle lying in my pathYou wouldn't believe the things they do when I i.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1739751/ When I was born femaleMy parents rejoicedThey wrapped me in a pink blanketTook me home, kept me clean and fedPrepared me to face the things I'd lostWhen I was born femaleI lost the rights to my bodyFor there is no door to lock between my legsAnd my hips are just handles for a man to holdI became pie.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1739749/ Weigh me on your scaleAnd tell me what I'm worthDoes the sorrow on my hipsOr happiness in my thighsMake me somehow less?Does the anger across my stomachOr fear along my armsOr anything I carryWhich make my number growWhich tick cold lines higherDo they make me worth less?Does my weight define me? http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1739747/ I'm walking along with my fatherI haven't seen him in monthsThe Wisconsin air is crispAnd the prairie is brown, blonde, and red.We have miles more to goAlready I cannot feel my thighsThrough my thin skinny jeans.Silence has fallen today, but softlyLike the leaves in an autumn that has passedSo slowl.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1739735/ I am coldClaimed by crystalsAnd strengthened by my own despair.When shatteredI may become gently fallen snowLike anything long-brokenMy edges have softened with timeSo it is a surprise To find me burrowed under you skinCausing a deep acheLike your body is a bruiseBleeding from the inside out.Or.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1739731/ I've lost my lilac colored pencilOnly my violet one is hereWhere did it go?Has it rolled under the desk?Or gotten lost in the blankets?I can imitate the colorBut it's not the sameA whole shade is gone From my little canvas worldA layer of vitality vanishedFrom bright skies and clear watersAnd s.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1739728/ The lips between my legs do not make me womanNor is it my mammary glandsThe soot I spread on my eyelashes so my eyes may have some sort of allure for youDoes not make me womanThe settling of a skirt on the flare of my hipsThis neither does woman make of meNor does rouge on my lips nor blush I pinch .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1739727/ Realizing you're in love is hard.Whether it's finding your heart has been ripped out of you,Without regard to your thoughts and feelings on the matter,And now sits, whole and beating, in another's hands.Or waking up to find that what you've slowly given awayWasn't just time and energy, but a special.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1739725/ Hello,I am Amelia WotheAnd I'm afraid of you.Whoever and wherever I am afraid of your eyes and your earsAnd the lips that say what they see and hearI'm afraid that what you see of me is untrueAnd I'm afraid that it isn'tI'm afraid of judgement and derisionI'm afraid of kindness and friendshipFo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1739723/ Life is strangeAnd I've been trying To live one of 'oh well'sInstead of 'what if's But not with youI will take any regretsAs long as you have none http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1739722/ One two three walls andA door in my face andI can touch them all andThey're so cold andI can't breathe andYou can't tell and What does that mean andDo you care andDo I matter and I haven't heard from you in a while andIt adds up, it all adds up likeOne and one and one walls andA door in my.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1739715/ Time drips by like molassesDragging through my thoughtsGetting caught in the tanglesAnd leaving a thin filmGlimmering like oil on pavementCreating rainbow illusionsA mirage of memories And those hazy days gone byBefore time, happiness never endedNeither did sorrowA ball of yarn made up of lifeW.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/ameliawothe/1739709/