http://slow.writerscafe.org/beautifulybroken The original writings of author beauitifulybroken en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776078112 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 A poem of Loss http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2908208/ This is a vulnerable piece about the struggles of addiction and the stories we tell ourselves while struggling with alcohol. or at least the stories I tell myself. I hope someone feels seen and heard. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2899906/  In the early years of my lifesunshine shone inwindowreflections of therainbow sun catchermaking rainbow’son the floorI’d be dancingaround not a care in theworldsuch a free soul,i used to sneak inthrough the side windowwhen i forgot my keyclimb up on .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2899687/ Does anyone else feel this way with old friends? It's like a silent breakup on their end, and your left wondering if you did something wrong or if you were never really that important to begin with. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2897826/ Friendship breakups suck http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2897823/ phantoms in my head againTelling me there’s something wrongIt’s so hard to see the truth when the lies are convincing me they are realIm an imposter in my own lifegoing through the stages without much feelinglead by false promises from the old methinking if i burn it all down I&rsqu.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2897555/ Trigger warning ** For disordered eating http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2895835/ The need to be and feel strong http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2895727/ The light at the end of the tunnel after years of debilitating depression. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2887679/ Tear stained cheeksYour words slicing through my heartI ripped out my heart for youfingers stained with my bloodBut still I’m not good enough for your loveYou express with the distance in your eyeswhere you grimace when you used to smileI remember when you used to laugh at my sillinessNow it&r.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2884382/ The season of depression seems to be lifting, and I feel at peace. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2882221/  I saw the sun todaywhen i arose from mybedand peered out the windowthe sky didn’tlook so grayi didn’t seem torealize how muted the colors had becomeuntil the beautifulrays of color hit mewith the warm heatof the suni had beenaccompanied by a rain cloudsoak.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2880178/ This little light of mine, Where did you go?I’d like to followYou used to be so bright insideNow you’ve dimmedYou’ve seem to become mutedIt’s hard to see you nowThis little light of mineSeems to keep fighting to beingextinguishedbut i fight for her, Because she is m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2878610/ This is more so about the persona, or the mask I wear around other people with the expectation to always be happy & perfect. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2876680/ Im not quite sure how to articulatewhat consumes mymindi get caught inloops of the anxious kindlike what if i wakeup one dayand i can’t seeany of life’s coloursor something worselike not what if im neverable to be a motherthese worries seemto be more fertile.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2876679/  You tried to kiss medespite my protestso i stuffed aflower in your mouthi bet it taste asbitteras the taste youleft in mineyou asked me if ithink you deserved iti raise my eyebrowsin replydon’t try to takethings that aren’t yourstake this as youwarning.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2876228/  we take a walk in the forestbefore daylighthandin hand, thesnow shimmering in the moonlighttherush of the riversucha comforting soundicould walk with you foreverwatchingas the wind gently moves snowoff the leavesas it surrounds ussparklinglike fairy dust http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2876226/ My darlingIt was never about you being too muchOr not enoughThat was never in questionYou offered yourself as a giftWrapped in a pretty box with a bowAnd they threw it awayBroke your heartMade you feel like you weren’t worthy,They couldn’t see youFor the treasure you truly arePeople can&.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2875959/ Sit down Cry your heart outUntil your eyes feel heavy with sleepLook in the mirrorHate the body you keepPinch your fat between your fingers so hardIt leaves bruises, but you don’t bleedDelude yourself, think that you can hate yourselfBecause to love yourself is too deepYou&rs.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2875956/ I feel it on the precipicejust beyond my reachthe feeling that everything will be okaymaybe better than what i thinkit’s a small glimmer of hope that keeps me goingwaking up and tryingeven when my bones achewith weariness and my mind questionswhy are we still hereit's the k.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2875951/  I'm dancing round and roundwith the ghost ofwho we once wereI wonder how wecould be so close in moments and strangers in thenextwas it something Ididsome thoughtlessthing that i saidor were you neverreally herejust an illusion something i dreamtupa deep .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2875949/ If i was lostadrift in the seawould you see me?If i lost my lifeboatwould you save me?I’ve been screaming for yearsfrom the insidemy rib cage has claw marksblood on my fingertipstrying to break out of this cage http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2875937/ Why is it that i questioneverything inside ofmei am inspired by youbut discouraged ofwhats in mei camouflage mysadnessin colours of pinkand bluebut inside i feeltoo darka fire waiting toconsumei dare not let itoutfor i don’tunderstand it’s powerit&rsqu.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2874984/ If i cry into the riverwill it wash my tears awayI’m weary of hiding my painthis life feels like a never-ending gameand I’m always losingI hear the sadness in my voiceeven when I’m trying to be optimistici feel the anxiety in my heartfor the fear of rejection is so .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2873286/ I see youYou want to be freeFree like meWithout any restraint of what could beWe frolick in the field of flowersDreaming it into realitySkipping together like we were kidsLying in the grass underneath the starsSheathed in love, in your armsWe lie together until the sun comes upIt.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2872869/ She sang me to sleep, Tucked me inI fell in deepTo darkness that only I knowI fell and fellFor what seems like yearsWoke up in a bed full of tearsThe dream consumed full daysI tried to wakeBut the nightmare continued despite my protestIt lasted month upon monthUntil i woke up in a fogAnother si.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2872765/ Sit down Cry your heart outUntil your eyes feel heavy with sleepLook in the mirrorHate the body you keepPinch your fat between your fingers so hardIt leaves bruises, but you don’t bleedDelude yourself, think that you can hate yourselfBecause to love yourself is too deepYou’ve used c.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2872764/ Sometimes rhe words that are meant to feel comforting cause feeling of anything but comfort. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2872141/ Strip me of my sadness Let me bury it in the groundIt’s accumulated in my headBecome my crownI let everyone else be angryBut where do i fit inI feel like i don’t deserve to feel my emotionsBottle everything in I’m full of pressureAny minute I’ll explodeThese feeling.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2871729/ I long for connectiondon't we all?but at times it feels too much out of my graspI hit a wallslide down and unleash it allthe fear, the anger, the rejectionit's funny how i hurt my own feelingslaughable at bestmy mind makes things so much biggerthat friendship feels like a testi'm not meant to passno.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2870850/ I often question myself as to whymy mind goes blank when people askwhat are some of your favourite thingsmaybe i'm not used to interest so i blush and say something that makes no sensei beat myself up because of thisi'm thinking it because i've been hurti have passions, manybut i don't let peop.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2870848/ I tend to fixate on old problemsThey've become old books on shelves filled with dustI can't seem to clean offI struggle to strip myself cleanForgiveness is not yet my friendSo I wallow in my spiderweb filled spaceContent to live in the pastSometimes I get restlessAnd wish I could tak.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2870540/ I Wander from room to roomTrying to feel what is missingI can’t seem to place what I’m looking forBelongingi search high and low, Maybe it’s under my pillowSensing that it’s closeNew beginningsI’m frantic in my searchTearing apart all obstaclesMy pillows are filled.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2870100/ Waking up in night sweatsTrying to slip out of the darknessThat seems to capture my mind The thought of lonelinessBrings me to stillnessBut there’s no comfort in sightI dream about not being heardBegging for you to listenMaybe im processing your wordsThey pierce my skinI’m invisible.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2870099/ Slipping into adark place maybe it's just my headspacei'm sinking beneath the surfacethinking maybe i deserve thisi know that my friendships are sufferingbut i can't seem to walk out of the closetthat holds all my skeletonstheir fingers linger on my skinas I turn the doorknob to runi'm sinking .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2868246/ Is it that i'm too muchor am I just not enoughmy throat is sore and raw from yellingbegging for your loveyou say that i'm enough but your actions seem to speak differentit's the way you turn your headwhen im begging you to listenmaybe it's my abandonment issuesthat are leading me astrayso i hol.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2867812/ My heart is brokeni've given so much of itit's splintered into tiny peicesthe things that kept me goingseem to not matter all that muchto the people i care about the mostthey shrug it offit becomes lostin the space between my heartit weighs on meoften pulls me downI question why it is I surround mys.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2867811/ I’ve seen it shatter youIn only a way addiction doesDrop by drop it consumed youYou became lostIn the way it made you feel And the way it made life easierThe demons seemed to drownAlong with your happinessI’ve seen the way you copedAnd the toll it had on youIt put fear in meThat I c.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2867810/ You can find meWherever the water dancesIt laps up my sadness If I'm ever lost to youYou can find me in the madnessOf the wind in my hairMaking me dance to the magicThats runs between my fingers like fireBurning my desire To reach higher then ever beforeIf im lost to youYou can find me the.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2867807/ Sometimes it's hard to not get swept up in the river of life. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2867539/ When the weight of the world is upon your shoulders http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2867538/  Am I real?I’m not so sureI look in the mirrorI see myselfbut I don’t feelitMaybe I’m too numbto feel anythinganymoreI’m a compliationof everyone I knowSo I don’t know meanymoreLittle bit of dothis, and thatmy foundation isbuild on o.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2866787/ The truth is I’m scared to be vulnerableit’s uncomfortablepinching my skinbetween my fingersthe self hate alwayslingersI’m frozen in timewhen i used to besmallnow i take up toomuch spaceat less then 5 feettallI’m wider thanmost my sizei realize .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2866785/ It’s as simpleAs daisies need the sunIt’s as easy as summer rainMaking you sing in glee with warmthYou scream your heart outBut only into your pillowSo others don’t see your painYou radiate the sun with all its warmthWhen you feel like a rain cloud on a good dayYou stomp the leaves.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2864826/ I’m lost in my mind againLost in the hollowBetween the reality im inAnd stories inShallow water, waves lapping at my shinsTrying to figure it outIt’s hard to begin againI am beginning to see myselfFor who i once wasBefore all the remarksOf those surrounding meI’m lost in my mi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2863822/ You’re okay, You're okayYou're okayI repeat this to myself It seems like every second of every dayI rarely let my demons be seenBecause what a scene that would beThey tear at me from the insideUntil i feel raw and exposedI don’t know when this all beganThe pain seeped in a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2863120/ Life is a lot less lonely when you have people who understand and relate to you. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2862860/ I was thirteenstaring in the mirrorat the face before mewith red lipstick and eye liner the first day my sister did my makeupI felt prettyThen it turned into me dying my hair brownbecause I fell in love when I was blondewith a guy who didn't know what he had until I was gone it was sh.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2862850/ No one ever told methat this is what it'd be liketo grow upI used to scream into pillow's beat them up until the feathers popped outbecause I felt unheardI'd pick up all my stuffed animalsthrow them at the doorstarting a commotionbecause i thought it'd make you hear me moreall it did was make y.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2862849/ I think I forgot myself along the way. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/beautifulybroken/2862848/