http://slow.writerscafe.org/AJBELL The original writings of author AJ Bell en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776121399 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 You’re so charismatic. 
You make all of these girls fall for you and then you drop them like its nothing.Just move on to the next one like none of it ever happened. 
I spent 8 years of my life completely devoted to you. 
I spent most of that time feeling unrequ.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1792816/ I'm just barely getting byHolding it together as long as I can Keep a straight face Don't think about itDon't look at itDon't touch itDon't you f*****g dareI catch a glimpse of it out of the corner of my eye And it's burns in an unfamiliar wayI haven't come to terms with the fact t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1778593/ It's 2pm and it's pouring outside.Mother Nature is singing of sorrow.I am numb, for the most part.Until that ache in my chest begins.I've never felt anything like this before.I can feel my heart being ripped in two.After so many years we merged together.So nicely you couldn't even see .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1778544/ I can feel myself slipping Everything is slowly fading to black The stars don't shine anymore They've all burnt out Their flame distinguished Nothing left but steam in the craters it created in the earth when it fellMuch like our loveAnd I hope it doesn't have to be this way I'm hopi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1778049/ I always thought I knew what heartache was.I thought I'd felt the worst of it all.That it could never hurt more than it was hurting right then.That at least if I had my heart broken in the future, it couldn't feel any worse than it did in that moment.But I was wrong.As each day passes I fi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1776726/ Last night you told me my love was conditional. That I am selfish, once again. You tricked me. Told me you wanted to be more emotionally available. Told me you wanted to be there for me. After you told me my love was conditional, you said you couldn’t think of one reas.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1776033/ On a scale of one to ten how bad does it hurt? The doctor always asks this before giving you any form of relief.And you lie and say it’s an 8 when it’s really a 5.Afraid the remedy related to the number won’t be strong enough. Afraid you’ll still feel the pain and t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1776029/ Tonight I’ll stand on the ledge Stare down at the rocks below Watch as the waves crash in and kiss the shoreThe ones I’ve stared down at one too many times And I’ll fantasize about the fallAnd the blood And the carnage It comes in waves, you know And I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1776028/ You’ll never know how many times a day I fantasize about running a blade across my skin.Feeling that dull burn and the pull of my flesh against the blade.The sweet crimson relief pouring from my soul.I feel the blackness in me.It’s toxic, flooding my veins with poison.Causing sepsis with.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757651/ DevastatedLonelyConfusedHopelessI’ve felt this way for monthsThe sky has been crying sinceI often wonder if it sees me suffering?If it’s nature trying to console me?That’s crazy, I knowBut I still can’t help but wonderEvery time I start to cry, I mean really cry, it starts to.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757649/ I don’t know what we are nowI just know it’s not what it wasI fear that you don’t want to changeI fear you can’t see through my flawsThere are so many thoughts running through my headIt’s hard to keep track of what is real and what is notI feel like I’ve been side.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757648/ Where do you go when you’ve strayed so far from the path?Is there any turning back?Do you just keep moving forward; with hope that eventually it will take you where you need to be?Trudging down the trail as fast as you can; trying to find an exit, with no successI feel like I’ve been run.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757645/ Once upon a time; in a land so far away, there lived a girl who suffered in silence and fed on the decay. A hopeful heart so withered and lost with not much left to give. This is the story of my madness and my fight to find the will to live. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757643/ I am standing here on the ledgeWatching the rocks slowly crumble beneath my feetI’ve never felt as alone as I do right nowI am isolated, trapped in my own hellOh what a pathetic site I must beYou’ve done this to yourself, you knowIt’s your fault and you must payAnd pay I willLet&rs.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757641/ Every memory lingers under the patches I made to the wallEvery wound hides under the new layer of skinEvery heartache I ever felt is inside this tiny boxEvery tear fills this river that I’m swimming inAnd if you know me well, you know that I can’t swimSo I just wade around a while, tryin.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757639/ http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757636/ When the sun goes down and everything gets quietThe slideshow begins to playA flashbulb memory of you dancing wildly around the piles of decayForever tormenting me and feeding on any bit of happiness that dares to shine throughShining a light on you kissing her, and me kissing you…I feel so d.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757635/ I woke this morning with a heavy heart and pessimism on my brain.I thought of all that could go wrong and has again and again.I reached out from the darkness to pull the curtains back.Shadows scattered feverishly, hiding from the Suns attack. As the rays seeped in, it seared my retinas.I felt i.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757632/ She’s leaving soon and she’ll take my heart with her Care for it my dear, for it’s the only one I’ve gotDrunken evenings spent on balconiesDo you think I can fly?Maybe tonight I’ll take a swan diveSpread my arms and just soar“If happy little bluebirds fly bey.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757631/ The sun was shining that day, on that fateful afternoonA perfect specimen of green and flowers full in bloomWalk the path to the other side, to the forest dark and drearyAlong the pond of empty souls, who scream of horrific pain and furryThey will tell you the story of that fateful afternoonThe one .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757630/ I looked into your eyes and I knew that it was time.I reached out to touch your heart but found it was missing.It was time for me to say goodbye.I knew I needed to let you go.I needed to walk out with my head held high.I had been chasing your for miles and miles, with no respite.And when I looked in.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757625/ I watched you walk out the door, my heart in handOff to another town, to another woman's house And I know you won't be home tonight but I’ll stay up anywayIn case you come aroundIn case you need somethingI’ll always be here for youNo matter the circumstance I made a promise to .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757624/ Time is running outThe clock is ticking fast Tick tick tickA time bomb waiting to implode I’m just buying time Until the hour glass has dropped its last grain of sand No more turning it right side up and starting all over again I don’t know how to fake it anymore.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757623/ A part of me loves with all of my heartA part of me hates right from the startA part of me hides with secrets of the pastA part of me cries for that love that will lastA part of me longs for the passion I once knewA part of me recoils and only opens to fewA part of me hopes for a brighter tomorrowBu.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757618/ The holidays are coming fast and my heart sinks as I count down each day. Replaying every memory, every smile and every damn Christmas song you’d always play. I can’t imagine the holidays without you. I did not hang any lights or pick out a Christmas tree. There are n.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757617/ One winter’s night under the cold December moonI woke from my slumber to a mournful tuneIt crept from my ears and down the hallBut when I followed it nothing was there at allSo I peered out the window just in time to seeA pale silhouette sadly smiling at meAs her song grew louder, my ears bega.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757615/ It’s 3am and I can’t sleepMy hearts too heavy to dreamMy eyes burn as I walk through the hallsTrying to find shelter from my thoughtsI’ve got a strange feeling I guess heartache is what it’s called And I carry her with me everywhere I go I’ve learned to h.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/AJBELL/1757607/