http://slow.writerscafe.org/Teddybearlee The original writings of author Teddybearlee en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776047021 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Seriously...that was just freaky....I don't know how you heard me, how you knew I needed you right then....but dear God, thank you dearest, you may make a believer of me one day again yet. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1948474/ F**k...what a night. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1948471/ I still love you, I know it was never your intention to hurt me, but sometimes I still have to vent. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1947604/ When you speak it's like God reading His own pagesYour words carry weight that put to rest all the arguing of sagesThere is a possibility that love can heal all woundsI feel the salve in your spoken voiceAn unmistakable feel in your touchAnd it's heartbreaking these cracks will stay, we have no choi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1945966/ It's true we may never be, but I know our love is real http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1944646/ I'm wrapped up in trouble with youI surrendered a long time agoCan't fight this feeling anymoreSo here's to adding more scars to the showBelieve it you're the sun or the coffinI could be enlightened or deadIt should scare me my heart's in your handsBut I needed a place to rest my headI have no idea .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1943439/ Why would you poke holes in the umbrellaWhen it's raining outsideHow could you engrave my tombBefore my heart's even diedYou would crumple up my poemBefore even finishing the wordsAnd step on these rosesClaiming your vision was blurredYou made perfect deadShot it in the headYou made perfect deadAll .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1943429/ I could be your TeddybearJust lay your head on my chest, therePut your arm around me tightAnd squeeze with you love, all your mightTell me your story from start to endI will listen patiently and without prejudice thenAllow me to brush the hair from your eyesI'll be here for you when no one else trie.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1942339/ I crashed in to your worldBut you seemed to be waitingYour arms were wide openAnd the link we began creatingI cried and I made you cryI'm sorry I thought they were hollowI didn't realize you felt me like thatI never believed all my words you would followYou said my love was uniqueWith a strength you.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1942260/ I don't recall feeling this empty for so longIs this numbness what people consider strong?When you can't even cry because your so hollowAnd the cuts don't hurt from the jagged pills you swallowTime is just flowing through my fingers and I don't careWalking through the whole of my days with an empty .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1942147/ Please don't tell me I'm blessedAnd I no longer think I want your prayersThese cruel tricks I burn throughWould make me think God only loves playersHow much more humble can I beWhen my only thoughts and feelings are how to breatheWhat more is needed to enlighten meFrom this lesson book I have a degr.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1941861/ Yes...I've been in to my anne rice books lately http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1941814/ I can imagine it so easilyYou, walking down the hall, in light colorsYou usually wear light colors, and they suit you so wellWe make eye contactThe tears start welling up in meYou come up and put your arms around meMy voice cracks whispering I love you, I've missed youYour voice cracks whispering in.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1940968/ Let me be your guardian angelYour protection against the worldThat has hurt you and warped youMy dearest angel of a girlAs you lay down to sleepPicture my strength around your bedImagine me blessing your roomSo the nightmares stay gone and deadClose your eyes and smileKnowing that I can bring safety.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1940582/ Maybe I shouldn't have said this was a gameIt's just you're so hot and cold, but rightfully soBut these feelings don't have an exact nameAt least not one that my mind acknowledges to knowDammit, yes I love you but there's confusion mixed inComplicated is an understatement for whats at workEvery time.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1940580/ Just yesterday I assumed the games were overAbout done picking the pavement out of my skullBut I guess the games aren't finished yetYou wrote me off and had time over which to mullI amazed myself at how easily I accepted the lossBut then again I still love my one true sunAnd you message me seeking w.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1939724/ Things that should never be almost wereYou slammed on the breaks and I went through the windshieldWhat's another day of dusting myself offFeels like my whole life is spent trying to healNo one is to blame for this round thoughIt's not like we knew our demons would bond from those chairsYou never exp.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1939423/ This one goes out to my dearest friend....I felt from the moment we met I had known you for lifetimes, different than the bond I shared with my wife...a wholly unique experience. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1937338/ Always all or nothing except with "You"I want to believe but what can I doEvery time I get on my knees and prayMy life gets worse, I swear this is trueOh how I want to believe in beautiful heavenAnd our lives just a part of the journeyBut the words passed down in "Your Name"My logical mind refuses t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1935758/ It's 4 am, just trying to vent I guess, same old s**t I always say. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1935746/ My beautiful crutchMy dearest shoulderYes I can say I love youBut not in the same as the old herWe have a bond of magicOf truths shared and hands heldAnd dear god how I love youAs you picked me up when I fellYou've been my cheerleaderAnd even more than that a friendI can't express my feelings for yo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1932706/ just mumbling about something that upset me this morning. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1932386/ In your eyesI was the knight with the shining sword and shieldIn my eyesYou were the angel, with a touch that could healIn their eyesWe were everything the world always wantedIn Satan's eyesAnything beautiful, is to be tauntedIn God's eyesLeave everything in the hands of manIn demon eyesCrush them a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1931934/ Not feeling todayBut when am I everAnymore, neverTwo years goneYou're still playing gamesMakin sureI'll never be betterThe old anxietyAnd it's brother depressionMixed with your mind fuckWell, shitHow's a manTo liveNo peace of mindGood luck http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1931929/ On the dayI for real lose youI hopefully get to keep my childWhen the judge walks awayAll is said and doneMy emotions will go wildTake your old name backTake your house worthI'm sure I'll just stare at the ring on my handI will "win" my childAnd no longer have a "wife"It will interesting to see wher.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1931745/ Grant me strength to see this through, as the battle comes closer. Believe in me, believe in myself, I can do this. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1931744/ I'm weak, I've cried for 2 years now almost...and it's safer that way....but if she pulls out the other side of me.... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1930510/ These papers technically undo all we didExcept they can't undo we had a kidInstead it's for you, so you can be freeBut I can't, never, this ring's part of meNo judge or attorney is a higher powerThan my heart, the part that refuses to cowerMy mind is forced to play these gamesTo save my finances, my.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1930506/ Shadowed stairsEmpty staresFires burningStomach turningDevil loomingVoices boomingAbuse receivedSmile deceivedI'm numbCan't runFrom bornTil wornEvery dayI paySaveless babyGrown maybeGod ignoredDevil scoredMy fateMy stateTortured soulNo goalDying dayTurning grayBury meHurry please http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1928978/ I feel myself accepting a fate I will never in my lifetime be happy withBut what choice to I have when it is the free will of another that dictatesI'll never give up, my motto etched in to my heart and soulThere is nothing anymore within to give to my battleAnything left in me is just barely enough .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1928682/ Why can't he be like every other guyYou know, the bad ones the girls likeFuck 'em and leave 'emHop on and take a hikeGiving a damn has gotten him nowhereJust another loser without a clueRespecting and cherishing, why?None of these ladies is looking for youHe will be walked all over time and againSta.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1928679/ Not these dreams that awake me in tearsOf you telling me the sum of all of my fearsOf leaving and cheating and never having lovedOf not satisfying you or being like a sex god from aboveNot these dreams that make me lay wide awakeOf you abusing me in the end with take take take takeOf telling me I su.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1928411/ A coma I have been inLost to the worldFriends given upCan I blame them?  I guess notI don't exist outside anymoreEverything hurtsFrom words to images to soundsBy instincts, I have shut downWith no desire to turn onI remember everythingA walking hemorrhageNo tourniquet except a graveWill stop th.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1928212/ Yes...I still have the urge to drag a knife across my chestYes...my mind will not shut off to give my body any restI want to fall down screaming at the top of my lungs randomlyAnd shove my hand in and pull out my heart so you see I bleedI"m as intense of a man as I have ever been known to beDespite .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1926547/ Tennyson was wrongI don't believe he knew what love wasIt killsPremature deathIt is heroinKnowing heavenAnd losing itNever againRussian roulette To those of a soft heartPeople dieBroken spiritsWhy wake upYou had the best and know itDull colorsVibrancy goneIt's better to never have known http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1926331/ There she isWalking towards meThere goes the butterfliesThis is only the 12113th time we've done thisShe raises her arms and puts them gently around my neckAnd looks up in to my eyes that have calmedWhere did the rest of the world go?It doesn't matter honestlyThis is the momentThe ONLY momentAnd the.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1926327/ We were a love storyAlike and different from every otherSo full of hopes and dreamsAnd together we were beautifulWe both came up hardFrom nothing and dirtBut as a teamWe dug our way outOur future was brightHard work was workingLove drove our desiresTo prove anything was possibleMaybe not rags to ric.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1926162/ I can't function when there's a problem I can't comprehendMy mind so focused refusing to believe I'll never understandHow come there are no answers that I can seem to acceptMy train of thought seems to be lost forever in debtNo cures no lectures no writings seem to knowOpinions from those are care a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1925769/ Tick, tick, tickHow the inside of my headSo wants to explodeWires get crossedAs hope starts to erodeSnap, snap, snapChange the train of thoughtTo daydreams I want to believeBefore the pain of realityBrings me to my kneesTwitch, twitch, twitchHow off the rocker am IThe struggle of loss is killing meS.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1925763/ You flow through my veinsLike wind through the grainGently brushing through my insideJust enough to be constantNever enough to be redundantAll through me you glideIn every eye blinkI always feel the linkCircling back to youIn oceans and snowAnd redwood trees that growAll so natural and trueHeaven's .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1924946/ I've forfeited my life for youAll that's left I swear is still trueIs my dedication through and throughMy heart made a decision I can't undoMay lightning strike me down if I lieThe rivers drown me from the tears I cryI don't give a f**k what the odds belieI am yours until the day I dieIt doesn't mat.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1924521/ I was one with youNever aloneYou completed the puzzleOf my lifeUnder the skies the sun shoneRepleting an unbelieving soulLike long lost loversOblivious to the outside worldValleys of flowers spawned where we treadEven the myths would be jealousI gave you what I could give no otherThat promise of ete.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1923715/ I don't recognize that old boy in the mirrorThose eyes reflect a world drained of lightAnd a mouth incapable of showing a smileHis shoulders sag like he's given up the fightMore gray in his beard than natural for his ageHis hair falling out more easilyHe looks incapable of having a laughJust staring.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1923693/ Happy messages from happy peopleOr just people holding out hopeAre there answers in your medicinesMine just whispered a nopeThere's more for you in lifeI promise there's another sideA love awaits you in timeI read these and I cryHow I wish these were the truthBut they died with the fairy talesNo key.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1923522/ So....this is the healing everyone is talking aboutTurned numb, turned dumb, feeling inside outLike an ocean turned to sand stuck in the sunA relic stuck in amber, soul weighing a tonIs this better feeling dead instead of like I'm dyingInstead of crying I say I'm fine getting use to lyingTurning fak.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1923230/ A million writings on wallsAbout how you have to be happy with yourselfA million questions I haveAbout getting from here to thereOh, is it that simple?Just do it?Just appreciate what you do have?Just be thankful you're alive?I think my brain may be different than yoursI think my soul may be made of .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1922725/ I hope this is hell we're inI've drawn my bloodI've starved my bodyMy mind has burned to ashLifelong dreams come trueOnly to fall from my graspNo amount of workCan bring me salvationHands forever out of reachWords always falling short of my earsChest pains I ignoreBecause what is physical pain to th.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1922457/ I am not a godI control nothing around meMy thoughts run rampart regardless of what I desirePeace.....I no longer rememberI am a manOn level with any other animalThe strong survive and dominateI whimper and lick my woundsI am not built for running the wildJust as I was not built to be your mateThere.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1922091/ In the beginningIt was walking you to your carThe kiss goodbyeYou having to slide in from the passenger side doorIt was you stopping inWith your spongebob shirt onLeaving notes for your friendWalking out leaving me smiling after you were long goneIt was the first dateThe bowling, the pool, the eatnp.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1922083/ Is it just me or is it getting darkerLike the curtain is closing on my lifeThe lights aren't as bright as they once wereAnd my mind isn't as clear as yesterdayI wonder what is killing meCancer, stress, anxietyProbably all threeI guess none of this should be a surpriseI had the heart of a young pupYe.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Teddybearlee/1914418/