http://slow.writerscafe.org/mpulsejoy The original writings of author Joy Carver en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1775995158 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 My last semblance of sanity hanging by a threadThe pain in my head and heart are too much to bareI look to run and find feet incapable of movementStuck in the mire of my self formed lifeBlinded by my never ending need to be loved I dance for only a moment haltingly in my jesters cap for al.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mpulsejoy/1815334/ As my feet bury themselves in the sand, I watch the glowing, silvery fairies dance along the crest of the waves. As their mesmerizing dance entrances my mind, my thoughts become serene. The darkness envelops the final glimpse of the light and the silkiness of the moons glow refreshes my troubled min.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mpulsejoy/1795103/ Describing the feelings and emotions felt the moment the proverbial straw lands on the camel's back http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mpulsejoy/1792136/ An observation I have made lately has me quite confused.  Women...what is up with you guys lately?? I mean, really?? I may date myself with this, which is unfortunate in itself to have to say.  However, when I was younger (Thank god, these lessons have carried through my whole life) we wer.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mpulsejoy/1792135/ The beautiful part about life is that there are redo's. There are new beginnings and endless opportunities for you to try again. The only difficult requirement is that you have to recognize that you do not know it all and you still have things to learn.  My "I'm still learning" list is quite lo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mpulsejoy/1792133/ Jealousy in the air tonight..I can tell...lolMy observation on the subject of jealousy is that people see something in you that they are missing in themselves.  Instead of looking back at themselves and attempting to correct whatever is wrong they would rather attempt to ruin yours and take awa.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mpulsejoy/1792131/ I had a interesting discovery just the other day that I thought I would share. Let's discuss this new phenomenom called Cougars or Pumas or whatever other terminology is lingering about. I am not sure what is what or if there is even a difference. 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It seems like it occurs for various different reasons.  Some never grow up and move on from their High School days of gossiping , sniping, pointing fingers, looking down on people and generally just being immature pain in the asses. T.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mpulsejoy/1792125/ The circle of life is a continous merry go round of experiencesThere are important rules on the merry go round of lifeRemember it is like rereading a book just to find some new thought or emotion that was missed the first go aroundEach time the circle passes by you reach out to grab u.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mpulsejoy/1792124/ Instead of tears imagination will rainDeep within the recesses of my heart and soulResides a painter, a writer and a poetOut thru my mind, mouth and hands will fall inspiration and creationLike a puzzle falling slowly togetherAnd spread before you will be my reborn paradise http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mpulsejoy/1792123/ Invincible, I may have thought to be feelingThough thoughts and resolve are surely reelingEach hour where sleep evades, strength is slowly degradingMy soul screams after answers that are inevitably fadingBridge between mind, body and soul has ultimately collapsedDiscord and distrust become consisten.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mpulsejoy/1792122/  I would like to say thank you to all of the participants who showed up for the auditions for the understudy role of myself.  You all showed lots of enthusiasm and some put forth extraordinary effort. However, I have to report at this time there is no need for this role to be filled. .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mpulsejoy/1792121/ I am wondering if I am the only one wandering around this planet in a horribly designed, and flawed bubble.  Life throws blow after blow at you. Some you dodge successfully and some hit you right in the gut, taking the very breath out of you and crumpling you to your knees.  Sometimes.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mpulsejoy/1792117/ I have been on the path of Joy...I have came a long way in this past year to recovering myself mentally, and spiritually. It is amazing the things that you lose or the parts of you that change when you are in a relationship. It happens so slowly that no one even realizes.I find that the&nb.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mpulsejoy/1792116/ There are times in your life where you find yourself at a moral crossroad. Something so seemingly harmless, you find is taking you down a path you never envisioned yourself traveling. The knowledge isn't always immediate, the recognition of potential wrong doesn't always jump up and smack you in the.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mpulsejoy/1792115/ The lessons of life are hard sometimes, at least as hard as we allow them to be. We grow up with all the trust in the world, we believe in pixie dust, we have stars in our eyes and we all believe that fire flies light the world. Yet, sooner or later, we all have to go thru the life lesson of discove.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mpulsejoy/1792096/ Your soul twists and turns into knots that feel as if they will entangle you eternally. The haze of confusion and exhaustion take over and spin your mind into a myriad of anger and sadness until you collapse from the dizziness of emotions. 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