http://slow.writerscafe.org/mkuznesov The original writings of author midnight reaper en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776054778 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 https://soundcloud.com/user-248322489/tillitsover http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2822973/ https://soundcloud.com/user-248322489/copy-paste?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2818095/ https://soundcloud.com/user-248322489/finality http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2807238/ https://soundcloud.com/user-248322489/withdraw http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2805544/ https://soundcloud.com/user-248322489/the-agony http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2805096/ Sweet light of daySave me from myselfDarkness in dismayPay, to keep it on a shelfSweet light of dayPray for meSafe and away See and dismayThe sweet light of dayMay cover grave mistakesBake in fireAshes of empireSeen, by sweet light of dayI say dissolve in your armsFar from simple charmsOh sweet.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2794880/ I give you a set of nikees just like me its emptyenvy the cold air insidehide behind fabric lab rat no maverickno praise needed a mat in my coffin for comfortoften I raise this question two breaths shortoften my thoughts scatteredlike the nikes I bought with mud splattered and fabric .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2794879/ symmetry stopping the electricitylike villainy tops off the toxicitytrapped in placeface a whole blunt and beat my own caseto keep lying to my own facehighin the kitchencooking crackbitchin and throwning up my racks robbed and then attacklike i'm invading iraq got the bag backsack empty in.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2794878/ https://soundcloud.com/user-248322489/mixed-emotions?si=856ba78afa234ee890c8e454881ca730 http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2792648/ https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/pct5 http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2488089/ https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/CYb2 http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2486536/ https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/fiCm http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2486535/ Heavy rain on the pavementWhat is it even meant to beI wanna flea, I wanna fly, I wanna get so high, and maybe I'll touch the sky Heavy rain on the pavement Taking its toll on meWater in the basementBeginning to drown meOnly if I could find my keys I would go outsideOnly if I found c.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2461633/ My anger leads to frustrationIt all feels like chemical castrationGone so fast showed no one caredFaired better alone anywaysAny days, feels like nothing is realAnd what is it beneath to feelPush the needle into the armSaying self love not harmOh I'm broken sanity taken for a token.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2394161/ Only will be a few weeks but feels like foreverLonging to be togetherI miss youThe smell of roses and gentle hands I miss youWishing to be bundled together like by rubberbandsOh I wanna be with youOur hands woven togetherI miss youI miss youFeelsjke I need to come back tomorrow http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2353272/ Don't wanna sleepCause I'll start thinkingShit gets too deepAnd I'll start drinkingWhat does it matter if I'm just copingRoll another blunt and get on smokingToking like there is no tomorrow Now I'm crying, can't ease my sorrowToo high to go to sleepToo sober to not think deepSo I guess I'll ju.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2173853/ My hands shakeAching from the moment I awake Taking bitter pills to keep it at bay But it says I won't win it's gameIt jeers at me as I begin to frayOh I can see the decay driving me insaneSlowly the doors begins to closeBut it had to remind me with the crowsSitting among the trees, scream.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2173321/ empty fields in my dreamsempty thoughts in my headreplaying the scenesas i'm weighted down with leadnow everything fadescurtain call draw the shadestry and sleep but I can already see the shapewaiting for me is empty fields and no escape http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2171254/ No I don't want to pay taxesNo I don't want to go to workAll I want to do is watch my cactuspop the cork and watch the molasses color the floor like artworkcolor a rainbow I don't know what to do maybe sleeping all day is my quirkMaybe it's just what I doOh don't judge me i'm no foolunlike.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2167738/ immortal he is forsaken and shackled to the grave by the gods. Freedom from this hell he seeks. Months and years drag on encased in his tomb. He cries out for mercy as sanity wanes he still remains. His mind turns to plotting his revenge. He begins to find ways to lure mortals to his tomb as the god.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2167526/ You don't understand how it's really like to dreamYou don't understand how it's like to fiend for something unseenFor something behind the glass screen Now have you ever felt, have you ever felt the need to disappearFar away from home far away from everythingSomehow it might makes things.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2164932/ Soak my wings in oil and set them ablazeI too will fly so high like Icarus falling from the skyDon't you worry this isn't a phaseI just want to flyHigh above the cloudsWhere it never rainsFor here my failures grow in moundsIf you keep me here I won't stay saneThunder and rainTaking me in againBack i.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2164930/ 1:I am thedirt facing towards the sunPraying forthis day to be my last I’m shunnedaway into the darkness not noticed by anyoneThe airwon’t last and it’s running thinI just hopemy death comes fastI begin tocryTo tryTo feelaliveBut I .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2160510/ snow melts slowly into the streamOnly patience can bring you the beautyWe all march under the same themeblind to the melting snow like it's our duty Too anxious and scared to go downstreamThe illness inside convincing us we are destined to nowhereAll we could ever do is let off some steamCan't .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2158801/ Go away I don't want to see you here I'll do it for you, vanish without a traceDon't know what to sayLook at what you made, broken and damnedNever saw the love behind the tears and apologiesYou'd do it againGo away http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2145199/ No this shouldn't be happeningThere's poison in the waterthe rope is snappingI told her I loved herI have to say no but it's too lateWhole thing is spiraling and I love her even morePush him outFeel guiltyBut I love herShe's my wife nowwe try to forget it ever happenedyet it's imprinted alreadyFeel .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2144293/ Seems like something is wrong.Forced into the open.The daze and dazzle the light has on eyes tainted by darkness, stumbling to find balance a stone stands in the way, descend into a well deep enough to drown.The gray smooth unemotional slabs make escape impossible only clawing as hope begins to.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2142699/ Seems like today was the day.The day that it was taken.Forced into the open.open into a well that drowns me.Seems like I can't find something to hold onto.Day it was taken.My Innocence, My life, My will.Now I cry with no choice of going back.How could this happen, how could this happen?I was not pre.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2142694/ Oh my love for you is greatYour red hair blowing in the wind as my hand locks in yours Oh my love for you is great Times will and have changed But for us we will always stay the same For you my love, my heart throbs and I love you so much http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2117576/ Trying to understand where I went wrongEverything seems to be patternsThe patterns of addictionThe patterns of paralysisTrying to understand where it all startedEverything seems to be off Off about the smile Off about the motivationTrying to understand how long it would last this time roun.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2116734/ I'm lostin a dazesay your prayersin a hazegods have leftI'm lostTrying to gripTrying to rememberI'm lostAnd is it ever ok?Cut yourself to feelAnd can I ever feelCut yourself to bleedSo lost in everythingI will destroy youSo empty inside nowI will desecrate youI'm lostin a dazesay your prayersin a ha.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2115232/ Test me, you know how this endsFight me, you will pay the priceKill me, I will suffocate youYour an animalRage in your eyesYou fight yourselfLet me inLet me inLet me controlLet me controlYour an animalRage in your eyesYou fight yourselfTest meFight meKill meIn the end you suffocate http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2115230/ Scratching at your throatSlit your wristsIt's happening, againRelapse Oh noPeeling the skinKnife to your throatTesting yourself, againRelapse Oh noTears roll downThis isn't the end Close your eyes The painAgain  http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2115229/ Something in the waySomething blocking the passage wayCan't breatheCan't standAnd it's all for nothingAnd with all the pain feltalone, crying, dementedSomething in the waySomething blocking the passage wayLift upLeaveLeave me alone http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2115149/ All I want is youTouch you, feel youOh can you screamScream when I desecrate youScream when I play with youPlay with your corpsesay your last goodbyes FeelConsumeYou http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2115148/ Numb again, what a surpriseWaking up feeling six feet underCan't stand being soberTelling myself that it's fineWrapped in my cocoon With no where to goNumb AgainNever stood to be soberAnd everything will be fine http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2115145/ Oh mother where may you be please catch me in your armsOh i'm afraid of the world outside of mineOh mother where may you be im not preparedNot prepared to leave this nestOh mother where may you be hold me in your armsAnswer my criesOh mother where may you be I won't surviveNo I won't http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2115095/ I'm lostIn a dazeIn a hazeI'm lostTrying to gripTrying to rememberI'm lostAnd is it ever ok?And can I ever feel?So lost in everythingSo empty inside nowI'm lostIn a dazeIn a haze http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2112605/ Everyone has their cancerDeep within it burnsIt creeps to the surface in any way it canIt singes the ego and soulTo know how heavy you are on others is a weight of its ownEveryone has their cancer Deep within it burnsYet mends and plasters false happinessCancer is now a stone sinking fastNow I .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2110023/ Happy when i'm wasted and high up in the cloudsDown to earth and deep in the pits of darkness when i'm soberCry every time I can't get outLaugh every time I get wasted againSlowly it seems I destroy myselfYet i'm too busy up in the clouds to careYet i'm too afraid to get back downHappy when i'm wast.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2110022/ Blow his brainsWhat a shameNever went farFailed poetToo depressedNever went farKicked and squirmedcared too muchBlow his brainsWhat a shameNever went farFailed everythingToo late to regretNever went far http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2110021/ I feel so torn and frayedThey say they understand the painI feel so sick and retardedThey say they can helpMy mind is filled with pain, can't get awayGet high just to escapeI scream yet no one hears itI feel so torn and frayedThey say they understand the painI feel so sick and retardedThey say they .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2108796/ Feeling sadFeeling suicide Choose the poison Collapse to the fllor and stareFeeling sadFeeling suicideStart to think, yeahCome on it can't be that badCome on get upFeeling sadFeeling suicideYeahI all ready chose Collapse to the floor and stareStart to think, yeah http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2107976/ I burn up in the flames Flames that consume meHere comes another break downDown to my core I shakeNeed for pity growsGrows to a cancer that eats awayI burn up brightBright till dimI will only be an empty shellShell of what used to beI burn up in the flamesFlames that consume meAnd ask, ask how .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2104333/ Crucify me for my crimesTell me I'm wrongTell me what I want to hearCrucify me for my crimesHad another episodeHad another chance to bleedCrucify me for my crimesNow I regret Now it closesCrucify me for my crimesI repent I regretLeave me aloneYou dragged yourself hereYou are guiltyYou knew.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2100495/ Sleep by the mountain sideDrink the cyanideSee itWaterSeems like The poison streamDown your throat now It goesSleep by the mountain sideClose your eyesIt's warmCyanideSeems like I'ts killing me http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2098404/ I've been loosing my mind trying to hold on to something realI've been scratching at the wounds I madeBleeding from my finger tipsI say it's okok to fall apartok to die day by dayI say it's okI feel like I'm decaying bit by bitI've been loosing my mind, trying to hold onto something realI've been sc.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2098403/ Get through this dayJust to f**k up!How am I alive?My life like a funeralHow did it end up like this?Get through this dayJust to f**k up!Can I already leave?My Life like a funeral No one will show upNow I'm sleeping through the daysI'm a f**k upHow did it get like this?This endless nightmareTry.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2098402/ I've been on my phone all day Feeling okThey trying to my medicine Feeling upsetYou can paint the picture yourselfHow come I'm spacing outProbably because of no medicine I've been on my phone all dayFeeling okThey tying to take my medicine Feeling upset I just wanna live my .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2097297/ I'm miscreatedMiscreated from the startDoing drugs to get away from myselfI'm miscreated Miscreated from the startTrying to keep myself distracted Now i'm in a destructive moodThrow things across the room till they breakBreak my fist against the wallnow i'm on my knees screaming I'm m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mkuznesov/2097295/