http://slow.writerscafe.org/i_am_not_here The original writings of author morosemaladies en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776006503 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 I'd been studying magic realism and having an episode and I wanted to take the feelings of having bpd and experiencing a mutual fp attachment and put them into one piece. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/i_am_not_here/2791143/ This was something short I did as a warmup for class, but I ended up liking the concept and needed somewhere to put it till I feel like reworking it and fleshing it out. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/i_am_not_here/2791142/ im a much different person than i was when i frist started. my depression hasnt gone away, but its morphed into something much more manageable. :) this is a little vent poem written in prose... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/i_am_not_here/1967793/ there is a deep echoing emptiness in my chestthese notes of sorrow reverb in my mindmy eyes are hellholes, but i smile all the samemy stomach is a whirlpool of angry hornets my entire body aches with piercing thoughtsall i wanted was youi love how you take my breath awayyour eyes dra.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/i_am_not_here/1933993/ it started out smallthe other kids didnt like methere was a small thought in the back of my mindvoices saying that i should hurt them backbut i didnti didnt want to hurt anyoneeventually the injuries got worsei was tired of being their dummyi lashed outi hurt one of themit felt.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/i_am_not_here/1847604/ i look down at myselfim hideouspretty on the outside, surebut im a monsterdont look at me i hope you cant see who i really amwhat i really ami pull out the bladeits been a long time, my lovei sit and think for a momentwhere can i hide new scars?i stare at my hipsperfect.i.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/i_am_not_here/1847316/ please leave mei cant live without youits inevitable itll only hurt you more if you stayplease leave mei dont want you getting hurtits better that wayi cant let you get hurtplease leave mei want to be left to fade away without youwhy would you want to stay with such a Monster?.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/i_am_not_here/1847311/ please stop pretending im okay your fake smiles just make the pain harder to beari know im a hypocrite im also a crass, idiotic, worthless piece of garbage what?you dont believe me?hahahaand i thought i was stupidstop http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/i_am_not_here/1847308/