http://slow.writerscafe.org/shaggykwb The original writings of author Ken Baldwin en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1775985112 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 The emptiness inside me, lingers.My heart breaking, repeatedly.Sorrow, my constant companion.Why can't I get over the loss?It hurts more than I can say.Every fiber of my being cries.Loneliness. There is nothing worse.  http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2785653/ Chapter Three is a flashback sequence that I have yet to finish. This here continues from where Chapter Two ended. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2785641/ CHAPTER TWO Startled awake. Wow. That was some dream. I go to roll over and find my glasses but I can't really move. In bringing my hands up to my face to wipe the groggy out of my eyes, find that I am WEARING my glasses, in bed. "What the?" Looking about, I see a dimly lit room, the glow of street .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2784829/ They say every morning is a new beginning,For me, every day starts the same,My heart breaking all over again.Overwhelming sadness, tears in my eyes,An emptiness that can't be filled,Feeling like I'm going to implode.I have everything I do not want,And have nothing that I need,A loneliness massacres .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2784680/ Afraid of my own mind.Horrible images from an ancient past.War drums, clanging swords.Screams, cries of the dying. Carrion birds feasting upon the dead. Afraid of the emotional wreck I'll be today.Debilitating heartbreak and loneliness.The waring inside myself,Stabbing, clawing from within.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2784609/ I've so much love to give,Carrying it around is painful.Its like an earthquake inside,Destroying me from within. It has poisoned my mind,Love unfulfilled for so long,It has turned to hate,For myself, a crumpled old man.Feels too late to change,And love myself again.Unworthy of a woman's touch,H.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2784199/ I've saved the world dozens of times.From all sorts of Armageddon. Zombies, nuclear war, vampires, asteroid,Virus, aliens, solar ejection, Skynet,To name a few. Not for humanity.Not because it's the right thing,Not to prove myself,But so my first love can live.Her unaware of my feelings,An.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2784197/ Sadness and apathy reign,Always on the verge of tears.Taking all of my effort,Just to do the bare minimum.When can I have my heart back?I have things to accomplish. Goals I want to achieve. But I'm stuck in this limbo.No freedom, no peace,Joy has been taken.Darkness replacing the light.&nb.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2784006/ Can't get her out of my mind,Heart stuck on past feelings.A perpetual broken state,For one that was never mine. Her and sorrow, companions,Carrying both unwillingly.Tears well in my eyes,As I write these words.Apathy, going through the motions.Can't even go to the store,Without seeing her eyes,.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2783879/ Heart heavy, a pit in my stomach. Mind foggy, hard to think at all. Can't go one day without f*****g up. Even when I'm paying attention. Body aches all over, just want to sleep. But restless slumber, nightmares. Weary, broken, no ambition.Struggling to just get out of b.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2783859/ A gift. A curse.Its all the same. Eons unfold. Nothing's changed. Horror and strife,Always unyielding. Death, a release,From this state. Prove to me,Its not the case.That heaven's gates,Forever wait. I feel empty,A need to be filled. By something else,That isn't me.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2783782/ Always feeling way too much,Don't know what to do with it. Bottle it up and I suffer more,Let it out and I feel like a freak.Stuck in a life I do not want,Can I change now that it's so late?Alcohol is my only relief,Drowning out the chaos. Tumult of a million lives,Haunts my soul's existen.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2783781/ A day that has not gotten easier with the passage of time. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2783707/ When the only way to cope with a bad day, is through, writing. First of 4, all written 8/6/21. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2783690/ Unfinished opening chapter of my novel. Originally began writing main part of story in 2008. This chapter finally finished 8/17/2021. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2783301/ Even though this is erotica, it was intended as serious literary work, attention to detail and all that. Originally written in late 2011 and posted on a blog. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2783296/ Ihave not the strength to anger away the sadness,Lastnight I drank myself into happy,Thismorning the physical pain is significant,Wakingfrom the the dream where she left me.HereI lay, not wanting to move a muscle,Thehell of my emptiness surrounds me,Hatingmy life withou.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2783275/ Originally posted to my first Twitter, 2/3/2011, 1:30pm http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2783274/ Originally posted to my first Twitter account 1/31/2011, 3:15pm http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2783273/ youneed a reminder of my love,foryou seem to have forgotten.i'veleft you twice, out of pain,bothdeep hurting, yet i returned.twicei tried to give my heart to another,andi couldn't pry you out of my soul.i'mscarred, been beaten and i've bled,youARE forgiven, just can.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2783272/ wehurt each other in atrocious ways,ourpain severed our connection.youfound another that could love you better,andi was left holding a raging heart.youpleaded for my return to you,asnothing more than friend.myanger didn't stay with me long,buti came back to you scar.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2783269/ thinkingof your anxiety, i worry.feelingyour fears, i am compassionate.thinkingof your smile, i smile too.feelingyour shine, i am happy.thinkingof your eyes, i am not afraid.feelingyour vision, i am transparent.thinkingof your scent, i am aroused.feelingyour lust, i am .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2783265/ Written to my Fiancé at the time. Inspired by looking out a waiting room window. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2782667/ My first ever attempt at writing something other than poetry. (This is Erotica) Posted contemporaneously with my other works from 2013 but I think a website administrator deleted it. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/2782642/ Shattered heart,Shattered dream.I tread, carefully,So no one can see,In how much pain,I truly be.Whirlwind romance,Enraptured soul,I was broken,Not long ago.She kissed my scars,and healed them all.Gave me hope.I stood tall.Again it crumbles,I fall back down.In low self esteem,My heart does drown.She.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/1112127/ You have brightened the darkness of my soul,Please don’t shine into the corners.For you will awaken the creatures there,They are ravenous and full of rage.I am very fond of you and there are better ways to see you get eaten. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/1110031/ This was written to cope with another bad morning but the story it tells is pure fiction http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/1110026/ Very macabre. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/1109985/ More writing to cope with a morning of pain. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/1109928/ Passion. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/1109921/ Feeling bad from hurting the woman I loved at the time. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/1109901/ floating. floating on a sea of clouds.feeling the sun for the first time.blinded from the darkness before.letting go of the past.she brought me here.my fear dissolving.trusting in the future.giving my heart to her.i know not where we’re going.nor do i care.floating is all that matters.floating.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/1109892/ New love. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/1109885/ About sexual frustration. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/1109870/ This was written on an extremely bad morning as a means of coping with physical pain and mental instability. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/shaggykwb/1109868/