http://slow.writerscafe.org/megwilke The original writings of author EmptyingHeart en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776026367 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Alive me?BarelyI am NothingI'm tryingReally tryingTo be happyAnd not letThe Monster Take ControlBut it's notEasyThe only thingLeft to tryI can'tThere are some thingsThat workBut it's chemicals In my brain ReactingIt's not MeAt workI'm just ther.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1965842/ One dayWhy?I just want OneOne day That I canBreathe easyOne dayThat I can't Hear the voicesDragging me downOne dayThat I can be Stressed freeOne day That I can notBe bothered by The world of peopleThat seem to have aSixth sense for pushing buttonsWhe.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1965841/ I am AloneI only have the OceanThis Ocean isn't likeAny others it isDifferentIt's an OceanThat came fromPainSorrowHeartacheLonelinessI am AloneWith my OceanSend a lifeguardA LifeguardTo bring me backTo the shoreTo bring backHappinessLaughterHopeLoveBack to meAnd my Ocean http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1912186/ ReliefI wish I Could share itWith YouThe weightIs gone andYet you hadNoneIt was justMeBut maybeThings can ChangeHopefully backTo normalOr as normalAs it canBeThere's one moreTrick I can doAnd I amGrateful for myWise FriendWho thought of itI justPrayIt doesn'tBackfireSo next timeYou could b.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1912184/ My fearGoneI had OthersHelping me Through the ScareIt should haveBeen You tooGranted IShould haveListened to YouThat's NoExcuseSociety has Made it hardFor you to BelieveThe Words I saidButYou should haveKnown that I'm Not like SocietyThat's NoExcuseI shouldHave waited untilI.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1912182/ The test I PassedTo their StandardsDon't get meWrongI am ProudThat I ImprovedI just wish It didn't comeAt a costOf waitingMore waitingMore timePassingBefore I canSeeThose that I LoveHearing theirVoicesMakes the wait EasierUntil the TimeIs up thenI'm backTo waitingTo move onWith the ne.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1911738/ Three SecondsI really didFailBut did IReally FailImprovementIs a SuccessJust if it'sNot to othersStandardsIt's considered aFailureFor this reasonOf Three SecondsTime is putOn holdPush backedTo see those thatI loveTomorrow wasThe dayNow it'sThe DayI need toPassI need toLeaveThat Day wasSuppose to beT.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1911733/ It has happenedIt wasDo or DieI DiedNot because of MeBut because theSystem was unreliableToday was theDayNow I have toFightTo prove somehowThat they wereWrongMy last optionTo FightTo proveLies in someone else'sHandsIf Not I willMiss out onFamilyMemoriesMilestonesTimeSpent here and Not ther.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1911732/ TomorrowIt's DoorDiePassor FailEven thoughThere's many moreChancesI can't take anyMoreIf I doI missOutOn FamilyFriendsAdventuresMilestonesI willNotMiss thisI will PassI will Not failSimply becauseThere isNo otherOption http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1911731/ SomehowSomewayI have One ChanceTo PassProve those that sayI can'tThat ICanSomewhereInside of me there Has to beStrengthEnergyPowerTo pass the TestThat holds meFrom myFutureHow can ICall my familySaying my failureIn someone else'sWordsThat are notMy ownHow can I notFailThe next timeI will findSt.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1911730/ TimeIt's a countdownA countdown that variesEverydayThis countdown for meIt ends soonBecause that's when you leaveWhile a countdown variesLeaving is permanentThere was no goodbyeAnd knowing you there Won't beA countdown brings the endUsually a new beginningFilled of joy and happinessThis countdo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1911711/ I am hereDo you see me?You look at meBut did you see the painOr did you see the piecesThe part of meThat has been missingBecause I have been searching for itIt's been weeks and I am starting to loose hopeIn ever finding that piece of me ever againThe only glimpse of this pieceIs in the memories of t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1911514/ It's when you're aloneWhen everything fallsApart The loneliness washes over meLike the tears falling from the cloudsBut nothing can wash away the truthThe truth that was hiddenWhile I was loving youYou weren't loving meOr caringYou were using meTo get what you missedNow you are goneI get nothin.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1911445/ I amTiredOf FailingOf DisappointingOf AnxietyOf WornOf FearOf LonelinessIt's theSame ThingEverydayBut the differentContextMakes itUniqueFor OnceI don'tWantTo beTiredI amTiredof beingTiredIt is GettingFrustratingI amDoneWith beingTiredYet thereIs NothingI canDoBut letEverythingFall intoPlaceor l.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1906590/ Why?You won'tSay a SingleWordMy beliefStill mayBe trueEven ifYou disagreeWhat happenedTo being Friends?I didApologizeFor howI may haveCame AcrossBut IWon't ApologizeFor myBeliefI'll give youSpaceBut pleasePleaseDo notShut MeOutBecauseAs ofRight NowI amIn thisAloneEven thoughThis Belie.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1906587/ I can'tHate youI can'tStay madAll I wantIs to Hear yourVoiceSee yourSmileAnd maybe Just MaybeBe heldIn yourArms AgainBut I'm ScaredThat those timesAre GoneErased fromThe FutureAnd that I willHave to goThrough the DarkAloneMaybe facingChanges to myLife that couldAlso be changesTo yours.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1906578/ I waitedI wasExcitedI missedYou And thenYou cameBut youWeren't happyTo be hereI know You didn'tWant to leaveHomeBut don't youCare?Didn't youMiss me?I'm sorryYou had to LeaveBut I'm hereAnd I thoughtThat maybeThat willMake a differenceBut I don'tSee itAnd itHurtsI'm sorry http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1906577/ This is newFear withoutSomeone to stand behindWhen you firstRealizeKnowing that thePossibility of gettingWorseScares meNothing canBeat this momentTo add onWith thisNew FearAloneHomesicknessThe combinationCan beHeartbreakingLeading toTearsAnd somehowFind a wayTo faceThisNew FearEven thoughYou already.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1906576/ BrokenDamagedDepressedLostAnd yetI think Finally I FoundHappinessOr aGlimpse ofItSometimes youWait for itThen youSee itOne glimpsesAnd it'sGoneI know itTakes workCommitmentBut sometimesAll INed isYouYour timeEspecially sinceYou're awayI shouldBe thankfulFor that shortGlimpseBut it onlyPush.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1906573/ It's when youAre aloneIs when youNoticeThat sometimesOnly certainPeople can fixYour sicknessEven whenYou are used toFighting throughNow they areGoneBecause it wasTimeFor youTo move ForwardIt only makesThe day HarderEspecially whenYou can't seemTo keep your Mind off of theDateBut you C.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1906571/ I feelLike I'mBreakingBreaking intoMillions of PiecesWhat happened?Where did IGo?How did Ilet thisHappen?I don't knowHowI got here But I Need to bePut back TogetherNot withTapeOr duct tapeOr staplesOr glueI needTo heelOr justSomeone to Listen http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1906568/ Familyshould LoveNot HateNor HurtYet it happensSome on AccidentsOther timesDeliberateHow can youRun? Or better yetEscapeLiving in constantPainIsn't worthSafetyIs it?Why are peopleBlind to Keep their Hopes Or blindDue to Stereotypes?Life isn't Always full ofDesiresor Nee.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1906264/ You sayIts for the bestBut perceptionIs realityThe realitySays itsSuspiciousThat one momentEverything is perfectThe next you give It awayThe words are notAdding upMaking me wonderWho am IReally withSomeone that's a FriendSomeone that actuallyCaresSomeone who LovesOr are youSomeone whoWalks up Takes .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/megwilke/1903826/