http://slow.writerscafe.org/Ashleymhoward23 The original writings of author darkness*star1985 en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776048132 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15    On wings of longing, once they soared, Dreams and hopes in skies adored, Now shadow drift where light once gleamed,love's distant echo, softly streamed. A whisper of what used to be,fading memories.Yet in the heart, a silent cry,for love long gone, still lingering ni.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/2957637/ In the quiet depths where shadows dwell,A whisper of darkness begins to swell,Frustration’s fire, a restless flame,Burns through the silence, calling my name.  Loneliness wraps its cold, silent shroud,A ghostly echo beneath the cloud,Heartbreak’s ache, a tear-streaked art,Remin.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/2957636/ Along in the night, where our love once bloomed,I feel the distance, cold and consumed.Lost in the echo of words unspoken,Hearts torn, hopes broken, dreams forsaken.  Frustration’s grip tightens, shadows grow,Longing for a warmth I’ll never know.Yet still I reach through the si.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/2957635/ In shadows of fading dawn, I stand alone,Lost in the echo of a love once known.Frustration weaves through trembling veins,A ache, a void silent, unexplainable pains.  Longing’s whisper, a ghost in the night,Yearning for warmth that slips from sight.But love, you drift like a distant .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/2957634/ Back against the wall.time is ticking down.hate in my eyes. You broke what was inside, now i have everything to hide.walls are you going up. so high.You think your winning, everytime you tear me down.you don't have a clue, what is hidding in the depths.  In the sha.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/2935281/  Time and time again i look at this computer screenwondering what to say. what is in this empty mind of mine?I should be sleeping, but its becoming harder these daysNever enough time, always in a rush. Day to day, night to night when will i stop this spinning.There is so much i like t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/2896517/ I do everything around here, you don't careso what am I doing hereI feel so unloved, so untouchedyou make me feel dirt under your nailsso what am I doing hereI say I don't care you know that's a lieyou know that I care way to much because I cry and I fight even when I want to give upb.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/2742981/ Moon shines Stars are covering the skyMany nights have come and gone But it seems all the sameYou invade my mind space Leaving my head in a mess.Picture find there way in my sight Mix emotion spreads across my faceHow to escape my torture soul Question ask in dead silence dre.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/2660387/ War.. Under fire.... Pride You say shut the f**k up and sit down.I say go f**k yourself Battle... Bombs... EgoGet the f**k outNo you get the f**k outAround around we goNever changing is this really my storyIn my head i scream at me why do you torture yourself. You say i am the blam.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/2642379/ Bright stars light up the night, man on the moon keeps good company, everything that mr. Frost touches turns frozen, the wind blows the cold around me as snow wolf's howl in the far off distances, sending goose bumps over my pale icy skin. The stars light my way but i still cant find my way out, the.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/2115059/       "Good night," she says in a quiet voice to her husband as he heads to bed, she should be following, but she finds herself not ready to go lay down next to him. She turns on the show she loves but never really watches, she envisions what her life would be like if she would have t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/2014735/ I feel lock inside of myself The darkness creeping inside of meHanging on the edge of everything that is realday by day hour by hour can't break free of these demons running from all these ghosts inside my mindlock the door I need peace tonight Can't stop this feeling of dar.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1657508/  You came in like a cold black wind, I dropped my guard, and let you in.I followed my heart and here were are. now I'm wishing I was dead. I gave you all of me, everything thing I have. you took it away.I started to build trust in younow I'm screw. I wish we never met. I wish I didn't say yes. .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1376490/ Leave... Go ahead and leave. Just walk out of my door. be another one to call it quits. I can take it, i am strong enoughbreak my already broken heartwho cares right? not I, i am used to it. So leave... Go ahead and leave...Leave me to myself, i have nothing left to give. my heart is like a stone. A.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1328787/   Dark sky's come to play,Turn out the lights leave me. Turn my world upside down. Come take over meI don't want to feel anymore Dear moon send me the skyof black, cast your shadows over meProtect me, build a shield around me.. Take my heart from this cold chestplace it in a box and cast it to .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1282403/ My head spins around the thoughts of you every time I wake up.. but that's for a different time and day, speaking of days it feels like days and weeks run together, time is moving too fast like a freight train I just can't catch up.To much is in my mind.. soon ill be able to jump trackb.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1280756/ Here i am again.. fear is in my pocket.. Taking over me, until i am nothing left.. i feel beat down, back in to my dark days.. You can be so cold, when you scream. Take these hands off of me.. you have me here, as long as i fear you... Set me free. unlock these chai.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1242997/ Thoughts come and go. I just stare off into space... Lost without a sound. but I cant find the mute button.. walls closing in, I cant breath... I cant move from this spot, but I can lay still... I can't seem to get rid of this headache but this tears I cry doesn't seem to help. i scream out lou.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1237715/ laying here defeated, broken, numb. nothing left inside,fear eats me alive.I hold my key to freedom yet im to afraid to use it.. look at myself, i am not me anymorei just a ghost of who i used to be. Tears of defeat fall  down my facedrowning here, losing all sense.. is freedom in my future or .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1235778/               Strong loving arms to hold me, though the night.                        Gentle hands to promise protection, and safety. &.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1224660/ Put me down, knock me out. Shut me up, lock me down.Rather take a beating, then your Cold silent.3am and I'm wake awake.. with those dark thoughts. How wonderful the thought of slide a blade again. But I promise to give that up. Promise I try to keep. Will I ever change.. .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1210323/    The world is big, i feel small. I am in love with the man, he is simple everything i want and more. I am thankful to have someone that i can say is my own.. so you ask why is there an upside down smile on my face...because this man i so adore can true around and just be so cruel if he r.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1203849/ All my days i have followed the codeLive a good life, be a good person.. i have cross some lines.. but i paid my debt.code is an honor i hold to the highest I now stand in my world, things are not the picture i hope it would be. I received news that is heartbreaking.There is only one thing i ever wa.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1186846/ Love poem. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1163903/  The enemy lies some where in the wake.He sees me, he watches me.With unseen eyes, he makes his move. what provoke him to but his mark on me. But I was not alone, but he found his prize but he did not win Friday night.With a drop of some drug, he try to cage me in. How this sneaky son of a b***.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1152076/  When the games are done.  When the battles are over. When the rain stops.  When the war is done.    Then what? What happens next?For all you knew was to stand and fight,now you have won.  All i have left is nothing,  Fall to my knees, defeated.&nbsp.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1134073/ Boss man says i can't cut it just yetSays i need more training, I end  my creep shift hours, sit at the bar to get a drink.5mins i order a drink with a shot.more bodies are flowing in, people sit and wait.Jump up and get behind the bar to help serve drinks.I served 6 people to her 3. no time i .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1133109/ Hey there, if i can only get a moment of your time,I make this short.I am done, we have lost.White flag i rise. It hurts to much, to be sitting here waiting and praying to the gods. I know my mistakes, i know you can't turn back I don't blame you for wanting too. But it doesn't stop the hurt, the te.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1132145/ Valentine's day love is in the air,baskets of candy,vase of flowers,sweet letters and card of cute saying,Romantic dinners. I don't buy into the day shouldn't be a holidayonce you find it never let it golove should be cherish everyday not just one day in a year. I might be bitter on this dayI m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1125765/ I have fought my battles i have lost, but i have won. I been kicked downi have stood my ground.The places i been The stories i can tell.The dark was my cloud of choicenow i choose life. I have live in the safetyI have seen the edge. I have been pushedi have pulled. I have loved so hard to give up so.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1112481/ You were my best friend, I trust you with my life.Sitting in the darksharing are deepest fears, telling are most important secretsThe way we laugh, could spark a roomfuture we spoke, lit up your eyes,Past we spoke, holding on to each others handyou were my best friendthen you went awayleft me here, .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1104090/ I want to thank you for all the pain and hurt you dealt my wayI want to thank you for the screaming nights, all the tears,all the sleepless nights, waiting for your call for days, silents I want to thank you for all the crap i had to deal with, with living your way, and only of that. I want to thank.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1103151/ No more tears run down my facea smile and plastered on my lipsI got my emotions under control realized how childish i wasi used to be lovable, but now its seems impossible, keep them at a distance my heart is not like it used to bei guess that's all part of growing upI want to love again, i want to.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1102804/ Oh its been a trip,It's been fun. Now its no fun,so i leave you with thisMy last thoughtslove with your heart. Your heart will never be wrongnever hold back. I have my share. but only one i really love now he wont speak to meI know i have done wrong. i know my faultsI am sorry for everythingeve.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1044558/ Where was the time goneit doesn't matter nowI woke up last week a brand new meTake names and kicking assI'm just sorry your missing itbut then again i am glad your gonebecause you would just bring me downyou would hold me back. I am not the same girl i was 2 years agoor even 4 months agoI am the bes.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1044228/ I am not looking,but i still fight the good fightI close my eyes and i jumpI give you my heart all that's insideYet I don't ask for much, there you stand silence as a mouseI know you see me, looking at youAnd you take a glance my wayThen you turn and act like i am a ghostI will not leave. I am stron.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1036613/ You left me in the cold dust, my tears flowing down my face. I wanted you to stay, but you had to go. My resentment started to build, I think i started to push you way.I didn't want to feel the pain,when you left me behind.  We love each other so strongmaybe it wasn't our time. I need time to g.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1035558/ Night calls, frost lingers on the window. She lays her head down on the pillow, beads of sweat trickle down to stain the pillowThe smells for lavender move around the room. Comforts her. She bunches the cotton sheet around her naked bodythe sheet hugs all the right curves. She wishes her love would .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1034160/  I am done, holding my breath My tears will never fall again The board is up on my heart, Nailed shut, you never find your way in again You broke everything inside me, now i have to pick up the pieceI told you from the beginning to never hurt me.Now I cry, just wanting for y.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1033411/ Throw the page out the window, I have ran out of words to say. I never stop giving up the hope, that we could started again.Maybe I am a fool,This fool is still in love with you. I know you were my home, I have wonder way. Hurt and pain i have done,I know I could never undue. I want to come home,but.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1028747/ I am stronger then you thinkI can take a mountain downI was born to be gentlebut don't be fooledThere is a strength in me nothing can stand in my wayI will take it down with one handI am built for beauty, I have found my strengthYou don't fool meyou don't scare meI have nothing but I have everything.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1028632/ Love is dead, love can bit meI am done. I never want to feel that feeling that you getwhen love comes aroundGet lost, my heart is already brokenYou just plunge the knife in my soul took what was left. empty as a shell after you break it. Depression takes over, and i fall in a black holeI can't get c.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1026028/ Eyes raw and puffy, nights i stay up all nightI cried for hours until my tears turn to dust8 am came around i was on my way out the doori won't let anything interfere with work, but even in the hours i scrubbing floorsi found myself, almost in tears again. Cold as Ice is all you areI still under if .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1025758/ Time is not on my side. falling though the skynothing left insidereplace this heart of mine. make me feel again. the cold creeps in like a ribbon wrap around my soul freezes me to the boneTime is not on my sidewish i could be falling thought the sky. nothing left inside. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1023337/ This is weird in its self, but i didn't know how to tell of one of my nights out, the other night was a weird one for sure. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1020762/ When you wake updo you even realize that i am goneDo you still sleep on right side of the beddo you touch my side, wishing i was still there. Does my smell still linger are the sheets still crumpled Do you even miss me, does someone else take my placeI miss the spot I used to layright next to the me.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1017076/    Three years ago. My mom fall in love with this really great guy. Everything was just prefect, the date was set for them to be married and have my baby sister. Three days before the wedding, I was at dinner with this really cute completely sexy guy, I was trying to get the nerve .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1016646/ This is probably stupid and probably really bad. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1016037/  My heart skips a beat, when all the lights go out in the house. All due to the mean storm brewing outside my window, Storms freak me out, only because you don't know what mother nature as in store, and you can't see what is to come. So now here I am alone in this cold dark house. I am .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1014822/ He is back for more revenge, when Carly finds a dead body in her house. will she make it out of this hell that keeps Coming her way. will she finally kill him Randy, Her mothers boyfriend. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Ashleymhoward23/1014817/