http://slow.writerscafe.org/Lonleygirl24 The original writings of author Emily en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1775930569 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 If I got my way I’d lock away every memory of you.For those memories that once brought me joy make me sick. You fed on my vulnerability, How was I so blind to think anything you said was real. But now it’s all too real, The memories, The lies, Everything I w.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2798153/ Do you see that quiet girl in the park, The one hiding behind her camera?Do you notice that girl sitting in the back of the coffee shop reading?Because she sees everything, You see she's there just waiting, waiting to be needed. Waiting to lend an ear to someone who needs a to ta.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2798040/ My motherA woman once filled with pure laughter and joy, A smile that lit the room when she entered. My mother has the heart of gold you see. She always had an ear to lend with perfect advice to follow,The perfect shoulder to cry on, While she held your hand and told you everythi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2797986/ Love, fantasy http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2797913/ At least ten years have passed, Yet I’ve always found myself yearning to know what happened to him. I often worried, as the “mother” of the groups I hung around with what happened to my dear best friend. The boy that filled my whole world,While I stood by basking in the fac.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2797837/ always waiting for the shoe to fall http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2796115/ I have a monster that resides within, This monster thought he had all of the control, Control over my life, my mind, even my family. But that stops today, I cannot let this monster keep controlling my life, And more importantly I won’t let him control the person I love the most. Sh.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2792326/ Its been a over a year since you walked away from me, Without any reason or any goodbyes. I don't know why or what I did to deserve this pain again. You stepped up and was my main support system for so many years. But not because I asked you to be, You chose to step up .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2464246/ Our eyes are saying things that they can't take back, We both know what's going on in each others head. We both know how bad we want this,How bad we hope that maybe someday it could all work out.Your smile lights up the dark room were in, Your touch brings me to a whole new world.&nbs.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2068912/ Someone grab ahold of what's left of me, Hold onto me and walk me through the storm, The clouds are getting darker, Taking away all of the sunshine that once stood. Raindrops are falling upon my cold cheeks, Blending in with the tears that have been pouring down. Help m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2068898/ Tonight I sit and think about how transparent we've been this weekHow I've told you that I hate that I can't have you, How you've told me that I'm not going through this alone,How I've spilled my emotions out on you today, After all you asked for my transparency, But how transparent i.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2066320/ I'm trying to keep my head above water, Realizing this is what happens every time October comes aroundThe nightmares return, I see my dad crushed under a tank, I pull out the depositions from the lawsuit and reread them, I've read them hundreds of times, But something new po.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2066318/ I don't think you understand what you do to me, You don't see how much I need you in my life. The thought of loosing you takes me to a place I don't want to go. All I want is to end up with you, I want to call you mine.I want to take all of your problems away, I want you to .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2065667/ I can’t handle another goodbye, I wasn’t ready to loose my last grandpa, An amazing man who was constantly reminding me how he took my father in as his own son,A man full of endless smiles and stories,Now it’s time for us to gather together in honor of your amazing life. .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2064759/ I for the first time looked at you and saw someone I didn't recognize, A strong man facing the unknown of what this weeks news may bring, A man scared of what his future now holds if the results come back bad. You've always been the strongest person I know, Standing by my side th.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2062383/ I won't let you leave without a fight, I refuse to let this relationship crumble and fall like the rest, I will fight against all the odds to have you in my life. I will raise hell with the ones who don't accept it, You're all I want in this life, I ache to hear your voice a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2061190/ I woke up this morning with fire burning through my soul, Today's the day, It's time to rise and shine and get to it. I put my headphones on and turn on "My Little Girl" By Tim McGrawThe first sentence pulls at my heart strings, "Gotta hold on easy as I let you go"Tears roll down.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2060679/ I know what they all think, They all think I have this wall of mine up too high. But what most don't realize is this wall is there for a reason. I've been hurt too many times to put the wall back down, It took a lot of strength and power to put this wall up around me. It mea.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2060675/ I'd love to just put everything out there, Tell you exactly what's been going on in my life. I wish I could trust you to not laugh at my feelings. I'm your little girl and your best friend all in one, Yet I still find myself hiding things from you. I try telling you I want t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2055319/ I never knew how amazing being an aunt could feel http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2055275/ This is me http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2051839/ Is anybody out there? Can you hear my thoughts, can you hear my prayers?Someone please lead me out of this darkness and into the light, Carry me along the way and show me what this life is all about. I'm sick of being in the dark and not knowing what is going on around me. So sho.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2051836/ I always knew I had amazing men in my life, My hero and best friend being my father, My Uncles always being there through all my milestones. Low and behold did I know that my Uncles would be filling my fathers roll when he passed. Filling all the empty spaces and voids without ov.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2051829/ I look into the mirror and only I can see the pain I hold inside, I hide behind this stupid fake smile instead of letting them see my pain. The pain I have from tragically losing my father at 20 years old, The fear that my epilepsy will hold me back from all this life holds for me. I’m scared .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2043126/ Your words cut me like a knife, Over and over you tell me how useless I am. How I'll never become anything. I've finally come to terms our relationship is over. You bring me more pain then anybody else. I'd rather be physically abused then emotionally abused on a daily basis.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2043123/ I sit on the beach, Watching out at the waves rippiling in on the lake, I see the renters a couple cottages down, The dads going out fishing with his boys, All the memories come flooding through me.The times out on the boat, All the laughter and joy that used to fill my life.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2038885/ I find myself falling into old habits, Listening to my dads funeral tape, Rereading the depositions from the lawsuit. HOW did they let me see that picture, What kind of sick lawyer wants to show a 21 year old girl a picture of her father dead in a hole. I still find myself waking up in the middle of.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2034059/ I took my time with you for granted, Only God knew he'd take you away from me when you were only 47They all say the good die young and that's definitely a fact in this situation. You were one of the most amazing human beings I've ever met. You'd give the shirt off of your back for som.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2024092/ 4/29/18I will not change the person I've become, I'm so much stronger then I used to be, I've gone through hell and back the past six years. I lost my dad and had to pick up the pieces, I lost all of my freedom when I got sick and started having seizures again. Going through.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2024067/ 4/29/18I owe all of my happiness to you, You've changed me. I went from broken and confused, To feeling loved by someone.You put a smile on my face on my hardest days, You're constantly making me laugh. You're truly the perfect man. You show up in my dreams regularly.&n.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2024062/ 4/23/18I have dark emotions running through my mind, Thoughts I've had for years start to resurface, I don't want to keep hiding behind this smile, I want to be happy again, I want to feel alive again inside. I pull out the razor and set it on the table, I stare at it h.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2022607/ 4/23/18She likes to hide her pain so she pours another drink,It’s been almost 6 years and she still can’t go a day without a drink,She’s broken without her husband here,She feels lost and alone with everything we’ve been through. I stuck by her side, I gave up all.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2022589/ 4/19/18 http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2021524/ 4/19/18 http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2021500/ 4/18/2018Tonight I lay here questioning everything,Questioning what’s going to happen next,Questioning if I should sit you down and tell you how I feel,This is all a lot harder then I expected it to be. I would love nothing more then to be with you, But you being married has put us.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2021232/ 4/16/2018Do you realize the harm you caused to my family?Do you realize you were in charge of a whole entire company yet you couldn't handle doing your job right, If you would have taken the right steps my dad would still be here today. He would be here holding my hand through life, B.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2020536/ If you love me don't let me go, Tell me how you feel. If you love me don't let anything stop this.Come pick me up and take me somewhere, Lets go walk the pier and watch the sun go down. Lets sit in your truck and listen to music. Lets stare into each others eyes. If you.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2020374/ I wonder if you'd be proud of the woman I've grown to be, I'm no longer the little girl you raised, I wonder if you watch down on me from heaven smiling, I wonder what life would be like if you were still here. I wonder what you'd be telling me about how much I love him. Wou.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2020356/ Tell me your thoughts, Tell me your feelings, What do you want from this? Please talk to me and tell me everything is going to be okay. Tell me this is all going to work out. Don't push me off to the side, I need you in my life. Tell me whats going on in that head of yo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2020350/ The best is yet to come,There is so much more beauty we're going to find out of this, We have a whole life left to live together, I can't wait to make more amazing memories with you my love, Us spending time up north together, walking in the woods,Me showing you around the place where.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2020345/ There is nothing more comforting then the sound of your voice, The softness of your touch across my body. You make me melt at the thought of you. Your lips on mine is the best feeling in the world. I close my eyes and think of the kiss we shared and I grin like a little school gi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2020341/ I'll be here for you, Through thick and thin I will stand by your side, I promise to love you the way you deserve to be loved, I promise to support you with everything in me. I want to be the one that stands by your side. The girl you wrap your arms around. The girl you.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2020292/ It feels like I've been living in a dream this past week, I can't seem to wrap my mind around everything that has happened.You're really leaving her, which means we really have a chance at this. There have always been feelings there, we both know this, But those feelings couldn't be a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2020128/ When will it be time for us to be together, When can we share these feelings we both have each other, When will we have to stop fighting these feelings and just be together. When will you see yourself through my eyes? When I close my eyes and go to sleep you're always there,&nbsp.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2020125/ You have awoken my spirits, Since you came into my life I have felt alive again. I used to fight through everyday, not wanting to live, Not wanting to fight, but you give me something to fight for.You've opened my eyes to a whole new life. A life of happiness, where I wake up in .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2020073/ You just left and I find myself hiding already, Hiding from the pain I feel when you walk out the door, Hiding from all these emotions, I put my feelings into writing, But only writing things I know you'll never see, God forbid I tell you the whole truth, every detail of my heart.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2020070/ My wish is for you to see yourself the way I see you, I wish for you to be happy with everything you do, I wish we could be together right now but I know we need to wait. Wait for this divorce to be over, wait for her to be moved out. I wish you knew how much I respect you for no.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2019962/ I close my eyes and picture my future, I see a tiny wooden house in the middle of nowhere, With two rocking chairs on the front porch. I see myself with you on the front porch rocking back and forth, Staring into each others eyes, I see us talking for hours and watching the .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2019955/ Oh brother, I see the pain you hold deep inside you. I can see you're hurting but don't want us to know. You lost dad when you were 17 years old, Far to young for a boy to loose his role model. You went out of control and our relationship fell apart. But you got life ba.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2019954/ I wonder if I cross your mind as much as you cross my mind, I wonder if you check your phone all the time to see if I've texted you. I wonder what you're thinking and what you're doing. I have all these questions going through my head all the time. I wonder what this is, where it.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Lonleygirl24/2019953/