http://slow.writerscafe.org/Saijinsong The original writings of author saijinsong en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776198086 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 The wheels fell off the cart tonight and the rope’s still tied around my neck but somehow everything’s alrightcause right now I’m numb andI can’t tell the difference betweenmy notions of what’s wrong or right ‘causeafter last night I’d be fine if.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Saijinsong/418720/ it's not which one I think you are, but rather, which one I want you to be. questions. perceptions. boredom. and the shadows of each illusion. with a smile. accepted. excepted. still a kiss and a frown. but still the kiss. does it bring the smile? does it feed the flame? who does it really belong to.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Saijinsong/418718/ Say something beautifulsay anything, say my namechange my perspective, change everythingpaint me a cranberry sky for this tangerine dreamwith just a wordyou can change the color of my raindo something for mejust this one thing, hold my handchange my perspective, change everything.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Saijinsong/418715/ I’ve spent all my time trying to set things up, dial in the perfect sounda perfect balance in the highs and lowsI’ve thought of all the things I’ve done and didn’t doand said and times I’ve kept my lips sewn up and focused my attentionon anything other than th.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Saijinsong/418707/ Another step backwards in an attempt to free myself from this self-imposed exile. i think i may have broken my sobriety in vain attempts to find a new reason to smile but all i keep stumbling upon are headlines from days past that continue to highlight all the things that have and continue to piss m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Saijinsong/418706/ In front of me stands a helpless little girlI asked ...come downNo reply as I turned and thoughtSo shallow, dismantled displaced but unequaledWhy?, she said, because I don’t know youI just sighed and turned and thoughtShe’s helpless, so clueless, bruised but still gorgeous .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Saijinsong/405582/ Sitting watching the sunset how so beautiful to think of youOne time when it’s over and ittruly is just the beginningWriting about you in the dark again how so beautiful to think of youAnother day has passed by and it surely is just the beginning.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Saijinsong/405581/ Uncontrollably, you scream out a namehis name, my name, the same, I don’t knowAnxious but temptedfree of pretentious thoughts of what he or me could beif judged strictly on appearanceyour fears bolted in firm to a history of disappointmentand finger pointing, the tragedies of what&.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Saijinsong/405580/ One last all encompassing thank you,    to the three of youA simultaneous convergence,    of idiotsOne who lied to me One who cried to meOne who thinks that, just maybe, she still wants me500 miles between us and you and her and meis this some f*****g .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Saijinsong/405578/  I’ll say my final prayer to who? For what? And when? It’s too muchI’ll ask for forgiveness but why? For what?Won’t cry. It’s too muchI can’t recall what it is  I’ve done were you the one?.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Saijinsong/405577/ Distant    I’m not strong enough to carry both of us, it seemsI’m having trouble breathing hereit’s just like in my dreamThe one that keeps on waking me it’s shaking me and breaking meand leaving me here with questions of just how to breathe.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Saijinsong/405575/ There are times when I talk too muchwhen I think too muchand I drink too muchIs it ever enough or never enough?So give me anotherso I shut my mouthand I shut you out‘cause I’ve had enough with having just enoughSolace in this solitudebut my attitude is making thisa .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Saijinsong/405574/ Please release me from this pitiful and hopeless This self destructive curse this, questionably necessaryat least to me, insignificant form of communicationPlease forgive me if I have failed youIf I refuse to , or simply cannot find the -Excuse me, words escape me, for the momentbut .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Saijinsong/405573/ What’s gonna happen whenwe’re forced to stop pretending today is just a dream andtomorrow can’t exist and we can somehow erase the memories?When we can’t fill our veins just to dream? When addiction becomes reality?To be clean, our own abnormality?  Who.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Saijinsong/405572/ I’ve been around this neighborhood at least a couple timesor was it once, I don’t remember, it seems so familiarI’ve been in that store before to buy a pack of cigarettesIt was just the other day or maybe this morningI’m not sure ‘cause everything looks the same.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Saijinsong/405571/ Black and blue and brokenTruth dismissed as fictionCut back and closedAvoid the light to hide the bruiseCover the seed with soiled leaves             and pray the flower bloomsPale faced, untrue and chokingSelf-induced deprivationUntied .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Saijinsong/405570/ This means nothing, apparentlyIn efforts to convince myself it seemsI’ve come to grips with thisWith what? I’ve lost my gripon what?‘Cause after all now, this means nothingOr at least, that’s what I’ve made of it This means nothing, I tell myself th.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Saijinsong/405568/