http://slow.writerscafe.org/mandiecandie321 The original writings of author mandiecane321 en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776361520 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 about my husband and the last couple months. forever and always 9-5-12 http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/1385580/ A Broken HeartI wanted youRight from the startHear the beat of this broken heartNow you're goneIt's not to beWhy were you taken from meMy baby is goneMy life goes onMy heart still beatsBut there's a distance in meI wanted youI really doLittle baby in heavenThis mummy loves you http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/1385451/ For those two pink lines we long to see,Please God give us this unborn baby to be,You have already taken one of our angels that we now have to wait to meet,We pray to have a little one, one day to call our very own,We promise to give it our all,And always be our best,To give this precious baby love .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/1385450/ Empty arms and an empty heart,My life feels so torn apart.It's not fair, she should be here,Oh no there goes another tear.I never got to say goodbye,Why oh why did she have to die?Time has passed, what I wouldn't give,Just to see my daughter live,A minute, a hour or just one day,I'd give up anything.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/1385447/ The emptiness is what is painfulThe empty belly is what hurtsThe empty arms is what makes me cry The daughter who is supposed to be here isn't I see 100 people around me full no emptiness for them Get that great joy Why do I only get emptiness and disappointment each month ?It ki.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/1385446/ Though we never got to meet you.Don't think that we don't care.Though we never got to meet you,Doesn't mean you weren't there. The few weeks that you blessed us with,Are a lifetime in our hearts,We loved you more than life itself,And now it's tearing us in parts. Though we never got to mee.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/1385445/ november 2 2013 http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/1384481/ 4/15/12 Backwhen I pictured my life Neverthought id be where I am now.Finallyhappy with the most amazing guyWhowould be the reason that I have a smile on my face everyday  Iddo anything for this man Lovingmy life and the new path Ican see m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/1317343/ 8/26/11 http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/787246/ aug 19 http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/786004/ aug 25 http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/786003/ I love you and you broke me i thought about a future it all crashedi regret moving away because i may f been the person in your arms and not heri love you so much still i cant get over it it burns and pain all the time your thinking move onive tried but your all i cal think about it .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/782580/ one million  one million one the counting starts as my anger builds the persons face looks good but a brick wall looks even better bam hit the wall the pain goes through my body anger builds more i hit the wall agian and scream im done life sucks a*s im tired of the people that are around .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/782578/  Over whelmedStressed outCrying tears of painLike a razor knife scraping my lifeInterfering with my siteI love you I miss you 2 little sentences I hold on to For some hope for some loveSomething to remind me of youThe pain is everday It doesn’t even fadeMy heart is.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/782565/ 4-5-09The date that is always in my mindFrom morning to night4-5-09What a dreadful day that changed my lifeThe tears the painAlmost overflowing to a knife!Noone can understand the way it feltI felt like my life was another book on Gods shelfNot a fairy taleNo far from itNot a l.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/782564/ the things that go through my mind never stopi wonder can i really love agian well i can but will it last am i going to be hurt as before. heart being shattered and smashed and so hard to come back from?the things run through my mind like race cars on a sunday afternoon on nascarzoom zoom it.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/749801/ yell rant and tear through the house this woman doesshe has no anger towards few but she does for one because she knows she had no control and fear she will loose what small control she has, bitching constantly very seldom is it quiet its always  one thing or another, not one fighting its t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/749799/ The. Things that go through my mind I feel like I  am walking blind I get a chill from. A thought I come to relizatiom you have to work to ne happy No glee I just want to flee Why cAnt anyone accept me for me I feelike ppl think I'm a. Door matI don't.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/713425/ the anger rolls through the things i could doi just grabed the music and flewif they had a clue theyd step back chew a piece of gum and jam steam blowing all through im numbthere dumb pushing me so farwhy is things never fairwhy do i dare think things would be betteryes im a cutter.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/708888/ anger can be dangerousif you want to flee music is the key to the escapedont know what to do ?writting and music is how i fleei cant deal with all of it i fall into darknessall the thoughts rush i push it all down wear the smile dont dare change thatno cheer here just want a be.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/708886/ the things that go through my mindi feel like i am walking blindi get a chill from a thought i come to realization you have to work to be happy no glee i just want to flee why cant anyone accept me for me i feel like people think i am a door matt i dont need more pain just trying to be.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/708884/ about my father 2008 http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707754/ the update you sit and refresh forthe test you wait for all you long for is there voice there messageall the choices to be madewhat i do ? laid therelifes not fair! the thoughts role i can fool everyone the plastered smiledial the number then erase itmy heart races when the light blinksall i do is t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707749/ the fast paceheat raceing the time flysmy eyes roll when will it go away ?my chest tightens back tightensi want to be the bestwhat about the past?hearing that song sent a blast though me i just want to flee from it all the pain the hurt all the choices glad all the blades are gonebut i feel like im .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707746/ the time seems to go so slowley you hear chims in the distancehe many days where stress just overwhelmsyou lay there trying to come up with a plan do i dare be happy?the many mood swingsthe blood drips no longerthat may be why i dont feel realthe redness out of that place showed me i go through the .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707736/ depession sets in thoughts dont stop the repressed memories are so alivei want to take a dive and never come back what lacks from my life? happinessthe knife that used to be sharp is dull i fall so easily... people you could call your friends not really there for you yes i feel blue its 99.7% of the.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707731/ The pain you cause my heart You not calling or writing is like a dart in my heartFew people have found me balling the reason is your inconsiderationI just want to flee when the  subject comes up go emotionless to get through the conversation No glee when that name is mentioned the many disappoi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707723/ as your color slowly fades away the blade seeks deeperas you start to fade slowlythe dart in your heat seeks deeperyour heart keeper can only save you nowonly the keeper is clueless your not full your empty and coldyou become bold with words seems like you struck gold but you fold http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707717/ wish i had the little tampering feetand the crying the monster hair in the morning late nights with colicno time for dates the lime for the dishwasheri wish so badly i had it all little lad to teach the right things to the fights when they get olderthe play dates to schedulethere first.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707713/ carmel skin brown eyes the time flys by as im in his arms there is no alarm he is m dear my love and the key holder of my hearthe is now a nig part of me not a day gos by withoug him on my mindlights no longer dim always act on a whim nothing lackinghere he is my love never harsh with word he is abo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707709/ love is the hashist tourchore rips you apart and never heals completky the heart races there joy then in a second there are tearsand ou have been slicedmaybe planned a life now it blows up in a moments noticethere are many tears to be shed over the person you loved you may grow to hate them for all .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707706/ made me feel so happy such glee now all ou do is stay in my mind its crazy how things happen love is evil throws you back and fourth can make a person go insane or in such pain it has caused alot of pain that day nov 28 was greati never faked but did you? i sit and wonder i ponder abou.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707702/ love is hard love is truelove can be a blind tripmy heart is yoursall the doors are openmy eyes are closed take my hand and lead me through i am giving you all my trustmy heart is in our hands i hope this love is not a liemy heart cant bare another sham my mind is cramed http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707700/ my heart is like a open book all i want is a look to console my heartthe pain inside is no longer just because of your lovei think we may have a dovebefore i could blink i fell in love all because of your sweet lovethat day with the dove will come at least you say this to me nowi am .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707697/ addicted to the scent to the sound of his voiceis crazy choices his sense of humor there are no rumors or misnomersi think it may be called love or maybe a pretextthe feelings are hard to disifer it makes my mind go roundmy heart pounds the feeling when im with him is amazing http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707696/ The heart is not really complete my spirit depleats my life no longer complete my heart wants to speak my mind does not allowmy eyes tear as i think my eyes are pinki do not want to thinkbut my mind does not bow or allow me to stopas i mop up tears i lay my heart siezes to beat and.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707695/ The fear makes me teari think o my dear my heart is not nearits like a dart o deari try to move but canttheres no love therei try to be cheer but cantmy dear i look at the future no longer lightbut dark i want lighti wish light once agian a new life to begin http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707691/ why  why was i chosen for this to happen to the filth i lay frozen thinking why me i want to flea to a far away placei see his face i screami cling to old memories i cry thinking why me i want to just layi  start to decay thats my hearti mat say i cant take another day http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707688/ i float so high as the sy my heart races all i think about is him its all clear nowmy heart bows all i say is i surenderthe beats hinder when im with him the clock stops everything is clear so i surrender http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707684/ as time flys byei lay here thinkink whywhy would he liei sorta cry i wanna fly i wanna fly so far away maybe to bombayi still wonder why why do i care so much i wonder http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707679/ http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/mandiecandie321/707677/